PICTURE of YOURSELF THREAD

StonedFarmer

StonedFarmer

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Olive Drab Green said:
You mad trippin', bro.
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honestly no crack or cocaine derivitaces have hit my system since after new years, I didnt quit because new year and all that garbage

I quit because I can't take not breathing through my nose and random nosebleeds daily.

im trippin off people being as dumb as they are these days and it is poking me in the eye so to speak today.
kids be talking trash bro, no hate meant to be here i am just mad
 
Olive Drab Green

Olive Drab Green

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StonedFarmer said:
honestly no crack or cocaine derivitaces have hit my system since after new years, I didnt quit because new year and all that garbage

I quit because I can't take not breathing through my nose and random nosebleeds daily.

im trippin off people being as dumb as they are these days and it is poking me in the eye so to speak today.
kids be talking trash bro, no hate meant to be here i am just mad
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Ain't no thing, bro. Don't let shit like that ruin your day.
 
StonedFarmer

StonedFarmer

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Olive Drab Green said:
Ain't no thing, bro. Don't let shit like that ruin your day.
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I am more just upset and used here as my outlet for that distress.

I will stop at canabis culture aka marc emery shop and grab a gram of weed to take a pic of and show. the shatter and budda is diff because most of that is "name brand" so you kinda know what the quality will be.

these goons sell at 13+ tax for a gram of commerciIAL grown. will make my way over to that shop for a gram to show when I move that ways.

I hate society and the culture around me as it is. I should really just do coke again, atleast that makes me sorta ok with the bs happening around me.
 
Olive Drab Green

Olive Drab Green

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StonedFarmer said:
I am more just upset and used here as my outlet for that distress.

I will stop at canabis culture aka marc emery shop and grab a gram of weed to take a pic of and show. the shatter and budda is diff because most of that is "name brand" so you kinda know what the quality will be.

these goons sell at 13+ tax for a gram of commerciIAL grown. will make my way over to that shop for a gram to show when I move that ways.

I hate society and the culture around me as it is. I should really just do coke again, atleast that makes me sorta ok with the bs happening around me.
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Just grow your own with COBs. Don't tell anyone and you're paying $80-100 for 10-12 ounces or more. Why even subject yourself to that bullshit?
 
StonedFarmer

StonedFarmer

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Olive Drab Green said:
Just grow your own with COBs. Don't tell anyone and you're paying $80-100 for 10-12 ounces or more. Why even subject yourself to that bullshit?
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lol how do I grow?

I ain't upset, I go to one shop that is pretty hidden for my shatter and dabs when I need. \

I prefer sitting at home railing lines and dancing slowly by myself. it aint even weed that I am mad at its the fact people think they are getting great deals and such while they are being jipped so hard.
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I had a huge argument and everyone calls me "entitled" I grow small time, enough for me, I buy when i need and no hassle, I am blackmarket 100

I am also just in a pissy ass mood today. this song is me to a T

 
Olive Drab Green

Olive Drab Green

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StonedFarmer said:
lol how do I grow?

I ain't upset, I go to one shop that is pretty hidden for my shatter and dabs when I need. \

I prefer sitting at home railing lines and dancing slowly by myself. it aint even weed that I am mad at its the fact people think they are getting great deals and such while they are being jipped so hard.
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I had a huge argument and everyone calls me "entitled" I grow small time, enough for me, I buy when i need and no hassle, I am blackmarket 100

I am also just in a pissy ass mood today. this song is me to a T

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You do grow, right?
 
StonedFarmer

StonedFarmer

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Olive Drab Green said:
The coke might be depleting your dopamine and serotonin. Could be why you are feeling emo.
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naw man I been depressed longer then I like to admit, the coca diesnt even hurt me when I stop using, I feel bored with life and everything around me,

I am spending more time on forums, mostly a sober living forum whre i take heat for still being on maintence doses of heroin.

it aint the spot but hell here it goes.

I have been on drugs for more then half my life, before that I was on prescribed doses of legal stims to help combat my add adhd, they try throwing pills at me but I do self medicate,I have a steady thing of eating close to 24mg a day of kpins, 1gr of heroin and usually I throw in a gram of coke or so but lately I been on that zany oxy with hash tip.


i cut my arms for a sign im still alive and feel real. ya this is al info for a therapist but she thinks my self needs more bs.
I have thoughts of death that I do not express irl because people hate me how it is. \

no one cares what is really happening to me and I gotta deal with that, the best convos I have are with my plug or people I met through here ocassionally, no one gives a fuck if I die tomorrow that is a fact, sf will contue this slow decent into darkness.

if i ever get sober I will be the best human ever lol yah sure sf is still a fucking asshole and I have done things that will never be attoned for, never. I will wallow in my own pity from time to time but the fact is I have given up on hating myself. I am a great human and the fact my main friends are drug dealer/hoes and all around freaks makes me feel wanted.

ill die in a miraculous way, wheteher i choose that way or if it just happens it will happen sooner than later, sf is uneducated, poor and a piece of shit.

yo
yo
get cool
yo
 
iHearAll

iHearAll

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just a state of mind, i find work and distraction to be helpful. nithing mindless though, i hate mindless behavior. like a factory ughhhh
 
StonedFarmer

StonedFarmer

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iHearAll said:
just a state of mind, i find work and distraction to be helpful. nithing mindless though, i hate mindless behavior. like a factory ughhhh
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I personally find any repititive behavior is great for me mentally atleast, I need to keep going or I shut down completely

I am in the middle of a complete breakdown and cycle of destruction atm, the fact I havent gone and started smoking crack when I got close to 2oz sitting in my safe is outstanding

I channeled my anger into texts to someone who knows how I am right now, and he said "if my sorry ass is still here then you better be too" he knows how I get down on angry thoughts like this.

of course im just a selfish addict who believes his own gratification is worth double of those around him because all people who have addiction issues are the same worthless scum

ban guns
ban drugs
ban happy thoughts
ban ban
ban ban
thats how we ban yo

eidit" i also puinches many holes in the walls and throwing stuff around while screaming.

all and all I need a big fat line of coca and someone to punch me in the face atm

swing swing baby

swing at me baby\\

ill knock ya teeth down your throat because it makes the oral so good
 
StonedFarmer

StonedFarmer

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I am going to relapse. \\

fuck it.

here goes another year of crack cocaine and amazing life decisions.

we will save sober sf for the future generation.

cocaine is my only little friend.

touch me baby just fucking touch me once

ooobh bb you making me so soft bb im hard as a rock

ooooh bb

thats called crack fase fam

look at dem eyes \

i speek the devil with dem
 

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