I left it to chance; I never should’ve let this get so far out of hand.
But I’ll do anything to not be alone ’cause when I’m alone you know I’ll…
I can easily fall back into old habits that I thought I’d left behind
And they rip me apart and I realize…
Don’t be alarmed, I have to lie
Take everything and keep it inside.
I know I’m sick and I’m not right. I’m so fucking tired of living this life,
I made for myself, I’m sorry that I cannot get past what keeps me away from the light.
I hope this explains my problem to you, because I feel like this every night.
Don’t wanna be like this, anxious and angry or hopeless and upset- all the time.
Unable to get back the feeling I lost somewhere along the line.
I wear it all on my sleeve and everyone sees no matter how hard I try.
I’ve never felt worse in my whole life.
Don’t be alarmed, I have to lie
Take everything and keep it in stride.
I know I’m sick and I’m not right. I’m so fucking tired of living this life,
I made for myself, I’m sorry that I cannot get past what keeps me away from the light.
I hope this explains my problem to you, because I feel like this every night.
Feel like this every night.
(Night after night)