Gods bless you guys! Thanks so much for the support ya'll. I should be able to do what I need here until I leave. I really do think though it's high time to get my butt legal, and in a better situation with more understanding people. If I could move to a place where I have a marketable skill set such as growing organic meds for people who are too busy or too sick to do it for themselves it would be a dream come true. I could help others while making a living, and supporting my wife, and myself. I can't tell you how much that blows my mind. I've been on disability for quite sometime, and would love an opportunity to feel productive, and needed. It would take so much stress off my poor wifes shoulders, and put me in a position to take charge of my life. I was looking at towns around Bangor, and Lewiston Maine. SOOOO friggin beautiful people are you kidding me. Everywhere you look it's like post card worthy, and crap, just amazing. I've lived in a river town that reminds people of Pittsburgh for the most part. Not that there's anything wrong with it I guess, I just need a change of scenery. I'm in my mid 30's, and have had my life on hold the whole time. I always had a job since I was a kid, I hit 14 got a work permit, and never looked back. When I got disabled I seriously thought "well that's it". Now that I could have a chance to get work, live a productive life, and support the most important person on this planet I have to go for it or I would never forgive myself. I have a small window to get in on somewhat of the ground floor of caregiving in a very cool state for people who need it most I.M.O. I could help me by helping them, that's so damn win, win. I've had alot of stupid, useless dreams in my life, but this is one that actually makes sense. It's also something I could look back on, and be proud to have taken part in something that changed peoples lives, and in a positive light. I think it will be a little tough at first well, cause I'm broke, LOL. If I could set up some people who I could caregive for, and maybe get some help with finding doctors in the area I would be alright. I was thinking about posting something like "Who needs a caregiver" over in Maine patients with some pics of plants, finished flowers, and some concentrates I've done. I'm not hip to the whole patient, caregiver thing though all that much. i don't want to go in there insulting people thinking everyone needs help growing or something. I know I would need to get my medical exemption before legally being able to provide meds so that will be a major concern for me, getting my license, and hopefully quickly, which I doubt. I'd be out of state begging doctors who don't know anything about me for a prescription for cannabis. not the best way to start a relationship with a physician I think. I have enough medical records to fill a damn U-haul to back-up every word I speak about of my medical conditions, but it's hard to get someone not familiar with you to even take the time to go over something so daunting. I do have a family physician who I've been seeing since I was a child almost, and is very up to date, and knowledgeable about almost every aspect of my health, and who is so nice, and I think willing to help me relocate to a medical state. He's tried to get his group to let me take Marinol, and then he could kind of hide my future use of cannabis in a way, but they would never bite on the idea, and he has to think about his future, and can't push too much. We've both thought of, and exhausted all ideas it's just time to move! I think with his help, and knowledge of the system, and with the help of another I might have a leg up on the situation. You can tell by my writing I'm going back, and forth, ARGHHHHH. I need to just do this! Alright guys I'm going to go get busy, and do some gardening to clear my head a little. Again thanks for all the kind words, and support it really means the world. I do think it's time for some change. Peace, Love, and Light.