[Bridge]
For now, but i will be back
And i am across the country bettering my life
I transferred my conditions here
And you know i'm bettering my life
And dont let people get inside your head and convince you
Cause i'm such a fuckin' terrible person that i must have been terrible to you and tricked you
You know me as an amazing man cause that's exactly what i was to you straight up. i love you. i miss you. and now the whole world knows i'm sorry
And this ones for my dawg man
[Verse 2]
As an ex addict,
bruce when I met you; you was clean as a judge
No reason for drugs, and surrounded yourself with people you love
When we first started to click, yeah we partied a bit
Who knew we'd reach that point where it'd be harder and harder to quit
The first night I met your brother, keeps replaying with me
The character I embodied was smooth, I was dangerous see
The genius on drugs, so cool you was hanging with me
He didn't know that I influenced you negatively
So when he seen us chillin, we was kings; he was proud
It breaks my heart to think of what he probably thinks of me now
So with this I'm just reflectin', I'm constantly recollectin
I got a younger brother too bruce, but you never met him
And he seen my darkness, and I dont got any good left
But even then he still wanna be following in my footsteps
And i've betrayed em all, people that love me to my core
My sisters always had my back, she doesn't anymore
So I look at my arm, and the marks and needle penetration
Cause the people who fuckin' love me, it leaves them devastated
I guess we both got worse when you was outta control
But then I was sittin' in prison bro, so how could I know
And going through withdrawls in a prison cell, livin' hell
I know that feeling of pain when you really wish you could kill yourself
I accepted it happened, be there a long time
They say every dog gets its day, I guess I got mine
I hit my house arrest, bail; lucky I know
When we spoke some time later, it's been crushin my soul
I love you hollo, bruce I always got love for you bro
That was the last thing I said as I fuckin' hung up the phone
Found out the next day, enraged; smashing walls
25, too young for a fuckin' man to fall
I wish I said something more when you hadda called
A fuckin hour later and you were dead in a bathroom stall
Why do we just enjoy it? why do we love the posion?
You shoulda went out on a throne bro, not a fucking toilet
My blood is boiling at the thought of it bruce
You give yourself too much credit for how your tolerance grew?
When you feelin' low on life, and needed that confidence boost?
I'll take lines in your name, if they say it's what you wanted to do
And I never understood, but as of recent I knew
Cause I was a needle or two away from being with you
And I'm sorry for the times that I was freakin' out when you were with me
Specially that time I lost my mind while driving through the city
I wanted to honor your memory, and swear off shootin' quickly
A year past I'm still doing the same shit, bruce forgive me
I almost had my body into soft dirt
I swore i'd get better, but homie it got a lot worse
And I was in that same weak place, so I couldn't fight for you
At your memorial, high on the same shit that took your life from you
I guess your father blamed me to people at the bar
I didn't hear it directly, its like I seen it from a far
I told
whatevski,
there was something that I needed from his car
I cried for you brother and stuck another needle in my arm
I know I know its fucked up ain't it
Friends dont know how to help, so that subject changes
My parents is embarrassed is an understatement
It's just amazing I can function with all the drugs ive taken
But yo; im gonna stop though bruce, I ain't ready to die yet g
Through your friendship and your death, it's inspired me
I need to wake the fuck up now man, find my dreams
Conquer goals, and become everything we said we'd try to be
The tat of your names on the ribs on my side
So to know i'll keep you close to my heart, that fills me with pride
And I know I'm not responsible, but I'm guilty inside
Cause I know if you never met me, bruce; you'd still be alive
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