almost forgot the whole living in AJ part on top of that.
I live in Gold Canyon.
How much have you had to drink today Buck? Maybe if you drink a little less a day you could get off of it. You have said you have willpower so maybe that would help you.
If it is all a bunch of steaming bullshit like most of what you post here then I recommend a book called "The Easy Way to Stop Drinking" by Allen Carr. He says that you should not stop or alter your drinking until you finish the book. It is a pretty interesting read.
Attempting to deny my success, demean me, insult me and put me down isn't working very well for you. I still keep succeeding despite you and I will because I do not take you seriously. I understand you are like a wounded animal just lashing out in reaction to your own pain.
Making people around you miserable is not the way out.