See How The Government Is Spending Our Money

oh yeah I forgot, I came here months ago and it was gone.

its l gonna get worse once everything gets privatized and then it becomes a business to lock potheads

So does anyone have any idea where i can get this money waster clock?

http://www.usdebtclock.org/

If you really want to know where the blood money that we call taxes goes then read this book "Behlod A Pale Horse" by William Cooper. After the first chapter you will shit your pants guaranteed it is called "Silent Weapons for Quiet Wars"
An introductory programming manual
Operations Research Technical Manual
TM-SW7905.1. dated May 1979

This is an official gov't document that fell into the wrong hands or should we say the right hands. Go to Barnes & Noble, grab the book sit down on one of thier many chairs and just read the first chapter. You don't even have to buy the book but after reading "Silent Weapons For Quiet Wars" you will buy it.

Do it for the country you thought was yours.

I just watched the video loose change, and I gotta say that these things that are brought up makes sense. The evidence is compelling, and there are plenty of credible eyewitness accounts. The hardest part for me to swallow is that our own government would do this to its own citizens. It's appaling, and although I realize that in todays world it's VERY possible, I don't know if I can, or better yet, if I WANT to believe that it's a realistic possibility. Then again, I'm having trouble wrapping my mind around the fact that my ex is not allowing me to see my own children out of spite, jealousy and anger and can be so selfish as to affect her own children negatively like that. So if a parent can abuse their own children like that, what's to stop the government from killing a few thousand strangers for the "greater good", or their own personal agendas. It's mind blowing, and I just can't let myself all wrapped up in it because it's hard enough to see the good in people these days to begin with (not all, just the majority). I guess in that sense I'm part of the problem, because if I acknowledge it, then I will feel compelled to do something about it. Ignorance truly is bliss. With an expanded mind comes expanded problems.

People always see what they want to see. ALL of the conspiracy vid's and doc's are produced to fill the void for the fringe element, whether the topic be about economics, politics, 9/11,or UFO's.

The technology to swamp everyone with this "stuff" has changed...... but it's all still non-sense. You are just seeing more of it.....because of youtube and the internet.

All good lies have touches of truth in them.....

I get the feeling that there are so many of those videos and such because people in general seem to be drawn to controversy, negativity and conspiracy more than anything positive. That's why the media is prone to show more of that crap than of good. Always the lead story on the news is about a cop killer or a tragedy of some type as opposed to a classroom helping the homeless. Our population is exploding and yet we lead increasingly more isolated and selfish lives. "If it doesn't directly affect me, then I don't care." That attitude permeates society today. I believe that it takes a village to raise a child - we are all in this together and we have to learn to work together, rich, poor, corporations, small fruitstands, and yet we have to act as individuals to set the standard for our families, businesses, etc. So frustrating...I wish my girls were ripe!!!

People are drawn to certain things because of their upbringing......not just parents, or lack of parents. So much more than that goes into forming social groups.

Think life is a tough and things aren't going well? You are a perfect candidate to become religious. In that group you will find the comfort you desire and the networking will fufill that comfort, reinforcing the religion in ur mind. The more comfort you receive from the group, the greater your adherence to that group will be.

Conspiracies work along the same avenue. Actiually religion could be defined as just another conspiracy, albeit a primitive one.

It takes a certain kind of loneliness to become a believer in conspiracies.....

I guess...I know from experience that my lack of strong family values has made it more difficult for me later in life to connect to people on an interpersonal level, and even when I want to connect, I find it difficult to trust. I turned to the dark side earlier in life and found it to be unrewarding but predictable, and now that I've mellowed out and want to be part of something meaningful I find it hard to connect on a deeper level with my parents, who are good people and willing to help, my brother who doesn't want to be bothered by anything really, and my ex, who is thinking of herself only, even though she has three kids, two by me. My family is scared of me and I am scared of them, and it would be easier to walk away without connections, but I fear if I do that I am missing out on something special. I tried SO HARD to make things work with my ex but it is not me and I can't control that, and she epitomizes society - get what you can get from others without contributing to anything, and making yourself look good on the outside while hiding your true self behind lies and using those lies to hurt others. It's very frustrating, and I easily let my emotions get the best of me, and then I become part of the problem instead of the solution. That's why I'm a BIG advocate of exercise and working out, because , for me, I get out of it EXACTLY what I put into it, and the same cannot be said for everything I have found out the hard way. I can NOT get out of a relationship what I put into it because it involves another person, and people are unpredictable. Yet I find that at the same time, if I expect the worst from people I am disappointed less. I guess that is a reflection of me and what I seek out of people, and what I bring to the table as a person, and although I try SO HARD to change, it haunts me still. All the better for the legalization of cannabis... I was on 4...that's FOUR antidepressants until I started smoking, then suddenly I found myself, stopped the pills, started being true to myself, found that I wanted to be part of something greater than me, lost the 40lbs that I gained on all those pills, and made alot of enemies for some reason. I don't get it. I'm motivated and seeking improvement from myself and those around me and people think that is arrogant. I DO want to fit in somewhere, I just haven't found out where yet. Maybe college will help me. I start classes Tuesday. I just don't know.

