Why do I turn socially retarded when I smoke?

[high|hgih]

Whenever I smoke I immediately turn unable to talk if I dont have a tolerance. I took a small break and then smoked a one hitter last night and I was just incredibly blown. I was looking back on the things I said earlier in the day and thought of myself as a belligerent dumbass.. Like there is this girl I keep trying to talk to at work and shes impossible to work with because she is really shy, but thats what I want. Anyways I asked her is she'd ever looked at the ceiling before, yes thats the best I could come up with xD

But every time I talk to her it makes her giggle. Then when I smoke like last night I thought of that statement as obnoxious. I think of every word that comes out of my mouth as obnoxious. Even if I talk when Im high I immediately regret what I said for absolutely no reason. When Im sober I dont think about that kinda thing and really I know Im not being obnoxious so why does marijuana turn me that way? Its done this my whole life I just get like trippy fucked up from weed its strange. Like last night I was seeing purple and yellow swirls all over the room and I swear at one point I saw what looked like them forming into a double helix. Now why I trip when I smoke I have no idea but its always been that way. And when I have to be social its always a 'bad trip' one might say.

I love it when Im alone though because TV makes me laugh like a hyena and food tastes so good, beds so comfy, musics so great, I can literally write music so much better. My creativity increases 10 fold. Id never write music not high. I have and its not near as good. So whats my deal? I have one other friend with this issue and he just doesnt smoke, he drinks and takes opiates instead.. I dont want that alternative..

 

[ginjawarrior]

Whenever I smoke I immediately turn unable to talk if I dont have a tolerance. I took a small break and then smoked a one hitter last night and I was just incredibly blown. I was looking back on the things I said earlier in the day and thought of myself as a belligerent dumbass.. Like there is this girl I keep trying to talk to at work and shes impossible to work with because she is really shy, but thats what I want. Anyways I asked her is she'd ever looked at the ceiling before, yes thats the best I could come up with xD

But every time I talk to her it makes her giggle. Then when I smoke like last night I thought of that statement as obnoxious. I think of every word that comes out of my mouth as obnoxious. Even if I talk when Im high I immediately regret what I said for absolutely no reason. When Im sober I dont think about that kinda thing and really I know Im not being obnoxious so why does marijuana turn me that way? Its done this my whole life I just get like trippy fucked up from weed its strange. Like last night I was seeing purple and yellow swirls all over the room and I swear at one point I saw what looked like them forming into a double helix. Now why I trip when I smoke I have no idea but its always been that way. And when I have to be social its always a 'bad trip' one might say.

I love it when Im alone though because TV makes me laugh like a hyena and food tastes so good, beds so comfy, musics so great, I can literally write music so much better. My creativity increases 10 fold. Id never write music not high. I have and its not near as good. So whats my deal? I have one other friend with this issue and he just doesnt smoke, he drinks and takes opiates instead.. I dont want that alternative..

when i get too stoned i find i over analyze everything that i plan on saying normally ends up with me saying nothing

 

[cannabineer]

Sounds like a sort of social anxiety to me. I also get introspective (and become a bit of my own worst critic) when i smoke the trippy. Take encouragement from the fact that you make her giggle. Imo talking about the ceiling is cool ... it's so obviously individual..

Oh yes, I do not recommend the opiates. they made me sociable and talkative, but oy! the price. cn

 

[Kaendar]

Shit like this always happens to me. The problem is that MJ makes you more aware of yourself and makes you pay attention to your surroundings and peoples reactions. Yesterday I was sky high and was talkin to my baby mama about bbq but I sat there and pondered on some shit I said for like 30 minutes wondering what I sounded like in 3rd person. Its called having good weed. And I notice alot of shit I read on RIU makes me get that hyena laugh.

 

[charface]

I read that marijuana will not stand for repression and I have found that to be true.
It is bringing things up so you can have the oppurtunity to deal with them.
Stoned people arent supposed to be normal, Their stoned dont feel guilty unless
your a complete asshole then maybe just dont smoke. But I get spun in the head very badly too.
I take benzos for years and it still happens. It is the way I`m wired. Question is,, Is it worth it to you.
FWIW I would never smoke and go in public. Its just torture so I dont.

