ok guys im quite shattered and this journal is nearing the end. the other night my "girlfriend" and i got into argument, she wanted me to go, i ended up threatening to take our 2 yr old daughter away with me, well, she called her meth head sister and boyfriend and there son who is training in mma to 'evict' me. they failed and long story short i did end up leaving with my dog only cus i knew the police were on the way. an hour later i thought, this isnt fair on the dog, shes shaking and scared so i went home, the sister and that are still there, and so are the cops. i knock on the door, the cops open and i let the poor dog in. they handcuff me and throw me in the back of the van. i sit there for eternity it seems and i realise when more cars pull in shes told them about my plants. so i get let inside and they video me in front of the tent and then flick the lights and rip my plants out. They took about $3000 worth of equipment, 2 ck 30 days into flower and three seedlings. I spent the night in lockup re assault, possess prohibeted plant, and they found a bayonet in my car so they charge me with having unlawful weapon. I get bail at 3pm the next day. the whole night in the fucking freezing concrete bed im not thinking about my plants, my ex or anything, but my 2 year old daughter saying dadda, dadda and i hit an all time low. I must add here that althougth obviously i am no angel, i have never fought with anyoneor argued with anyone in front of her, smacked my daughter or raised my voice at her. i front the magistrate and get conditional bail. part of that is i cant go home, legally, not that shed let me anyway, im let out wearing jeans, a tshirt and thongs, with my police bag containing my watch a couple of smokes and some paperwork and the keys for my car which is missing half because i didnt think and bent it before the cops searched my car, they snapped it and somehow the important half got 'lost' ) its freezing and ive nowhere to go. i walk into the salvos shop and ask if i leave my $700 armani watch can i take a $6 jacket, they give me the jacket. By the end of the night found a temporary roof with an old friend. I still have the clothes on my back, nothing more. I havent spoken to my "girlfriend" . My parents are on holidays. A current friend rang me today and he's not in a great position either but we may get a place together some weeks down the track. I'm shattered but all that matters is my baby and I dont know how long it will be before i see her. I love u guys, my true friends, and i didnt want to just dissapear. lgc