I'm back...lol, that didn't last long... My fucking girlfriend, ex, or who the fuck knows, hid the god damned ambien. WTF? She thinkts that's why I slept a lot yesterday during the day, but it ain't and if I tell her the real reason, I'm just adding the metaphorical fuel to the metaphorical fire. They don't put me to sleep, and I've tried doses up to 50 mgs. A 10 snorted feels like a faux benzo. With zero desire to go to sleep. It has a very calming effect on me. God. She means well, but God Damn. I have my problems and she can't deal with them in the right way. Cause freaking out just makes me want to go get high. Fuck. Also, what the hell is up with RIU. It seems like I'm the only 30year old on the entire website. Its all classic rock. I listen to everysong people post, just in case its one of those once in a blue moon times when I like the song. Such a generation gap.....still got love for you though. The music just isn't up my alley.