urhighness
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A year and a half ago, my 15 year old son was murdered. Corban was my ride or die.. more than my child, my best friend, the best person I have ever met. Reconfirming what we all already know, "The good die young." So then we are all just left behind in silence with the not good enough group that gets to stick around like cock roaches... suffering, existing, attempting to figure out how to get it right, no better than rats filling their bellies, seeking shelter and repeating the process till our hard work is dwindled down to shitting on ourselves and slowly rotting to death
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Seriously tho
When life gets broke down so far from a pain so desperate to be done, food has no taste, the sun has no warmth, and you realize there will never be a better time in your life than what has already been had... there is nothing left worth having.
In the Bible, a man would wrestle with God thru the night
Hell I been tryn to fight him for a year and a half now. Silence. Just silence is my response
In the Bible, Satan went to God and asked permission to do bad things to Job, and God allowed it. He allowed the devil to torment his faithful servant.
Can we also touch on forgiveness while we are at it?? Some people expect I should forgive the pos killer that stole Corban's whole life away???? Should we forgive Satan then??? Will God forgive Satan???? Highly unthinkable.
You know.. all these idioms make 0 sense once you have something mind numbingly terrible happen to you. This will never be right or acceptable, in any realm.
And I don't even expect a good answer or I would've probably heard or thought of it in this past silent year and a half.
....
Seriously tho
When life gets broke down so far from a pain so desperate to be done, food has no taste, the sun has no warmth, and you realize there will never be a better time in your life than what has already been had... there is nothing left worth having.
In the Bible, a man would wrestle with God thru the night
Hell I been tryn to fight him for a year and a half now. Silence. Just silence is my response
In the Bible, Satan went to God and asked permission to do bad things to Job, and God allowed it. He allowed the devil to torment his faithful servant.
Can we also touch on forgiveness while we are at it?? Some people expect I should forgive the pos killer that stole Corban's whole life away???? Should we forgive Satan then??? Will God forgive Satan???? Highly unthinkable.
You know.. all these idioms make 0 sense once you have something mind numbingly terrible happen to you. This will never be right or acceptable, in any realm.
And I don't even expect a good answer or I would've probably heard or thought of it in this past silent year and a half.
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