How do you feel about your relationship with Mary Jane?

[ChingOwn]

I pretend that people are like me in all things and in all ways...Way deep down inside I am not sure if my smoking marijuana is a hindrance to my well being or not, there is a chance that I cold make a case for PTSD if I tried, but the last thing I would want to be when I think about that shit is high... I smoke to change my state of mind, but it is not very often that I think before I smoke "Am I in such a bad state of mind now?"

The way I was brought up in way that drilled into me that drugs are bad and only bad people do them. So Ive always thought of myself as a bad person for smoking..sometimes I embrace the bad person, sometimes I feel like Ive lived my life wrong all along and I'm a fuck up. I attribute at least part of that to the bitch that is Mary Jane, we still hang out but not nearly as often as we used to.

Medical smokers need not reply about how it has helped them...I get it.

What is your relationship with her been like?

Have you succeeded at life with her hanging around?

Do you consider yourself to be a drug user?

 

[mr sunshine]

Wtf,, fucken Aguas fiestas!

 

[Growan]

I pretend that people are like me in all things and in all ways...Way deep down inside I am not sure if my smoking marijuana is a hindrance to my well being or not, there is a chance that I cold make a case for PTSD if I tried, but the last thing I would want to be when I think about that shit is high... I smoke to change my state of mind, but it is not very often that I think before I smoke "Am I in such a bad state of mind now?"

The way I was brought up in way that drilled into me that drugs are bad and only bad people do them. So Ive always thought of myself as a bad person for smoking..sometimes I embrace the bad person, sometimes I feel like Ive lived my life wrong all along and I'm a fuck up. I attribute at least part of that to the bitch that is Mary Jane, we still hang out but not nearly as often as we used to.

Medical smokers need not reply about how it has helped them...I get it.

What is your relationship with her been like?

Have you succeeded at life with her hanging around?

Do you consider yourself to be a drug user?

When I smoked as a youth it fucked with my motivation and place in society. Actually, it was the only thing that motivated me. I had to acquire a smoke. It was imperative. It was my purpose.
Now I can take it or leave it after years of not smokong at all. I stopped because I consistently got paranoid, but I think the root of that was the abuse of speed and lsd , not the weed.
Now i can smoke without my brain imploding I don't have that problem. And I love growing. First hobby I've really made the for in years. And because it's all covert, it's truely 'for me'. Personal time is important and it can be hard to get that with a young family.

I still have issues with my place in society.

 

[WHATFG]

I am a rec user who uses for medicinal if that makes any sense. The best thing I like about it is I have never gone through withdrawal if I have run out. I have always found that it would motivate me temporarily, but ultimately I wanted to veg out and snack. While my purpose for using now is pain control, in the absence of pain I would still use it just as a general tonic for well-being.

 

[mr sunshine]

Smoking puts me in a hole...growing takes me out of it!!

 

[pinkjackyle]

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I still have issues with my place in society.[/QUOTE]

i use to drink the hell out of sour mash wiskey and go to jail , sour mash go to jail , sour mash go to jail , sour mash go to jail . i went to jail while being in jail LoL , got hold of some jailhouse hooch in jail started a fight . got a aggrivated assault ( class c fellony ) charge but beat it in court because my hands are not lethal weapons like the da said . my point is your place in society is what you make it . im comfortable being myself and thats just a hillbilly from the beltbuckle i do any damn thing i please when i want for the most part and i dont feel guilty 1 damn bit .

i kicked the drinking habit thru mj and continue to stay dry with mj for nearly 14-15 yrs . if you dont need or want it dont smoke it . just dont smoke it then complain youre not being all you can be because you smoked .

