I understand all of your inquiries, and i understand your way of thinking and i empathize with you. You are all understood and your opinions are respected. Helsenberg i have an extremely strong conviction to help you, as i see you thirst for knowledge.
I desire to be holy, as i am extremely spiritually sensitive and have a spiritual affliction that causes me to become unclean.
I have lost my wife, and basically everything i have held dear because of my spiritual malady and the way it bothers others..
So naturally i have sought anything and virtually everything to cleanse me and the only thing i have found that helps me is Christianity.
Reading the Holy Bible cleanses my spirit and does wonders for treating my affliction, though it is from God and He chooses not to completely relieve me.
I have been afflicted because of my sin, and i deserve anything that God has for me.
Come what may, i walk for God.
I have noticed, being a traveler.. that places where Christianity is the most prevalent is where people are the kindest and most warm hearted.
I desire to surround myself with loving individuals, and the only individuals that i have found to be able to truly reciprocate love are Christians.
I believe this is because of the Christian teaching that once one accepts Christ and follows His path, they receive The Holy Spirit also known as the Helper.
I can see the holy spirit shining in the whites of devout Christians eyes.
As an empathic person, and being sensitive in all ways, I have found that it is imperitive for me to surround myself with people that will treat me kindly and will reciprocate my love.
People I can trust.
I have found that while generalizing is generally a thought process that i would consider foolish,
Christians, while not all.. But devout Christians are generally very non-judgemental, compassionate, forgiving, kind, patient, and generally just wholesome good hearted people.
I would see them and interact with them, and even believing in their faith myself, i wanted what they had. And i found that the more i adhere to there ideologies, i seemed to beautify from the inside out.
The more i read the Holy Bible and put it's principles and guidelines into practice, the more improvement and divine help and inspiration i have in my life.
Ever aspect of my character has become more Holy and more innocent the more i adhere to God's principles.
I can sing better, when i play guitar these praises from God just come out of me and i have no idea how or why,
As if God is singing through me.
I met a prophet that knew so many things about my life that there is no way he could have known without spiritual inspiration.
I will write some more later but i am going to take a break from the internet for awhile as i have been on here all day.
Here is a video from the prophet i spoke of.
In this video you can hear him speaking in the language of the Holy Spirit, a gift of having God dwelling within us.
I have also gained this ability and can sing and speak in different languages.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e6nXTMZY274&list=UU6Y7mT5vfpxd4k3tV5SsyZw&index=1