You can start by realizing that the deficiency is within urself, and not automatically in others. Ppl tend to project their strengths and weaknesses upon others around them. It's natural and common. Just know that when dealing with ur family, no one will treat you better then them. No one will forgive you as easily as family. It's okay to lean on the tie that binds you together. It may bend, but rarely breaks.

I do realize that. That's why I tend to work harder at things now, because change has to come from within, and the harder I work at things, the more I know that I'm on the right path. Perhaps I over compensate. I feel like I need to make up for lost time. To this date I've accomplished nothing meaningful, except for the connection I have with my daughter, and that has been strained of late. I just want to be part of the solution instead of part of the problem, and I am very critical of myself. As a result of my newly found ethics I want to be around people with a similar drive. I would like that drive and motivation to rub off on me by being around similar people instead of bieng around people whose philosophy is 'good enough' when it's really not. It's definitely a reflection of how I feel on the inside.

I think just be posting all of the above shows you have the awareness and patience to get where you need to go. One step at a time.

Ya I've made a conscious effort to slow down of late. I used to be REALLY high strung. That's where things like gardening come in. Investing time, money, energy and then having the patience to see it through. It helps to have a pot o honey at the end of the rainbow for sure. This is my first venture into growing a flower, I usually only grow food. That's what brought me here. I'mthinking about setting something up small inside this winter.

Growing plants is a great therapy...... any plant by the way.

ya but for me I can't just do it for aesthetics. That's why no flowers. I get my satisfaction from getting something at the end, hence food or mj.

Plus garden fresh veggies and spices are SO much better than store stuff. I would like to expand my garden and do some pickling and bottling for the winter, keep that homegrown quality and savings going longer.

Damn. Americas anus in here this shit is deep! Lol really though kdaddy ur preachin to the choir over here. U sound exactly as I once was. Do u have siblings? Have u ever considered a mentor? I know this sounds idiotic but u may be a good candidate if u have an open mind about it. I know people with no siblings that have been helped this way but I personall grew up with 9 sisters and 6 brothers. Plenty of company but it seemed an outside source had a more educated opinion and I found it easier to trust in an outside opinion. Obviously u can probably read there's more to it and my childhood that THAT stemmed from but really maybe jump on a blog (sounds gay I know) and find someone who is in a field or lifestyle u aspire for befriend them. Tell them ur story. U have a solid head on ur shoulders I know this without meeting u. U just need to get the train back on the tracks. I know this sounds insane but since ur mind seems to think like mine keep urself stressed somewhat. I've found that when I'm stressed I'm more goal oriented I feel the pressure so I push harder and I know what I need to get done. I don't get time to think about the stupid shit I used to do. Though that may have something to do with the condition I'm now in. Lol. G/L man. If ya ever need a bitch slap of reality or a "pull ur head out ur ass" feel free to pm.

At any given time of the year, I always have radishes and salad greens, chives, carrots, and herbs. You are right....no store bought can match them.

Thanx Erkel I'm 40 tho I don't know if I qualify for a mentor, and I can definitely relate to what you say about stress. I find that when things are going well it gets boring, and I seem to thrive on the pressure of bieng under the gun. I'm accused of throwing a monkey into the wrench just for the excitement. That's why I'm majoring in foodservice. Executive chef. High pressure job, constant adrenaline rush,the excitement keeps me coming back, even tho I complain about it. Yes I have a brother and I talk to him all the time, but he comes from the same crap that I did, only he never got his lips stuck to a crack pipe like I did so he's been more financially stable than me. That was another time tho and I have a house now, I'm going to school and was deeply involved with my children until I left my ex for a better life and she got spiteful and decided to keep my kids from coming over for no good reason at all. She's told my daughter that she knows I'm not a danger to them or anyone at all anymore, she thought I would take her with me. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! I've spent my time in 12 step meetings, and I found that most people in those meetings are the "good enough" type, they stop drinking or whatever, but smoke 2 packs a day, get fat, stay on welfare, have no drive, and settle for something that's easier than actually moving forward. Now not everyone is like that, but I have had some pretty bad experiences in those rooms, so I make friends in other places. Me, I quit smoking, got in shape, and really gained alot of confidence in myself from pushing hard and doing what's hard no matter what. Then I got hurt at work. I ruptured a disc so bad a piece of bone broke off in my spinal column and I could barely move without bieng in intense pain, and all the pills in the world didn't help the pain, but mj did, so I smoked, got drug tested in court and tested positive, so my ex took advantage of that even tho she didn't have a problem with it when I was living with her. I'm in ny, so not legal for medicine here, and I screwed myself, even tho I was honest with the law guardian and she didn't have a problem with it. Still recommended alot of time with kids, but ex pushed and goet supervised visits, and never shows up for them now. Doesn't answer my phone calls, nothing. That's just the tip of things! What's pm? Private message? I would like to do that, but I don't know how. And CrackerJax, I'm in WNY so I can't have an outdoor garden all year round, so I'm strongly considering an inside grow. Wow, I never thought I'd be talking so much on rollitup.org!!! Thank you for input. Nice to know I'm not alone.