 

[Dyna Ryda]

I put it in her butt every chance I get

 

[TripleMindedGee5150]

Dude Mary Jane and Snow White had a party. Along came Erk and Jerk. Erk and Jerk happend to bring Molly and stupid ass Crystina. Everyone got fucked up on some pot and they all died from intestinal gastric problems. Apparently mixing Cheetos and soda, and cake and pizza is pretty bad? So they say

 

[Hookabelly]

I am a rec user who uses for medicinal if that makes any sense. The best thing I like about it is I have never gone through withdrawal if I have run out. I have always found that it would motivate me temporarily, but ultimately I wanted to veg out and snack. While my purpose for using now is pain control, in the absence of pain I would still use it just as a general tonic for well-being.

This is about where I'm at too. I quit for many many years while raising a family. Now that I can get ahold of edibles, I use those for pain (smoking it doesn't work for pain) and for recreation, smoking it is the way to go. But Like most, I found that chronic use just makes me verged out and unproductive. I also notice as I've gotten older my body takes longer to recover from it. I never feel 100% the next day. Sort of tired etc.

 

[WHATFG]

This is about where I'm at too. I quit for many many years while raising a family. Now that I can get ahold of edibles, I use those for pain (smoking it doesn't work for pain) and for recreation, smoking it is the way to go. But Like most, I found that chronic use just makes me verged out and unproductive. I also notice as I've gotten older my body takes longer to recover from it. I never feel 100% the next day. Sort of tired etc.

I hear ya on the getting older and the smoking for pain....although every once in a while I smoke and I get something different from vaporizing.

 

[Hookabelly]

I hear ya on the getting older and the smoking for pain....although every once in a while I smoke and I get something different from vaporizing.

Do you smoke or vape for pain? Maybe I'm smoking the wrong strain for pain. Do you choose a specific strain for pain management?

 

[AltarNation]

This is about where I'm at too. I quit for many many years while raising a family. Now that I can get ahold of edibles, I use those for pain (smoking it doesn't work for pain) and for recreation, smoking it is the way to go. But Like most, I found that chronic use just makes me verged out and unproductive. I also notice as I've gotten older my body takes longer to recover from it. I never feel 100% the next day. Sort of tired etc.

Very relatable. Except when I get up and don't feel 100% the next day, I vaporize more. Turns into a vicious cycle and drives my tolerance up until I take a break because I'm not getting anything done and not really getting high anymore anyway, more just chasing a dragon all the time.

 

[Hookabelly]

Very relatable. Except when I get up and don't feel 100% the next day, I vaporize more. Turns into a vicious cycle and drives my tolerance up until I take a break because I'm not getting anything done and not really getting high anymore anyway, more just chasing a dragon all the time.

IKR? total catch 22. For the past week and a half I was dosing every night before bed (stress, back pain, etc) and like an airhead couldn't figure out why I felt spacey and tired the following day. Just ZERO motivation.

I didn't make the connection it was the cannabis b/c I've always just recovered in a snap. Then I realized (duh) I used to recover faster b/c I was 20 years younger LOL

 

[ElfoodStampo]

I pretend that people are like me in all things and in all ways...Way deep down inside I am not sure if my smoking marijuana is a hindrance to my well being or not, there is a chance that I cold make a case for PTSD if I tried, but the last thing I would want to be when I think about that shit is high... I smoke to change my state of mind, but it is not very often that I think before I smoke "Am I in such a bad state of mind now?"

The way I was brought up in way that drilled into me that drugs are bad and only bad people do them. So Ive always thought of myself as a bad person for smoking..sometimes I embrace the bad person, sometimes I feel like Ive lived my life wrong all along and I'm a fuck up. I attribute at least part of that to the bitch that is Mary Jane, we still hang out but not nearly as often as we used to.

Medical smokers need not reply about how it has helped them...I get it.

What is your relationship with her been like?

Have you succeeded at life with her hanging around?

Do you consider yourself to be a drug user?

I love cannabis. It makes the boring parts of life less boring, does wonders for my anxiety, and made me realize what's important in life. maybe it would have happened without but I tend to gravitate towards people who smoke now. Its like a sixth sense. I mostly don't give a fuck what other people think about me or what I do. So whether its bad or good is a moot point. I'm a happier person with cannabis in my life, that's for sure. Everyone is a drug user. do you drink coffee, use advil, drink soda pop, fuck people and their perceptions.

