Relapse is natural it happens all the time
It's unfair to your other house mates to be doing that or bringing that into their safe space though don't bring them down with you
Pick yourself back up and dust off the guilt
Speak wth your house manager about your next steps go speak with your counsellor and let them know what happened
Make change and don't feel to guilty it happens
But as a former addict you need to cut ties with everyone who can help you get high
At least until you can be strong enough to resist
And as someone who has studied the last 2 years as a social worker in mental health and addictions and working towards my bachelors/ masters
Leave rollitup this community does nothing for you we have a quite huge and lengthy hallucinatory forum with too much to make you crave things