 

[Scrotie Mcboogerballs]

Shit like this always happens to me. The problem is that MJ makes you more aware of yourself and makes you pay attention to your surroundings and peoples reactions. Yesterday I was sky high and was talkin to my baby mama about bbq but I sat there and pondered on some shit I said for like 30 minutes wondering what I sounded like in 3rd person. Its called having good weed. And I notice alot of shit I read on RIU makes me get that hyena laugh.

It's funny, I have watched so many movies high as a kite and thought that they were shit. Then I go back and watch them sober and don't mind them near as much. You truly do just pay way more attention to detail when you are stoned.

 

[TogTokes]

I one starred the shit out of this.

 

[high|hgih]

• Sounds like a sort of social anxiety to me. I also get introspective (and become a bit of my own worst critic) when i smoke the trippy. Take encouragement from the fact that you make her giggle. Imo talking about the ceiling is cool ... it's so obviously individual..
  
  Oh yes, I do not recommend the opiates. they made me sociable and talkative, but oy! the price. cn​
  
  
  
  

I only have this anxiety when I smoke though I get very introspecitve as well though. Im gonna keep my tolerance down from now on just to save me so I have an excuse not to smoke around new people, for soe reason I can never turn it down. Now I can. Thank god. But see thats what I was thinking, she was like 'no actually xD' and I said 'see! nobody ever does! glad you now get to be conscious of what the ceiling looks like!'

lol but yes kaendar I do too, some videos and gifs people put up.. Sometimes I wake up everyone in the house laughing and they get angry. But idc RIU is mroe important

 

[Kaendar]

I mean were talkin about the fun side of shit. It gets really bad. A few years ago I had depression really bad which in turn gave me SEVERE anxiety issues. I would smoke and everytime have to hold on to somebody and have them repeatedly tell me I wasnt dying. I would beg ppl to call 911 and ask god for forgiveness over and over because the weed was affecting the wrong part of my mind and making me feel like I was dying. It was pretty fuckin bad. Ive gotten way past that tho since having my son. I can enjoy gettin high as a kite and be stuck on shit and start cracking up outta nowhere. But ill never forget the horrors I experienced. It was literally like looking into death/blindness/deafness.

 

[kizphilly]

i use to be the same way its like i use to over analyze shit i was gonna say but eventually i just said fuck it im gonna be me it is what it is

 

[really comfy slippers]

herbal meditation, as a tool to be respected

 

[high|hgih]

• Stoned people arent supposed to be normal, Their stoned dont feel guilty unless
  your a complete asshole then maybe just dont smoke. But I get spun in the head very badly too.
  I take benzos for years and it still happens. It is the way I`m wired. Question is,, Is it worth it to you.
  FWIW I would never smoke and go in public. Its just torture so I dont.​
  
  
  
  

See I dont actually become an asshole, I just feel like I am.. I dont know though Im so convinced what I am saying has some alternative meaning that they will look at and see. Like I cant think of an example but guaranteed one will happen next time I smoke!

I used to torture myself all the time with this and I dont know why.. I NEVER have a good time unless Ive been drinking.. And Im not gonna daily take anything like benzzos thats just asking for trouble..
Its funny how some people have the same problem though.

Do you feel like an absolute genius when you smoke?

And I agree slippers, I used to meditate on marijuana back in the day. I could get OBE's within 10 minutes. Now sober it takes a good hour or two sometimes. I never did it completely regularly though

 

[high|hgih]

Its almost like subconsciously I MAKE what I am saying have an alternative meaning because I am so scared not too..

'Im not crazy Im just a little impaired

But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be'​

 

[Kaendar]

Yea, I never get high and go in public. It ends up being a freaky paranoid experience.

 

[drolove]

maybe your retarded and only notice when you smoke

 

[charface]

I have relied on many various drugs for creativity, escape, and for me those are bad times to endulge.
I need to feel good mentally before I unleash the beast in my head and yea a beer or two works for me too
but then I`m worthless. I have a thing called borderline personality disorder and with it comes a lot of ocd, major depression
tons of anxiety and I have done a ton of therapy and must take anti depressants in order to function in society at
a low level, and then I`m very prone to biting someones head off if they go out of their way to irk me.
All in all at 43 I`m pretty much a recluse because I have learned and accepted certain things about myself.
I will never be RIGHT. The best I hope for at this point is to have as smooth of a day as possible, mind my own affairs
and stay near close family. Unfortunatly this even means I have to juggle some pills with the herb. I`m rambeling
but Yea it takes a long ass time to sort yourself out to the point where you can survive it. It is what is...
Point is, sometimes I can tell by the way I feel that weed would make it worse so at that time I stay away and wait
for the shit to pass. Good luck man just remember we are only human. I`m am super attractive though so that helps wit the
bitches, lol I laugh a lot as I think it really is the best medicine.