 

[pinkjackyle]

IKR? total catch 22. For the past week and a half I was dosing every night before bed (stress, back pain, etc) and like an airhead couldn't figure out why I felt spacey and tired the following day. Just ZERO motivation.

I didn't make the connection it was the cannabis b/c I've always just recovered in a snap. Then I realized (duh) I used to recover faster b/c I was 20 years younger LOL

sweating is the key ,im not trying to be silly but its true . feeling like u dont wanna get out of bed is natural on occasion and feeling lazy too . i get up and get moving get busy, there is always somethin that needs to be done . its not so much motovation for me, its knowing that sitting on my ass gets nothing done .

i forgot exactly where i was going with this , but exercise or manual labor something that works up a good shirt drenching sweat will set u straight , u excrete poisions and whatnot

 

[mr sunshine]

Dude Mary Jane and Snow White had a party. Along came Erk and Jerk. Erk and Jerk happend to bring Molly and stupid ass Crystina. Everyone got fucked up on some pot and they all died from intestinal gastric problems. Apparently mixing Cheetos and soda, and cake and pizza is pretty bad? So they say

Are you really spice 1??

 

[AltarNation]

sweating is the key ,im not trying to be silly but its true . feeling like u dont wanna get out of bed is natural on occasion and feeling lazy too . i get up and get moving get busy, there is always somethin that needs to be done . its not so much motovation for me, its knowing that sitting on my ass gets nothing done .

i forgot exactly where i was going with this , but exercise or manual labor something that works up a good shirt drenching sweat will set u straight , u excrete poisions and whatnot

100% agree... getting back into a lot of physical activity always makes the difference.

 

[UncleReemis]

Since I've been with mj, I've kicked all prescription pharmaceuticals which include but are not limited to: adderal, effexor, lithium, Prozac, wellbutrin, seroquil, cymbalta, vibrid, etc.

I've struggled with anxiety and depression since I was too young to understand it. And now, I am hardworking and independent, more so than I have ever been in my 21 years, whilst medicating daily.

huzzah

 

[AltarNation]

Since I've been with mj, I've kicked all prescription pharmaceuticals which include but are not limited to: adderal, effexor, lithium, Prozac, wellbutrin, seroquil, cymbalta, vibrid, etc.

I've struggled with anxiety and depression since I was too young to understand it. And now, I am hardworking and independent, more so than I have ever been in my 21 years, whilst medicating daily.

huzzah

Well said.

Op:

It's all relative, I don't really draw a line between medicinal usage and recreational usage because most of the reasons I use it recreationally can easily be explained in terms of medicinal applications if you choose to view it as such. Medicinal is just a way of looking at the world. It is a perspective. Recreation is also a view of the world.

Another way to say what I'm getting at is that recreational usage is a disguised or subconscious form of self-medication if you so choose to view the world through that lens.

I think that when we can heal this discrepancy we are more able to see the truth of the situation which is that it is simply "what happens" and has no true meaning in a moral sense. There is no such thing as moral truth in that sense.

While the ganj has a tendency to promote the illusory mind-spinning that suggests there must be more than meets the eye, the truth is that the most peace I've ever found on this subject is found in the realization that I could feel any number of ways about anything if I so choose to, and it is a matter of realiziing that I am in control of this in the first place.

When this transition is made, "how I feel" about anything I do is met with the same tenacious sense of self-acceptance.

This is what I'd advise steering towards.

 

[lahadaextranjera]

Where I come from I'd be a society outcast. Over here though I fall into the working mechanics of the MJ scene very nicely.

It was recreational and still is but ultimately it's work, everyday in some way. It's very social at times and very rewarding. However you need to have a quest for knowledge and contacts to stay ahead of the game. It's interesting and it's fast moving. Nobody can predict exactly what will happen next.