ILGM White Widow gives me my perfect high every time. All the pain seems to fade out to a dull roar that can be easily ignored. I become calm. I can hear much better than usual, and everything seems to be more clear to me.
I don't feel sick, I don't feel tired. Just relaxed and at peace with no pain. Not even my arthritic hands bother me that much, and I find myself playing (guitars) more than I have in years.
After 9 years, it hasn't changed one bit. It's still the same for me as it was the first time I tried it. And when you've been through as much shit as I have, it's nice to finally find something consistent that works.