glad to hear your off the "heavy" shit.. heroin and shit like that is just no good... moderation is key to everything.. but i dont know many users who moderate themselves at all... its like coke... a line here and there is one thing.. but a line here, and there, and then back here, and one or two more over there, is just the not cool... its very commendable you gave up on the catching that damn dragon...
i have a few friends that are bi-polar too.. they have managed over years and years to be able to "control" it a little better.. but they say smoking weed helps them also... i think as an individual you know better than anyone what helps and what doesnt... if smoking a little herb and growin a garden helps to keep you at peace and calm then do it up... from being around my friends, who are more like family, i see the struggle they have gone through with their problems... i feel for ya... methadone and that shit i think makes the problem worse.. its just another new addiction... if you can keep on an even level with something natural, all the more power to you!
i would advise being careful what you ask tho on RIU... asking for hook ups on drugs, asking where to get it, stuff like that, is completely against site rules and will get you suspended/banned... if your trying to build connections with people, getting banned before you have the chance is no good... you really just have to jump in the site and meet people and go from there.. you'll be hard pressed for anyone to just say "yea, i got some weed, you want some?"... just be cautious with what you say and ask...