Just wanted to say... life is such an experience of experiences....share??

that is a lot how i feel (b6) ....... if I died whilst tripping, well, I'd be just fine with that, as long as it didn't hurt. just the pain I'd resent somewhat... but death? no... idk how exactly I'd feel, but I wouldn't fear it.. not yet.. maybe one day I will fear death(while tripping). maybe one day I'll lose it. who knows. And, about the weed thing, I get decent shit, but I'd not argue that yours is more consistent. Here it's always "oh, we got shit" then you get there and "yeah, we're waitin' on it, chill" and three hours later you're like... "really? that's it?" lol, but it makes good bud all that much better. as for fucking up your brain, I do DMX and seem fine, and I smoke a lot, but I DO get edgy when i quit smoking lady Jane too quick..... but then again, so many things affect that, so its hard to tell how much it really matters. I just like (Love) getting high, for MANY MANY reasons. On drugs in general. Almost anything.

so then, the trip, we moved on to the equalization of all things. especially focusing on feminism in our societies today, and how it is so prominent now, as opposed to the last 2-10k years. It was a really great conversation at the time.. just wish i could remember more.. I can smokenough to try and relapse again, but... will i remember.... no, i'll do it this weekend, or next time I trip, I want this done, but it really shouldn't be rushed (If you're reading, FDD, Bear with me, I'll let you know when it really gets good.... it's tough .. I get writers block, but once I can sort myself out for a few hours, I'll have it. Either way, ......... I'll try my best.

eh. bong is breaking piece by piece, life, damn man, those deer ate my babies, so I'm going to clone into the basement and buy a light and stuff. and... argh, i can't say anything. I went to an event that is well known in my area and it was incredible, but if anyone on here is from around where I am they'd recognize the party immediatly. anyhow, cool people, cool times, i have really been opened up to another world here. beautiful people. too bad i cannot elaborate. sad, really, what the law has done to us. I've been through the system thrice, I'm talking to a professor who may want to use my case to write a book ,neat stuff, jail, freedom, i felt like a buitterfly put back inside the coccoon for a long season... three times. ouch, huh? idk, obviously i've grown and learned from it, and it's part of my experience now. Beauty is found in the least expected places, and sometimes only when you aren't looking for it. like weed..... never when i saw that first res covered metal pipe and ubie vaporizer tube did i think i'd end up HeRe, growing and conversing with all of you intruiging people

Okay, so this is essentially part one of a two part “journey”/”trip” whatever you want to call it, on not just salvia, but experience, and life, and people and thoughts and events and music and everything. I Used Salvia to get there, but She was only my guide into a place where I could appreciate life in a beautiful and introspective nature. It is difficult to write a little bit, so please excuse me, I am, in fact, still ‘rolling’ pretttty hard right now. Hehe, anyhow, I’d say that Cannabis mixed in has a good deal to do with how I feel right now, too, for those of you researching doing the substances together (holla at me, ask anything [email protected]) but the overbearing influencer in this ‘journey’ of the past minutes (salvia, cannabis, recently), of the past weeks (tons of salvia, sleep deprivation[a powerful ‘drug’ in its own right, as DMT can seep into the waking mind] and cannabis (I always smoke a lot, my back is kinda bad, so it helps the head and the body), even the past few years, when I first experimented with Salvia Divinorum, growing and using strong extracts, 20x+. So basically, that run on sentence said that I grew and smoked salvia, strong stuff, a few years ago and it started my journey, along with various literature, Hunter S. Thompson (another powerful drug in his own right), Thoreau, Etc. Along those lines I’ve ended up in jail for pot twice, and getting in a fight with some guy who ripped me off on acid, so while I have become a victim of this drug war, I thrive on the knowledge I’ve gained.

