Yeah man, I suck. I know it. It took a few years, but you just kinda get used to it. It's definitely still fun, and I obviously love the hobby, I just don't get the anxiety about it anymore. I don't feel like it's taking forever anymore. Feels like about 2 months to flower.
I'm hoping even more so now that I finally have a perpetual going. Should get buds every 2 months or so. Eventually you gotta stop worrying about it so much right?