sorry, but i had to stop reading right there. this sort of self-righteous drivel sets me to giggling uncontrollably. just what was it you "learned"? you learned nothing, you traded in one set of beliefs for another. you traded a belief in the unprovable for the disbelief in the unprovable. nothing proven, nothing learned, nothing to base the decision on but disillusionment and confusion. if the reasons given in the OP really were what you based the denial of your faith on, then it is folks like you that i really feel sorry for. all that cute little story showed us was that you always were a follower and, when faced with crisis, you predictably chose the path of least resistance. so now you have your new faith to follow, with precepts clearly laid out for you and a new set of enemies to blame. that's all fine and dandy, but don't go thinking this gains you any moral high ground or superiority over your erstwhile compatriots. anyone with a bit of integrity would be more impressed if you'd gained a little humility along the way. you certainly haven't gained anything to be particularly proud of.