Growing is so lonely :(

So back in high school I was a dealer. I wasn't huge but it helped pay the bills and get some free smoke. I lost a shit ton of money in the mail and picked up a few books. I then started growing. For personal use, I saw to much crazy shit. And I'm not about that life. Ppl blowing u up all hrs of the day n what not, not for me. Through the years after graduating all of my old friends have been fucking up. I went to three high schools and was always a loaner. I'm a nice guy give the shirt off my back to anyone. But my three main guys have gone astray. One went crazy after a break up. Ones stuck up his gfs rude ass pussy. And the other is an slcoholic n doesn't even smoke. So it's just me and my dogs and gf. It's hard making friends cuz I don't want my business out there. But We want to get in the business once we move to a state.but I'm gonna need guidance. I grow some good stuff better than what I can find around here.but it could be better. I mean there's always room for improvement. When I move how do you get credentials to get into an apprenticeship of some what or land a job. I could use some more knowledge with soil and ferts. I'm going to volunteer for norml and I'm going to school right now. But are there certain degrees that would help me along the way? I can't wait to move I hate hiding and lieing to strangers about what I do for fun and what I enjoy. I just can't wait to be with friendly stoners. So many pol are so damn materialistic

Even if you move to a med state it is still a good idea to be cautious and not tell people about your grow. For every one person that knows, the odds of getting broken into and ripped off go up. It sucks but if you have something of value in your house regardless of what it is, you can become a target.

I mean it just sucks not having one person to discuss it with. Books and forums are cool but it's so much easier to grasp in person. And I'm not gonna trust just anyone. It just sucks Bc I feel like ppl cant hang at my house cuz of the smell. I don't know a single grower around here.My generation just sucks period,so grimly and materialistic. It makes me sick.it would just be nice to have a mentor be someone's bitch for a summer at a large op. And learn some hydro n learn more besides going to oaksterdam

hockeyrichard said:

I mean it just sucks not having one person to discuss it with. Books and forums are cool but it's so much easier to grasp in person. And I'm not gonna trust just anyone. It just sucks Bc I feel like ppl cant hang at my house cuz of the smell. I don't know a single grower around here.My generation just sucks period,so grimly and materialistic. It makes me sick.it would just be nice to have a mentor be someone's bitch for a summer at a large op. And learn some hydro n learn more besides going to oaksterdam

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You learn growing from growing. It's nice to have an old hand give you advice but we don't learn as much or value things we did not struggle for. Enjoy your plants and socialize where it's safe.

I second that^^^^^

You cant share the grow, but you can damn sure slant a few eyes afterwards, and there is where you revel in your craftsmanship.

Peace and Great Grows

Asmallvoice

Yeah I guess you guys are right. I'm not a perfectionist, but I am about cannabis. I'd live to open a coffee clay making paint shop with a small edible menu. It just sucks doing it alone. It's hard to bounce ideas off yourself especially when u haven't done it. I have won battles though learned to best spider mites well at least that time. Conquered mold. I've came really far I just need some fine tuning skills

i love talking about growing and have no one to talk with, so i just talk my wife's ear off lol

hockeyrichard said:

I went to three high schools and was always a loaner.

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I feel your pain. I thought I was a keeper. reality hurts sometimes.

i have three people that know i grow outside of my (all 215) family (brother, mother, sis-in-law) and my girlfriend and her mother who lives with us. 2 are fellow growers and are not in my area, one is a friend, known him ten years, and since everything is in my closet in my room and it is the only smoking room in the houes we kinda have to be in here. and since he wants me to set him up and teach him all that i know about growing, im not too worried.

You want credentials, but don't want folks to be suspicious? Enroll in a J.C. in horticulture, landscaping, nursery courses. You'll hone your skills, likely expand your mind and alleviate any questions as to why this guy is always about plants. If you enjoy that and do decently, you'll end up with an employable skill as well. Won't make much money but it also opens opportunities

Singlemalt said:

You want credentials, but don't want folks to be suspicious? Enroll in a J.C. in horticulture, landscaping, nursery courses. You'll hone your skills, likely expand your mind and alleviate any questions as to why this guy is always about plants. If you enjoy that and do decently, you'll end up with an employable skill as well. Won't make much money but it also opens opportunities

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That's the problem. The jc that offers that is 40 miles away. I'm planning on getting my liberal. Buying a house. Selling it in 5-10 years attend oaksterdam and breeze thru it( hopefully) since that's what my hobby is and land a job. I'd really like to open a dispensary but I at least want to grow or work for one. I'd really like to help the less fortunate. Work on cbd strains and help with seizures.

How did the JD go? 10 weeks 12:12??

Damn girl good memory on you!!!! Uh im gonna try n find the link where I have pics. I wish I would have vegged longer tho! They were clones with mininimal veg time. A few phenos started ambering at 45 and the rest finished by 55.i couldn't believe it. Half the pistils were white like u said they'd be,after curing they were all orange n purdy. Yield wasn't huge but it was some pretty decent smoke. I just got a new iPhone or I'd post pics. Il see if I can't find the link.

If you go to my profile and go to recent post by this user. It's pg3 about halfway down.

a wise man keeps his own counsel

Bb I hear that but it'd be nice to have a few friends or a partner to discuss things with. I'm no expert but I'm doing alright I guess. I'll find my way. I just really want a future in the industry and help ppl along the way. I don't need money. All I want is to not live paycheck to paycheck and have some good ganja n I'm good to go. I just love cannabis and hate doing it alone. I mean it's great but it's hard brain storming by yourself sometimes. I'm a nice guy I'll meet the right person or ppl one day n if not I'll do it alone lol

best way to learn is the hard way and you don't forget. (I'm just full of witticisms today)

hockeyrichard said:

Damn girl good memory on you!!!! Uh im gonna try n find the link where I have pics. I wish I would have vegged longer tho! They were clones with mininimal veg time. A few phenos started ambering at 45 and the rest finished by 55.i couldn't believe it. Half the pistils were white like u said they'd be,after curing they were all orange n purdy. Yield wasn't huge but it was some pretty decent smoke. I just got a new iPhone or I'd post pics. Il see if I can't find the link.

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They really need 20 cm min. check what happened to my clones flowered off by friends in 'my albums'. They were big and my outdoor friends just a 2 metre JD monster in the garden. In fact I'm smoking JD right now!! Grew JD outdoors this summer too! Very nice!! Amber trichs mean more knockout buzz yet this is 90%sativa and isn't required as much. Indicas do though.

lahadaextranjera said:

How did the JD go? 10 weeks 12:12??

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BarnBuster said:

best way to learn is the hard way and you don't forget. (I'm just full of witticisms today)

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That I have buddy. I've came along way from starting with cfls lol

hockeyrichard said:

Bb I hear that but it'd be nice to have a few friends or a partner to discuss things with. I'm no expert but I'm doing alright I guess. I'll find my way. I just really want a future in the industry and help ppl along the way. I don't need money. All I want is to not live paycheck to paycheck and have some good ganja n I'm good to go. I just love cannabis and hate doing it alone. I mean it's great but it's hard brain storming by yourself sometimes. I'm a nice guy I'll meet the right person or ppl one day n if not I'll do it alone lol

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oh young Richard,you sound just like me.The pnly prob is you need to make a lot of money to avoid living paycheck to paycheck.20/hr(For example)....not gonna cut it bro