Rant from an aspiring looser...

Hi all!

So yeah, I could become a pharmacist or a psychologist but I have shitty parents and a shitty job.
All I can say is thank god for weed...else I would of killed myself.

So to resume it, I'm a 23 year old loser that works at a grocery store as a cashier.
I love to read about psychology, pharmacodynamics but sadly I can't pursue my dream jobs.

I don't have a lot of money (I work at a grocery store remember) and my mother would never let me stay home for my studies and there's just no way I can pay rent/groceries with my salary with university on top.
My mother is kind of crazy...she always resorts to aggressivity and verbal violence. So whenever something isn't perfect to her or she's displeased by something she says "This is my house, if you are not happy, leave".
She has those chronic fits where she'll look around the house to find something she can use to argue with me or just plain yell at me. Anything to cause drama.

Like I said I'm 23 years old and shouting at me doesn't work anymore. I know I'm weird, but now that I'm more mature you have to ask me politely. Yelling at me to get shit done will only yield you insults or a "do it yourself!". If you can't take the time to ask me nicely, then I don't have the time to do it.

Or when I insult her back because she insulted me first, she forgets she even insulted me. So I'm the bad kid cause I just insulted my mother out of nowhere. And no I'm not a schizo lol

Then there's the double standards! Fuck! If something happens because of her...it's not her fault, or it's not that much of a problem. When I do something I get hell for it...

Shit I know I'm hardcore but I want her to die! Everything's my fault! If I get angry and leave her alone (just not to mix her into that shit) she'll get mad at me and she'll do anything to push me.
At least 4 times a week I wanna smash her face in. Whatever the situation, she will lie, fight, scream...she'll do anything to come back on "top", and that just makes me want to stab that bitch!

To all of you who will say I'm a dick because "she's my mom".
She might be my mom, but as far as I know, "respect isn't a one way street" it goes both ways or it won't come back...

pictures please.

*loser

~couldn't resist~

Seriously, leave. You're paying too much emotional rent to offset the savings in scratch. Jmo. cn

Just shun her.

"Looser" is the opposite of tight. If that's your problem, simply tighten up. Phillips screwdriver should do the trick.

If your mother is the issue, Phillips screwdriver should fix that as well

*loser

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Sounds like sour milk , time to wean yourself and do it quick !

Wow, you're 23 years old but have the hormones of a 14 year old. " I hate you i want you to die!!!" 5 minutes later "When's dinner gonna be ready?". One day you'll feel an onset of a feeling like your going to die maybe a near death experience triggers it or just out of the blue and when that happens you'll never wish for a feeling like that to overcome someone that you dont even like let alone your own mother. If your 23 and have your own job find your own place to rent, i did that when i was 18 had to be thrown to the wolves in the big city all alone my mother could not make enough to support both of us and no work in school in such small town where im from, but hey full time job after weeks of being rejected, full time community college classes (theres a lot of ways to pay, and community college is dirt cheap), i had to eat ramen noodles for 8 months And you know what, i would walk home every day and see people that are 50x off worse all over the place. And after those years of classes i did find a decent job with full benefits, always gotta keep aiming higher and moving the notch higher. You have 2 hands and feet right? so stop feeling sorry for yourself

if theres a will theres a way i put myself through college whilepaying rent bills, and such

Orlandocb said:

Wow, you're 23 years old but have the hormones of a 14 year old. " I hate you i want you to die!!!" 5 minutes later "When's dinner gonna be ready?". One day you'll feel an onset of a feeling like your going to die maybe a near death experience triggers it or just out of the blue and when that happens you'll never wish for a feeling like that to overcome someone that you dont even like let alone your own mother. If your 23 and have your own job find your own place to rent, i did that when i was 18 had to be thrown to the wolves in the big city all alone my mother could not make enough to support both of us and no work in school in such small town where im from, but hey full time job after weeks of being rejected, full time community college classes (theres a lot of ways to pay, and community college is dirt cheap), i had to eat ramen noodles for 8 months And you know what, i would walk home every day and see people that are 50x off worse all over the place. And after those years of classes i did find a decent job with full benefits, always gotta keep aiming higher and moving the notch higher. You have 2 hands and feet right? so stop feeling sorry for yourself

