Dr.Gonzo, how did it get stuck!? lol just kidding, did you accidentally fall down on a naked woman or was it the whole upbringing guilt thing "I better try to be with a woman?"
Lol. Bit of both really. In the begining (fuck this is gonna be cringy) I wasn't out pretty confused and not overtly camp so tended to get into these terrible situations where I would really like hanging out with a girl (usually the kooky ones) but be confused as to why I didnt want to sleep with them.
One of my biggest regrets was not telling this one girl know I was gay at the begining. She was the most awesome person ever, we worked together and had a riot anytime we hung out. We started hanging out all the time, guess looking back it was like the perfect boyfriend, girlfriend thing. Except I was gay. Ended up fake falling out with her, pretended I was straight but not interested. I acted like such a dick to someone I loved so much just in a different way. All to not be seen as being what I am.