So am going in for brain surgery

[Snow Crash]

I'm not trying to make fun of an obviously quirky situation. Stop worrying about your reactions and just do what's in your heart. All this "what will they think" is getting you no where. Do what you do. Take it or leave it. It is simpler than you're making it out to be.

[video=youtube;8HZNO9A6TQo]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8HZNO9A6TQo[/video]

 

[K062706]

I'm not trying to make fun of an obviously quirky situation. Stop worrying about your reactions and just do what's in your heart. All this "what will they think" is getting you no where. Do what you do. Take it or leave it. It is simpler than you're making it out to be.



wow, you obviously don't know what am talking about... lol am not depressed, suicidal or dress completely black, am just coming to terms of what may or not happen during my surgery.
so you think brain surgery is a "Quirky Situation" ? nothing funny about brain surgery lol nice dude.. Keep the good vibes coming... Ill smoke to that>>
[video=youtube;LVuxM0hmCrc]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LVuxM0hmCrc[/video]

 

[K062706]

The fact that you are becoming conscious of your lack of expression when it comes to emotions is already a huge step. I would say be patient and take it step by step, don't pretend to achieve everything at once, as you go into your journey you will feel and understand what to do. You just took a peek by opening that door, now you need to adventure yourself into the room and as you keep you heart sincere you will discover the magic. You will be ok. I remember a phrase that says "When we fear to do something and we do it, the only thing we loose is the fear."

Yes... this surgery am going to have open my eyes and made me realize things I have never felt before. Like Michael mention in his post """""before i was ever able to let that guard down, but let me tell you when i did ive never felt such a relief, id never felt so free""""" <<< That will be my New Years resolution.. am gonna try and open my heart and let people in.

 

[Grumpy Old Dreamer]

You would be the first to agree that brain abnormalities can manifest themselves in unwanted ways.
Have you ever thought that you are actually incapable of expressing emotions because of how your particular brain is hardwired?
You should just accept the way you are and perhaps discuss your emotional roadblock with your loved-ones ... you won't be telling them things that they don't already know.
Don't try to change the way you are and the way you act just to fit the accepted "norm" - be yourself, and accept yourself ...

Best wishes and I hope you have a speedy recovery after the op.

 

[Snow Crash]

I thought this thread was about you telling the people you love, that you love them, and to look genuine as you do it.

To be honest, it could be Brain Surgery, or a trip to Haiti, or just going for a drive on a rainy day. Shit happens all the time, and it shouldn't matter what the event is. What's important are the connections that you create and how you maintain them. That was the "vibe" I pulled from the OP.

And dude, to be all "Meh, I never cry, I feel so numb inside and I never tell people I love them..." That's Emo. It is what it is.

I do wish you luck with your surgery. Try to come at it with a "what happens, happens" attitude. It's not in your power to control the flow of time, I'm sure you know that, but sometimes it helps to hear it from someone else. It's not your fault.

I didn't mean to be inconsiderate. Just wanted to lighten the mood a little. Trying to get some good laughs in before the big day.

 

[K062706]

I thought this thread was about you telling the people you love, that you love them, and to look genuine as you do it.
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It is, but "look genuine" wouldn't put it that way. Because the things I say are genuine, it's just how they come out? make sense? like today, I went to my mom's to do laundry. haha and I gave her a kiss... see, my sisters always give my mom a kiss and hug everytime they visit but I don't.. not because I don't want to, but because I just never thought about it. but as am walking out the door I gave her a kiss.. and while am reaching towards her to kiss her --- I swear it felt like a Matrix scene lol.. everything was slow motion and clumsy, I went left she turned right then we both turn our heads and I ended up kissing her nose haha... but hey I tried

 

[K062706]

To be honest, it could be Brain Surgery, or a trip to Haiti, or just going for a drive on a rainy day. Shit happens all the time, and it shouldn't matter what the event is. What's important are the connections that you create and how you maintain them. That was the "vibe" I pulled from the OP.

Well I would understand if I didn't see it coming, on vacation or just a drive down to the market and splat! your dead, then yes "Shit happens all the time". but when there going to open cut the top of your head with a drill bit and some type of circular saw then that's a whole diff story.

 

[K062706]

And dude, to be all "Meh, I never cry, I feel so numb inside and I never tell people I love them..." That's Emo. It is what it is.

lol that's funny am 22 years old... don;t have time to be emo... I work 2 jobs, go to school, and try to spare time for my friends and boyfriend.. am living life!! Maybe I don;t understand what being Emo really is. From what I believe from a great TV show called South Park... that they are loaners, writing poetry with suicidal intentions. Maybe am wrong but am guessing you know them better then I do.

