my parents sucked in the parenting department. They kept up appearences by taking us on vacations, buying us birthday presents and xmas gifts. But that was the extent of their parenting. They were too self centrered and into their own vices to pay us any attention whatsoever. So the sex talk or any talk of sex never happened. I discovered a pornography channel one night when i was about 11, was amazed, got hard so hard and aroused I ejaculated without even hardly jerking, i just touched it a few times and came ... probably one of the best feelings in life ever. I think my parents realised what i was up to but i never got a talk about anything like that . NOw i reflect on it though, i wish i hadn't have found it. I wish I had have allowed my hormones to build up properly and that would have gave me the motivation to go after real girls. Funny actually but this is around the time I started to get the first whiffs of depression in my life. I went to big school a shell of who i used to be, never even hardly talked to a girl until i was about 20 . Had a lot of interest too, but flat out wasn't interested, was easier to go home and whack off. I even flat out rejected a really cute girl whose friends asked me out for her, in front of her, at about the age of 15. How my life would have differed if i hadn't been such a pussy, so many regrets.