Now, for those of you who wanted a quick summary of what salvia is all about, as a “drug”, a “hallucinogen”, and a very useful Shamanic Tool, I will say that, for me, she has truly been a beautiful and wonderful teacher, showing me all the right aspects of life, catering to my current needs, changing and evolving as an experience with me, and cultivating my mind to a place it , I truly feel, could not have gotten solely on a few good people I knew who helped me a lot also. In other words, she really captivated me the right ways, making me have a very immature and silly trip to get me interested in the ‘fourth dimension’, ‘third eye’, and then progressing with my Psychedelic tastes as I grew as a person, where I can now quite begin to understand and control how I ‘trip’ on her, and have either insanely crazy (smoking a bit more) or more refined, subtle trips (a little less, mixed with smoking cannabis before and after the experience begins and ends (smoking less than a gram over the course of 20 minutes, for you picky types). Anyhow, weed really subtles it down ,so to say, I guess. But straight salvia extract makes me become an integral part of a pattern composed in front of me of exactly half of the room/surroundings. I have had this happen multiple times, I have quite well believed I was a clear thinking inanimate object, but never truly “lost my ego”. I await ego loss with hope and lust, but I do not wish to rush my mind to places it need not yet be. Anyhow, kids, if you’re just trying to get a good honest word about the Lady Sage of Wisdom, you’re done, you can go. For the rest of you, those I may have intrigued already, or those who truly just want to connect and find out more, please, read on. Email me, I’ll answer your questions to best of my simple abilities. I would like to think I am beginning a Psychonautic journey, of sorts, and anyone who wants to open up their mind and soul to the beauty and tragedy of life with mind enhancing entheogenic substances (those bastards don’t even have the word “entheogenic in their dictionary/spellchecker, but I think I got it right, same with “Psychonautic, so please, don’t think I’m off track ranting, see that the small controls, like not recognizing these terminology as “real words” in their dictionaries and libraries, and FUCKING LANGUAGES [yes, there are books on entheogenics widely published in GERMAN, FRENCH, and SPANISH, but NOT ENGLISH, WE ARE LAGGIN PEOPLE, OPEN YOUR PRETTY BLUE EYES AND GET THE BLEACH BLONDE HAIR OUT OF YOUR FACE!!!! Wow, long parentheses) is welcome to come along. I’ll repeat that sentence for those of you who are too high to read that in three parts (I feel you dudes and babes, I feel you)



I would like to think I am beginning a Psychonautic journey, of sorts, and anyone who wants to open up their mind and soul to the beauty and tragedy of life with mind enhancing entheogenic substances {this is where the old parentheses was} is welcome to come along. Haha, great stuff, I can write again, in my not-so-humble opinion, and quite well. I like this style – fuck dude, this is erowid, not Harvard with their stuffy noses and Capital “H” t’shirts. I’ll write to them how they wanna be written to if I must, but please excuse me if I dare express myself comfortably in the security of my own subject-to-illegal-search-and-seizure mother-fucking home! LOL, any’who, I guess this is part one, the basix, and I’ll continue to get the last of the most recent trip out. Tonight, tripping on weed and salvia, I realized that Salvia has been what I needed her to be every step of the way. She got my head good and straightened out, with the help of good friends and family (you know who you all are). And also, that “it is what it is”; I realized that all that mumbling around by confused seeming hippies really IS what is out there! It makes sense to me now, these simple concepts they all seem to repeat almost religiously. “IT IS WHAT IT IS!”. It isn’t that these people are crazy or dumb or insane or foolish! It simply is because unless you have SEEN with your own mind’s eye what they perceive all the time because of these “awakenings” they have expereinced, you are NEVER GOING TO GET IT, so why should they try to be extremely verbose, talking their lifestyle up to you, making it look relevant? To them, it is fucking relevant, and they know many people exist who are into the same things. They can’t run around trying to bring in converts everywhere they go. They live their lives, they say what they say, and they hope you will someday glimpse that light. There’s no revolutionary beam of sunshine that you cannot see, there simply is logic in the fact that these plants simply mimic chemicals already in our bodies, and therefore, we are all on drugs, and hence all is simply a collective perception of the world, as with a computer’s interface system, the processors and RAM and encoded data processors are working to show you what is happening in the electronic world of the system, and it is also so with the interface between the human senses, the mind, and the world around us. It is a shared reality that is OPTIONAL in some ways. You may change the way you interface with this experience with the “programs” you are running. A mac and PC are both a similar tool, but their operating systems do very different things – are constructed in a fairly different manner. But they still run your computer. All electrical signals, made real only by the screen in front of you and the speakers or headphones in your ears. Hard to really grasp for me, but it is obviously so. Anyhow, these plants, chemical substances, energies, change our interface with the system of reality, and therefore a new reality, for the user, can be born. Hence we have hippies out of touch with the common perception of reality, mumbling about Republicans, Beat Poetry, and Drugs, experiences and Music, mostly rock of some form , or more modernly, techno. Ha! It is all too obvious to them why you are so skeptical, why even bother with you? You’ll either find the way, or you’ll live how you want to, not impacted by the true nuance of Life and Existence and Everything. Just another Brick in the Wall. By the way, Fdd, this is the piece I was writing for you. It is what it is. Worthy? Idk, I like it. I’d like to know if you do.