Well, I looked in my mom's closet and saw what I was getting for Christmas, an UltraVibe Pleasure 2000.
-Eric Cartman

 

[TOMMYPARTYS]

I don;t understand what being Emo really is.

The stereotype for a kid(13-19) who has a lower tolerance for sad emotions, and feels inadiquet of their own personal worth(feels like they arent good enough). Many emos feel so depressed that they resort to cutting to themselves. Emo boys often weird girls pants and dye their hair black, with a pyrimid spiked belt, and tight tee shirts(usualy black). It is known that emos have a kind of rule that 2/5 of their face must be covered by hair.

more of a music trend for kids. It's what kids say in terms when your depressed "don't be EMO!" it's a slang word for kids. Once they hit college they change there whole persona to maybe, grunge or metal heads. But Emo don't think you are, I have to agree with Grumpy Old Dreamer and don't try to change the way you are just except yourself and the way you are.

 

[Michael Phelps]

Thank you Michael!
6 years old, I just can't imagine what was going through your head. But I do understand, death is nothing to be afraid of... it's part of life we are all just guest in this f'd up world and have to go sooner or later, so why not make the best of it. Did your tumor go into remission? am guessing yes it did since your still here with us "Teaching How To Roll" Thank you for the kind words and hopefully everything is well with you

Yeah it was def a scary thing to go through but im glad i did, like i said its taught me alot!

As far as the tumor goes, yes it is gone! I had to get constant MRI's for 6 year's after to make sure it never came back... it never did. But if that bastard does ill be ready lol.


Btw that was a hella fat rip you took out of your bong, id plus rep you again if i could.

 

[Jer La Mota]

I had brain surgery 3 times (last one at 5 yrs old), since I was born 10 weeks preterm, weighed 3 lbs 4 1/2 ounces at birth, had a problem with my intestines, then complication with my right lung, then had a hydrocephalus meaning the water in your brain can't go down the spine since the passage is blocked. A ventricular catheter was surgically installed, malfunctioned , so it was changed (twice). I was also told I got LOTS of oxygen.

Today, I have some problems with vision, short term memory loss, and tremors, but I'm alive .. and the odds we WAY against my survival so honestly, it would be hypocritical not to see the bright side of things.
I've got an auto mechanics degree, I'm a graduate Chef (wasn't easy), I've taken an electronics course when I was around , It has honestly never really prevented me from prospering, living a normal life ..

Id like to say that the fact that you lived with epilepsy as a kid has toughen you quite a bit, I won't say emotionless, desensitized is more appropriate.

It takes a lot of guts to step up, and talk about ones problems, you're doing a good thing by talking to ppl on this forum, you're also being true to yourself.

The next time you have thoughts like these, you'll be more in piece with yourself. I don't know much about epilepsy, there are different types, all I can say is Good luck to you, your loved ones will be by your side, and your friends will be with you during your recovery.

 

[slomoking13]

There's nothing wrong with you at all! A lot of people are the same way, myself included. You just seem like you aren't a very sentimental person and you are just more numb to certain emotions like love, pity, etc. EMO is completely different. You just feel socially akward and out of place when everyone else around is externalizing their emotions.... and i know just how weird it probably feels to you haha. I don't mean to come off like an ass, but when people get really emotional around me, it just feels really cheesy to me because i never express my emotions in the same way. I always use to think there was something wrong with me too, but you just have to accept it for what it is and let it make you a stronger person. The best way to convey any of what you are feeling is to have a sit down conversation with your "loved ones" and ease into the topic you want. Everytime i try to sporadically convey some sort of emotion, it turns out pretty akward.... almost exactly like you kissing your mom on the nose lol. Anyways, just try not to let it get you down and focus on what you really want to say. It's not a good thing to go into something like this leaving things un-said... Anyways, good luck with your operation and i hope everything turns out the best for you!

P.S. you're right, south park is a great show!

 

[Tw3nti3ight]

This thread is bullshit!!! It was on a conspiracy forum last week!!! Replies are the exact same as this one>>>>wow!!! What a joke!

 

[Pullin' weeds]

Hey KO,
I had open heart surgery a couple years ago and kind of went through some similar things. Alot of experiences and feeling most people aren't forced to face. And you're right, you will be different after - you can't help but be changed by such an experience. You'll also learn alot about yourself in the end - at least I did.
Good luck

 

[K062706]

December 15 is my due date. I asked the doctor how long I will be hospitalized after the surgery -- he said about 2 weeks!... I screamed out in my mind (Fck! 2 weeks without smoking out!! missing chrismas and maybe even New Years

Thanks everyone!

 

[Pullin' weeds]

Trust me, you won't miss herb while you're there. Too many other meds and distractions. Bummer about missing the holidays though...