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And may I ask how old you are little boy? You seem not to understand much about life. I'm not feeling sorry for myself, I'm perfectly happy as I am and I live in pain every single fucking day and most of the time I'm still smiling! It's just I know that me working at a grocery store is such a huge waste. I have a diploma in Web Design that hasn't given me anything good yet, I also have 10K debt because of that degree. I also have JRA, Hidradenitis Suppurativa and I'm not looking for pity, I know I could do a short course to go into construction, but then again I'd fall apart after 5 years. There's just no way I could go through another 8 years of school/work/stress.

Just to make things even clearer...you are a fucking prick Sir!

I think he was just trying to say this economy sucks and taking it out on your mom is not gonna help anything out man! I am in your same monetary situation, but like Sunni said if there is a will there is a way without killing someone

Is your mom hot? Most crazy bitchez are hot! Picture please? Let us get to the bottom of this hogwash!

SunnyHours said:

And may I ask how old you are little boy? You seem not to understand much about life. I'm not feeling sorry for myself, I'm perfectly happy as I am and I live in pain every single fucking day and most of the time I'm still smiling! It's just I know that me working at a grocery store is such a huge waste. I have a diploma in Web Design that hasn't given me anything good yet, I also have 10K debt because of that degree. I also have JRA, Hidradenitis Suppurativa and I'm not looking for pity, I know I could do a short course to go into construction, but then again I'd fall apart after 5 years. There's just no way I could go through another 8 years of school/work/stress.

Just to make things even clearer...you are a fucking prick Sir!

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I am 28 years young. And you are contradicting yourself making your second sentence irrelevent. You're obviously not perfectly happy, and its all your fault. I see friends happy as clams working minimum wage and doin there thing. You're the only one thats going to make you happy, plain jane simple. It just sounds like your pointing the finger at your mother when at 23 yrs old, you should be pointing it at yourself.

konagirl420 said:

I think he was just trying to say this economy sucks and taking it out on your mom is not gonna help anything out man! I am in your same monetary situation, but like Sunni said if there is a will there is a way without killing someone

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Nah no worries there...I won't be killing anyone haha
I'm just pissed because she doesn't act rationally or like an adult, yet she has all the power to piss me off. Kind of like if your kid owns you.

Hell once I get a "non-minimum salary" job I'll get the fuck out! But I'm still searching since I've never been able to hold a job for more than a year...so I need "more experience"...

Just tired of being stuck.

Orlandocb said:

I am 28 years young. And you are contradicting yourself making your second sentence irrelevent. You're obviously not perfectly happy, and its all your fault. I see friends happy as clams working minimum wage and doin there thing. You're the only one thats going to make you happy, plain jane simple. It just sounds like your pointing the finger at your mother when at 23 yrs old, you should be pointing it at yourself.

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Yeah maybe that's how it sounds, I don't doubt it. It's just that I'd like to look forward to work a little more...It's not that I don't like it, but when there aren't any clients around it's boring.
And I'm completely aware that it's my fault if I slacked off in High School. "but you have to give to Ceasars what belongs to Ceasars". As much as I would like to not say these things, she is a bitch, she is borderline crazy, she doesn't make sense and she turns anything and everything around in her favor.

My failure isn't really the subject though... it's more her alienating nature that is.

And marc, no she's NOT hot lol

This thread is nothing without pics.

"nobody gives you anything, until you make them understand"
words I will never forget.

Start working out, It releases chemicals into the brain that make you feel better + the physical effects are great. It also gives you full control over something and that is nice in a world out of control.

