Help picking up a strain

Hi loyal RIU members. I have to ask you to help me choosing strain. This is my story, for 2 years I was smoking ver potent hashes 1gram per day. Well, it may not sound too much for some but it pretty much too much for everyday use. Thc was more than 40% of these products. Meanwhile something terrible happened in my life and it didnt end well. For 1 year i was under serious pressure stress confused abused mentally.. i tried to suicide but failed. I suffer from anxiety, panic attacks, nightmares, paranoia and schizophrenic kind of symptoms.. I ve been smoking weed/hash for 13 years and untill this trauma I was fine. Now I take medications antidepressants xanax and stuff.. I go to gym and everything.. but I would like to grow good strain for me from seed. To replace medications and still chill on a couch one day.. Anti paranoia, anti anxiety, anti depression strain thats what I am looking for. I would appreciate advices from you guys.

Peace and good vibes to yall.

Cannabis isn't magic. I've had friends expose their bipolarity and schizoid tendencies on cannabis after smoking with them for years. Going off the meds is not something I would advocate, for your own sake. Consider those around you and stick to CBD.