Hey, thanks man. No, I have no idea what God "wants" but, ya any instance of god intermingling with human life is inspiring to me! I agree that it can also be not real, and simply not believable to a point or so mundane to not care in a way. I also bear the humility of sprawling my thoughts on you guys, and as I look back, don't think it's wrong of me to do that and explain myself a slightly, and to say I do not take medication, I don't have weird thoughts, and it was purely God's voice I indeed had heard that morning on that day in my life, with 100 percent certainty, not a mermaid, green alien, or a mindpuke demon haha. Sorry, I don't have a message from God himself, no, all I'm saying is God does exist because he spoke to me one day. It might be a joke to you but, if you can understand, it's a big deal to me. And, truthfully, in part I think i entered this thread not to say there is a God, but to look for help from you guys to help me out a little bit, I think I'm kinda reaching out in a way, and you all are kinda rippin me up slightly, that's to be expected but c'mon I think I'm human too last time I went to the doctor.