VT, I'm, for some odd reason, just a little bit not surprised to see ya' here!
I miss the family. I haven't seen 'em since I was 17, I'll be 40 in a couple months. I think that hallucinogens may be the key to putting my brain back together. I keep reading trip reports, trip stories, etc. about people that can't concentrate, etc. With both LSD and mushies, I always had a heightened sense of clarity, could be the personality disorder, could be something else. But, they allowed a clarity that I've not found since. That, and refocusing my life, are my big reasons for wanting to trip again.
I've had a draw, though, for a couple months now. Dragging me toward mushies. And then, my guy stops by and just gifts me a hit of "acid." As long as the chemical isn't lethal, and doesn't cause psychotic hallucinations (like diphenhydramine,) than I'm good with it. I seek the mental clarity, not the hallucinations.