sounds like you need hugs not drugs,the scent of a beautiful woman next to you,her flesh on yours.
you know,being an addict is selfish at times,i know your 18 now,not sure if you have kids or not.
but being an addict affects the people around you,who care for you and love you,it really hurts them.
and the deeper into you go,the more hurt,and the more of a piece of shit u end up being.
my Dad was born into a military family,he was a parashooter,my grandfather a Sgt. and all my uncles from my dad side were also in the service.
they had a victory party and my dad ended up driving home drunk,fell asleep in his car,rolled onto the train tracks,got hit by a train..then someone shot him up with heroin to "survive"
i guess my mom said he hid it from her for a year and kept his same routine,then started slipping,and that was the end with them,i was 3 when he left and she didnt want him back.
and her new BF which she is still with since i was 4,is also a heroin addict.in and out of prison most of my childhood..out of prison he doesnt support our family,and his life is basically just trying to get his medicine(heroin) and mooching off of us food/shelter wise.
i have 2 cousins who do meth constantly,great guys but still have that bad habbit,also have cousins who have tried it and dont do it anymore.but they are real alcoholics.
one will steal from you and burn you,the other will ask you for everything and say you dont need it lol.or he will ask to "borrow it" and you will never see it again.
my young cousin,hes from like 15-17,he has these dumbass little punk friends like himself and think they are cool doing dumb shit and taking pills or anything they can,and brag about what they have done. and i see him on FB always writing shit to make girls feel sorry for him..
a lot of meth users out here,who used to be great people,but drugs turn them into another person...people you cant trust for shit.
our neighbors steal from homes,burn people and get beat up by bats,they get raided all the time..
i dont even know where im going with this post lmfaoo..
with all the users and drugs around me,the only thing ive ever done was MMJ!and i drink from time to time..
the worse part of all,is i found out that my mom does meth and things arnt the same anymore.
it hurts more to lose someone you love and care about then to never know someone,idk how i will feel when my dad passes,i dont even know him...i just hear great things about him..
ok i guess you guys get the point on drugs....so ill stop there..before i remember some other stuff.
