my life is fucked up

cannabineer

Ursus marijanus
I just got my 30 day button from NA and I've been clean from huffing paint for 14 days now. I relapsed and lied.

But now I feel too ashamed to say I lied and give back the button.

What should I do?
If you don't huff some clearcoat to finish it, the result won't be as nice or durable ... cn
 
i know what your talking about i mean its not as bad for me yet as it is for you but alcohol isnt enough anymore neither is weed, and pills are dank but lately all i want is to drink on pills and smoke and like i know its bad and my parents and friends are all like you need to stop whatever and i do but i always end up going back cuz i just LIKE being fucked up. like everything is so much easier when im fucked up it finally feels right, like thats how im supposed to feel and then i dont want it to stop. and if i have a night where i try to only get a little fucked up i can manage, like yesterday my friend said dont get too drunk cuz i was going over her house, so i drank and smoked a couple time and took 3 gabapentin and like that was it i wasnt that fucked up but at the end of the night i regretting it it felt like i wasted a good friday night by not getting completely shitfaced. idk. i hope you dont go to jail.
 

VLKwink

Member
Take LSD... It will help you realize what you need to do. For some, it may not do this. But for me, it helped a lot in making it easier to live happily. I have had a fucked up life too, maybe not in the same way. But the point is, LSD has helped many people find the way to go in life.
 

Orithil

Well-Known Member
Agreed, I'd want to shoot someone in my garage. But, if it isn't attached to your home that will be a felony for you. Because there is no threat to you or your family.

If you went out to the garage and confronted the individual and he threatened you with a weapon or lunges at you then you would have a something to hang your hat on. Otherwise it is an arrestable offense. Awful, but I believe that is how the law is written.
The laws here changed so you no longer have to prove your life was in danger if you kill someone breaking into anything on your property.
 

OGEvilgenius

Well-Known Member
My cousin takes something like that...he had a problem with heroin and opiates, he takes something that won't allow the opiates to work...you would have to stop taking the meds for like 3 days to get high again ...idk...but by then, most people will change thier mind and start taking it ( meds ) again. It's probable what dots said, but I'm sure of the name.
If it works for him, I gatta believe it will work for almost anyone...he's about the only one I know from my other post that made it without living in prison or dead.
He has his MMJ card,...not sure where you are, but that helps him alot too.
That drug effects your endorphins too. I wouldn't recommend that. I would recommend professional help though. Just going cold turkey on a lot of things can result in really bad side effects. Amy Winehouse died from alcohol withdrawl after going against her doctors orders to not quit cold turkey.
 

Balzac89

Undercover Mod
In reality its your own damn choice. You wanna get fucked up all the time, do it. But dont count on anyone being there for you when you die alone and no one cares because you were the asshole that stole and cheated everyone he loved.

I've felt bad for people in the past, but you only do what you wanna do.

My best friend is in prison for 3 years for probation violation, possession of controlled substance with intent to sell and possession of a hypodermic instrument. Oh yeah and he has pending attempted murder charges because he shot up one of his friends with bleach so he could steal the heroin.


Reality check clean yourself up or prison or death will not be far.
 

boneheadbob

Well-Known Member
Prayers for all the suffering alkys and addicts out there.
Hopefully when you get sick and tired of being sick and tired you will find a way to stop the insanity.
I got lucky or blessed. Walked in AA and worked the program.
Yeah it sucked but it worked and it was that or death
 

Beansly

RIU Bulldog
People who abuse opiate are usually self medicating for depression. I suggest anyone addicted opiates (lortabs, codine, percocet, oxycontin, morphine, tylenol-3, darvocet, tramadol, methadone or any other opium derivate or analogue) examine themselves from that perspective as a step to self-improvement and sobriety. There's nothing like being clean.

Please bless the addicts God; guide them and keep them safe in this the new year. Amen
 

jammin screw

Well-Known Member
People who abuse opiate are usually self medicating for depression. I suggest anyone addicted opiates (lortabs, codine, percocet, oxycontin, morphine, tylenol-3, darvocet, tramadol, methadone or any other opium derivate or analogue) examine themselves from that perspective as a step to self-improvement and sobriety. There's nothing like being clean.

Please bless the addicts God; guide them and keep them safe in this the new year. Amen
clean or end up in the hospital.... Almost all my boys who sip lean and pop pills have been in the hospital for od's n 2 have passed.... 1 has serious health problems..... Jus be careful....
 

ANC

Well-Known Member


Francesco Lentini was born in 1889 as the 12th child in his family. He was born with three legs, two sets of genitals and one rudimentary foot growing from the knee of his third leg. So, in total, he had three legs, four feet, sixteen toes, and two sets of functioning male genitals, which were all that existed of a conjoined twin and jutted from the right side of his body. When his parents refused to acknowledge him, his aunt raised him but eventually handed him over to a home for disabled children. As a child Lentini had hated his extra body parts until he spent time at the home. There, he met children who were deaf, blind, and mute. He also learned to walk, ice skate, and jump rope. At the age of eight, Lentini moved from Italy to the U.S. and entered the sideshow business as The Great Lentini, joining the Ringling Brothers circus act. Later he toured with Barnum and Bailey and Buffalo Bill's Wild West Show. In his youth, Lentini used his extraordinary third leg to kick a soccer ball across the stage, hence his show name, the Three-Legged Football Player. While his extra leg was several inches shorter than the others, his primary legs were also two different lengths. He was heard to complain that even with three legs, he still didn't have a pair. He married Theresa Murray and they had four children. Frank Lentini died in Jacksonville, Florida on 22 September 1966.


your life is fine....
 
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