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I Am Heisenberg

I Am Heisenberg

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neosapien said:
Years ago my aunt pulled a bunch of strings and called in a bunch of favors to get me to the top of the list for an interview for a postman job. I had been up for several days blowing massive amounts of coke and banging this hot drug crazed broad and decided I'd rather continue doing that than secure my future. Told my aunt I didn't get it.

I've since beaten my battle with that stuff. First time I've ever confessed that to anybody.
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That's deep man.
I'm currently struggling with an Ecstasy problem. Wouldn't say addiction since you can't really get addicted to MDMA but it sure as hell feels like it. Been overdoing it for the past 3 years but recently it has got out of hand, lead me to a very dark place. Binging on it on the weekends doing stupid amounts like an 8th through Friday to Saturday at raves, and even parties. It's shameful. Honestly is really fucking with my head.
Even cheated on my wife a few times because of it, or so I want to blame. came to an ultimate low.
That's my confession.
 
I Am Heisenberg

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It sucks because I'm nearly 23 and have a gorgeous wife I would do anything for but am going behind her back and going to raves and hooking up with other girls. We barely talk as of now I sleep on the couch and she sleeps in the bed. Got fired from my old job, just got a new one tho that pays 25 an hour. Things are getting better but still it's rough.
Thanks for sharing though man, makes me know I'm not alone out there.
 
hempyninja309

hempyninja309

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I Am Heisenberg said:
It sucks because I'm nearly 23 and have a gorgeous wife I would do anything for but am going behind her back and going to raves and hooking up with other girls. We barely talk as of now I sleep on the couch and she sleeps in the bed. Got fired from my old job, just got a new one tho that pays 25 an hour. Things are getting better but still it's rough.
Thanks for sharing though man, makes me know I'm not alone out there.
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If you love her you better make it up to her and if you get another chance consider yourself very lucky. If she loves you and is good to you she is a woman you don't want to lose so don't keep fucking up or she will be gone for good before you know it.
 
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hempyninja309 said:
If you love her you better make it up to her and if you get another chance consider yourself very lucky. If she loves you and is good to you she is a woman you don't want to lose so don't keep fucking up or she will be gone for good before you know it.
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True shit man. Which is why I just feel so low. She dosen't know that I've been unfaithful, if she did she would KILL me and never have anything to do with me agian and like I've told myself plenty of times before, I would have nothing to live for if she left. Were just going through some shit right now and I know things will get better. No drug or girl will ever be able to replace my wife. EVER.
 
GreatwhiteNorth

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hempyninja309 said:
If you love her you better make it up to her and if you get another chance consider yourself very lucky. If she loves you and is good to you she is a woman you don't want to lose so don't keep fucking up or she will be gone for good before you know it.
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I'm with Hempy's on this one - you're the one that's sinking the boat.
Quit doing stupid shit & make amends.
But you already know that.
 
hempyninja309

hempyninja309

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I Am Heisenberg said:
True shit man. Which is why I just feel so low. She dosen't know that I've been unfaithful, if she did she would KILL me and never have anything to do with me agian and like I've told myself plenty of times before, I would have nothing to live for if she left. Were just going through some shit right now and I know things will get better. No drug or girl will ever be able to replace my wife. EVER.
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Wish you nothing but the best bro. Use your head, be smart and show that woman that she means the world to you.
 
clint308

clint308

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Don't suck up her ass though , and buying flowers out the blue and shit
She will know you hidding something , They are a suspicious breed
Just be nice , be yourself , spend more time with your wife
don't go out to raves and shit
Man up , Grow up and stop fucking up
Hope all works out ok for ya bro
 
Mad Hamish

Mad Hamish

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I Am Heisenberg said:
That's deep man.
I'm currently struggling with an Ecstasy problem. Wouldn't say addiction since you can't really get addicted to MDMA but it sure as hell feels like it. Been overdoing it for the past 3 years but recently it has got out of hand, lead me to a very dark place. Binging on it on the weekends doing stupid amounts like an 8th through Friday to Saturday at raves, and even parties. It's shameful. Honestly is really fucking with my head.
Even cheated on my wife a few times because of it, or so I want to blame. came to an ultimate low.
That's my confession.
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MATE. I have SEEN MDMA Addiction too many times! ALL amphetamines are addictive. MDMA can be one of the worst. It will eat you soul, squeezing your brain until it is impossible to feel happy without it. Trust me. You need to get far away from it RIGHT NOW. It is going to be hard. I will not bullshit you. You think you are in a dark period now? Well let me tell you, wait till 3 months after your last hit of Mandy. It will take forever for your serotonin to come right, IF it will. STOP NOW. Seriously. MDMA abuse can lead to severe depression, paranoia, anxiety, YEARS after stopping. This evidence is only arising now, as we have our first generation of X-heads fucking out all over this planet.

'Can't really get addicted' MY ASS. If you know you have a problem, you need to seek a professional that can help you deal with this problem. You will need a lot of support, and willpower made of steel. Spend the money. Get the help. It will not be easy. Fess up to your girl. She deserves to know what's happening. She deserves to make an INFORMED decision. And so do you mate.

Are you scared of losing her because of your actions? This is guilt mate. If you don't fess up, you will live with this guilt for life. You cannot hide it from yourself, you cannot move it. You really think she doesn't KNOW? She can smell you. She's found you out long ago. SHE IS A WOMAN. If she doesn't know for sure, she suspects it already.

Nothing can change what has been done. All you have is THIS MOMENT. Always, just the infinite NOW. The past is gone, the future does not exist. Once you realise this, and what it means, you will have the power to act. KARMA=ACTION! Do what you know is right. NOW. Like I said, tomorrow is an illusion.
 
james2500

james2500

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there have been a few times i have used my bladder cancer chemo treatment to get favors from my GF even though at the time i was in no pain…made me feel small and manipulative
 
april

april

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My boss just gave his notice...so scared I'm next in line for his position. .I've only been here 3 months! ! Oh crap...
 
tip top toker

tip top toker

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I must confess i'm about to get high, very very high! Gotta love EU customs checks. Brought what was left of my weed from amsterdam back to the UK, it's a fair amount :)

april said:
My boss just gave his notice...so scared I'm next in line for his position. .I've only been here 3 months! ! Oh crap...
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What's to be scared of April? If they offer it to you, just say thankyou but no thankyou. They might feel let down, but if you explain your reasoning, they will appreciate your honesty and such beyond the issue of the let down :)
 
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