Menopause....

Trolling said:

Menopause....

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Is it really that bad?
That actually makes a lot of sense, it's only been a year or 2 at most she's like this

Man o'War. cn

SunnyHours said:

Hi all!

So yeah, I could become a pharmacist or a psychologist but I have shitty parents and a shitty job.
All I can say is thank god for weed...else I would of killed myself.

So to resume it, I'm a 23 year old loser that works at a grocery store as a cashier.
I love to read about psychology, pharmacodynamics but sadly I can't pursue my dream jobs.

I don't have a lot of money (I work at a grocery store remember) and my mother would never let me stay home for my studies and there's just no way I can pay rent/groceries with my salary with university on top.

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Two things I find telling here.

1. You're 23 years old and you blame your parents because you can't figure out how to have your cake and eat it too. The person that is stopping you, is you. You can work graveyards and go to school during the day or work during the day and take evening classes. You can apply for grants. There are a ton of them out there. To get YOUR dream job means YOU have to work your ass off and make the necessary sacrifices to accomplish YOUR goal. Your mom can't do this for you neither can your dad.

2. Working at a grocery store as a cashier equates with being a loser? Sounds like honest work to me. It may not pay well but its a job and I have a lot of respect for people that would rather work than sit around bitching about life and moaning that your dream will never be realized because... mommy won't let you.

SunnyHours said:

My mother is kind of crazy...she always resorts to aggressivity and verbal violence. So whenever something isn't perfect to her or she's displeased by something she says "This is my house, if you are not happy, leave".

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She's right. It IS her house. What's crazy about that?

SunnyHours said:

She has those chronic fits where she'll look around the house to find something she can use to argue with me or just plain yell at me. Anything to cause drama.

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It sounds to me like she is sick of your shit. I'm almost certain we're not getting the full story here. From what you shared you make it sound like you're completely innocent and pure as the driven snow. The only thing we need is a cross and some nails and the portrayal will be complete. You're a saint and you're parents are horrible awful people... that have raised you, fed you, clothed you, nursed you through illnesses, protected you from harm, etc., etc., etc.. You're 23 years old and they're still keeping a roof over your head and food on the table. I'd try being a little more grateful.

SunnyHours said:

Like I said I'm 23 years old and shouting at me doesn't work anymore. I know I'm weird, but now that I'm more mature you have to ask me politely. Yelling at me to get shit done will only yield you insults or a "do it yourself!". If you can't take the time to ask me nicely, then I don't have the time to do it.

Or when I insult her back because she insulted me first, she forgets she even insulted me. So I'm the bad kid cause I just insulted my mother out of nowhere. And no I'm not a schizo

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Now we're starting to see a little truth here. Honor thy mother and thy father. Regardless of what she says to you there should always be respect for you mother. She gave you life and kept your ass alive until you could feed, dress, walk and wipe yourself. She deserves respect.

SunnyHours said:

Shit I know I'm hardcore but I want her to die! Everything's my fault! If I get angry and leave her alone (just not to mix her into that shit) she'll get mad at me and she'll do anything to push me.
At least 4 times a week I wanna smash her face in. Whatever the situation, she will lie, fight, scream...she'll do anything to come back on "top", and that just makes me want to stab that bitch!

To all of you who will say I'm a dick because "she's my mom".
She might be my mom, but as far as I know, "respect isn't a one way street" it goes both ways or it won't come back...

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In the previous paragraph you talk about being more mature and then you type this ^^ LOL This is the most immature grade school shit I've ever seen come out of an adult. Respect CAN be a one way street. You know why? Because it has to be earned not demanded like some petulant child demanding an ice cream. Your mother spent 18 years raising you and caring for you. She changed your vomit filled bed sheets and clothing, she changed your shitty diapers and stayed up all hours taking care of you when you were ill. She earned respect with blood, sweat and tears.

From what I can tell, you deserve no respect whatsoever.