Please think of the ramifications of what you are doing, before you do it. I, currently am at a high stess level right now. My mind is trying to wrap around all the information provided, making a plan and most important, executing this plan THAT MUST BE FLAWLESS TO BE SUCCESSFUL. I'll explain with a little rant so people who want to do this can understand. The whole thing came together rather quickly for me this morning with a 70lb package being delivered to the front door. This was what I have been waiting for. The package contained pretty much the last thing I needed to start growing. Its contents were a 5x5x7'11" Gorilla Grow tent. The creme de la creme so to speak. I will explain...I am a full time worker, father to 3 kids and a husband, all at the young age of 29. I first started toying with the idea of growing when one of my co-workers told me he had been growing for 20+ yrs. Although he was Guerilla growing in some poor souls field, I knew this was not an option I was comfortable looking into. I told myself "if im going to do this, I do not want ANY outside sources or added points of risk" so I chose to grow inside the confines of my home. This co-worker supplied me with a vast amount of knowledge while I fired questions at him over the course of a few months. I double checked and verified his information to be correct on sites just like RIU. Although some of his techniques were dated, I updated myself by scrounging through members posts on subjects I needed to study on.I read, and read, and read some more.... I have always enjoyed being self-sufficient and not having to rely on others so my main goal was to prepare myself for the grow. I have read on this site and numerous others for MONTHS, not 2 days, because the amount of knowledge you need is overwhelming at first, but, needed nonetheless. So when I finally felt that I was "prepared" I started purchasing... My budget was decent (with my expectations) at $1000 plus or minus some. First mistake! Once I started buying, I needed more than I initially expected. My spending quickly went over budget and I believe I spent double that amount. Of course, some of the things I bought were not necessity, But I always feel like if you are going to do it, do it right the first time. I rather be prepared than to have to go without, when I could have had what I needed.At this very moment I have a 2 week old sprout in my closet. My wife hates the light that is emitted from the daylight CFL's so I am prompted to move it into my tent when I get it. Stress is high because I am growing in my house with my family here. It does not sit well with me at all but if I am successful at growing my first plant I am considering finding an alternative place to grow just for comfort. You remember that saying "Dont shit where you sleep"? Well this is me right now, I do not feel scared of The Man because when it comes to alot of personal information that needs to be kept secretive, I am a recluse when it comes to stuff like that (I did a 5yr Bid for not talking pretty much). So I have everything I need to grow my first batch of Herb and I was just waiting on the tent to arrive. Well, this morning Mr. UPS knocked on the door and dropped of the final piece to the puzzle. I took it upstairs in a spare room and opened the box. I mentioned before the tent is 5x5x8 (which is bigger than originally planned, wanted a 4x4) so I have been moving things around to accomodate for it. Thats when it hit me......ITS FUCKING GO TIME. Green light...And my mind starts turning. Nervousness sets in because you start thinking of everything that can go wrong. I tell myself that I can not be seperated from my kids again. I start thinking cognitively about what can really happen (since I have been through it before) and it is such a risk. Im committed now right? I have bought everything. there is no going back. So my mind is made up, Its time to man up, knowing what lies ahead if things go awry. I must see it through. At this moment I must go back to my slave duty for 8hrs and then I will return and build my tent and decorate it with its needs like its a fucking christmas tree on christmas eve. Only problem is my mother in law is coming up from out of state and I HAVE TO KEEP HER FROM GOING UPSTAIRS. Fuck The Man, this lady is nosier than him. So I figure Im just going to lock the door and ignore her dark stares and questions, LOL.This was my Rant/Vent and I hope a lot of the new guys like myself read this post because If yoou are not making rational decisions and thinking of what really can happened when that size 12 boot kicks in your door with his friends, you are going to be thrown for a loop, not expecting the expected. Jail is nowhere for anyone who grows to be but YOU MUST be prepared for this if this is the type of journey you choose to embark on. I have accepted my outcome, although I may not like it if it happens, I am content with it. It will not catch me by surprise again!When I get this tent up I will give a review with pics cause this thing is truly a supreme tent compared to the others I have read about, seeing as they rip from constructing it. Good luck on your endeavors!!!Edit: Wtf I had everything paragraphed and I submit it and it groups everything together, oh well........