from age 14 to 19 i had always smoked and it felt like it was the greatest thing ever too me , but one day it seemed like smoking just turned its back on me , i would be a nervous wreck , paranoid , always thinkin in worst case scenario, i would get self conciense , and i would really get on some conspiracy theory type sh#*t. I just wanna get blowed and chill but it seems like i lost that ability. can anyone help