np guys i understand some what... maybe not the connection with buses and homo's or rest areas and homo's but i think i understand most...carne i can appreciate your need to be accepted, hearing about your past...claiming to be a christian makes you feel like people will be more accepting... maybe think your some kind of good person... when both you and i know your a cock sucking sinner.. your here on this mj forum so i'd bet you've partaken of the fruit of knowledge of good and evil... you know the difference... you know GOD hates a cock sucker... thou shall not take the lord thy GOD's name in vain...its my believe that most christians dont even understand this commandment.. the church wants you to believe that by saying the slang god damn you've broken that commandment... but let me fill ya in you sinner... im sure your a vain person, i can just tell by your avatar... bet you cant pass a mirror without checkin yourself out.. maybe straightening your sunglasses or combing your hair.. maybe just standing there admiring yourself.. ya thats vain... and when you've tried to use GOD to make yourself look good you've broken that commandment.. yep if you take his name in vain he promises not to hold you guiltless... maybe you should stop yourself next time you have that desire to be accepted and claim to be accepted by GOD... when this plan of GOD's comes to fruition and you see the gnashing of teeth.. think of the caregiver...