slomoking13
Well-Known Member
You made the right decision! It's hard to lie to people and it's harder to realize when you are lying to yourself. I know how hard it is to do what you did. I was in a similar situation for the last 4 years. My girl was my best friend for almost 10 years and lover for 4, but we ultimately wanted different things in life and it came down to relationship or career for me. It's been almost a year since i broke up with or have seen her and to be honest with you, i still think about how things could have been everyday. I love her and i think i always will. I'm honestly kind of glad i haven't seen her because my heart still flutters sometimes just thinking about her and if i saw her i would probably go weak in the knees, collapse, and pass out. Breaking up with her was probably one of the hardest things i have ever had to do and i've felt selfish for it ever since. I think i would have felt more selfish trying to make her life revolve around my life and career. Although i still would have been happy to have her, i just don't think she would have been as happy if i tried to make her come with me. I just wanted her to be happy and always will, she deserves the best. I guess my point is that you need to think things through as much as possible and put yourself aside sometimes. To this day, i still don't know if what i did was right or if i will regret it until the day i die.Thanks ITW, you're right, and that shit was painful! Still painful. It's tough seeing someone you care about so much so sad.
I always thought I was completely immune to cheating on someone, but I think this experience taught me a valuable life lesson.