 

[Kaendar]

I have relied on many various drugs for creativity, escape, and for me those are bad times to endulge.
I need to feel good mentally before I unleash the beast in my head and yea a beer or two works for me too
but then I`m worthless. I have a thing called borderline personality disorder and with it comes a lot of ocd, major depression
tons of anxiety and I have done a ton of therapy and must take anti depressants in order to function in society at
a low level, and then I`m very prone to biting someones head off if they go out of their way to irk me.
All in all at 43 I`m pretty much a recluse because I have learned and accepted certain things about myself.
I will never be RIGHT. The best I hope for at this point is to have as smooth of a day as possible, mind my own affairs
and stay near close family. Unfortunatly this even means I have to juggle some pills with the herb. I`m rambeling
but Yea it takes a long ass time to sort yourself out to the point where you can survive it. It is what is...
Point is, sometimes I can tell by the way I feel that weed would make it worse so at that time I stay away and wait
for the shit to pass. Good luck man just remember we are only human. I`m am super attractive though so that helps wit the
bitches, lol I laugh a lot as I think it really is the best medicine.

I feel you on this one.

 

[smok3h]

As a writer, I know exactly what you mean. I never smoke weed before working. Whenever I'm high and try to write, I find myself carefully rereading every sentence and word that I type. I constantly ask myself, "Does this even make sense? Is that grammatically correct? Am I even using this word right?" It's annoying, and it usually leads to nothing getting done. On the rare occasion that I am high and have to work, I find that once I actually get past the initial over-analysis, my work is actually pretty decent. This seems to indicate that most, if not all of my misgivings, were in my head. Regardless, I still find it much easier to write while sober.

So, I really don't think you have anything to worry about. Like others have already said, it's normal for marijuana to affect people in this manner.

 

[Kaendar]

I guess its beneficial if you really want perfected work.

 

[tharoomman]

Whenever I smoke I immediately turn unable to talk if I dont have a tolerance. I took a small break and then smoked a one hitter last night and I was just incredibly blown. I was looking back on the things I said earlier in the day and thought of myself as a belligerent dumbass.. Like there is this girl I keep trying to talk to at work and shes impossible to work with because she is really shy, but thats what I want. Anyways I asked her is she'd ever looked at the ceiling before, yes thats the best I could come up with xD

But every time I talk to her it makes her giggle. Then when I smoke like last night I thought of that statement as obnoxious. I think of every word that comes out of my mouth as obnoxious. Even if I talk when Im high I immediately regret what I said for absolutely no reason. When Im sober I dont think about that kinda thing and really I know Im not being obnoxious so why does marijuana turn me that way? Its done this my whole life I just get like trippy fucked up from weed its strange. Like last night I was seeing purple and yellow swirls all over the room and I swear at one point I saw what looked like them forming into a double helix. Now why I trip when I smoke I have no idea but its always been that way. And when I have to be social its always a 'bad trip' one might say.

I love it when Im alone though because TV makes me laugh like a hyena and food tastes so good, beds so comfy, musics so great, I can literally write music so much better. My creativity increases 10 fold. Id never write music not high. I have and its not near as good. So whats my deal? I have one other friend with this issue and he just doesnt smoke, he drinks and takes opiates instead.. I dont want that alternative..

I know exactly how you feel dude. Its why I either smoke MJ all the time, or not at all. I especially hate how it makes me feel when I start back smoking after a break. It makes it hard for me to act properly in public and stuff. However after a week of smoking my body and mind gets with the program and I'm good.

Drugs in general effect people differently. I say 'drug" because technically THC is a drug right? Just like caffeine or tylonell.

Ya'll keep that in mind when responding to this guys post. Everyone is different. I know people who smoke and it makes them SO stupid. MJ isn't for EVERYBODY. Because thats just the nature of things. I think at least.