Greenpuddins F#@k my life grow journal .the nonvirgin diaries

Green Puddin said:

I wanna post this here for now.I will be doing my journal soon,way behind where I should be but that's the way the pecker shrivels .without a sob story I will get you thru the jist of it.finally have my medical grow license after years of needing it.sever migraines since I was 5 yeArs old .not posting on Facebook damn this migraine w on't go away .but drop what I'm doing right this second don't mAtter if I'm elbow deep in a midget orgy kind of migraine .they are gross,used to get so I would have to go to the hospital every time I got one so I could get a shot of demoral in my ass.even that wouldn't work if I went to early in the migraine .they last on average about 4 hours.some shorter some longer .I have gone 2 years without one about7 years ago and thought for sure I had outgrown them ffs.that not greenpuddin kind of luck lol.I have also had at least one everyday for 30 days straight and abou t 7 of the days I had two a day .it takes me 2 days to fully recover from one.the following day is just like a hangover ,if I bend down the slightest head just throbs ,sick as fuc k depending on how much of what I took to ease some of the pain.at a younger age I realized that I would slowly lose my vision just before getting one.they refer to this as tunnel vision .well that what it was like at first .but once I got around 12 ,I would alowly.lose my vision to the point of everything just looks like a puddle of shiny shit lol.about an hour before a migraine I would ,and do,start to and fully lose my vision.this became a vital peice of info as my life became more and more consumed by chronic \ classic migraines as they call them.ducking classic alright .they wound up destroying my life.if I didn't have one of wasn't recovering from one ,then I was fearing of the next one co!ong,where \when how severe of one the next one would be...starting another post don't know if one this big will effect anything

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Green Puddin said:

I wanna post this here for now.I will be doing my journal soon,way behind where I should be but that's the way the pecker shrivels .without a sob story I will get you thru the jist of it.finally have my medical grow license after years of needing it.sever migraines since I was 5 yeArs old .not posting on Facebook damn this migraine w on't go away .but drop what I'm doing right this second don't mAtter if I'm elbow deep in a midget orgy kind of migraine .they are gross,used to get so I would have to go to the hospital every time I got one so I could get a shot of demoral in my ass.even that wouldn't work if I went to early in the migraine .they last on average about 4 hours.some shorter some longer .I have gone 2 years without one about7 years ago and thought for sure I had outgrown them ffs.that not greenpuddin kind of luck lol.I have also had at least one everyday for 30 days straight and abou t 7 of the days I had two a day .it takes me 2 days to fully recover from one.the following day is just like a hangover ,if I bend down the slightest head just throbs ,sick as fuc k depending on how much of what I took to ease some of the pain.at a younger age I realized that I would slowly lose my vision just before getting one.they refer to this as tunnel vision .well that what it was like at first .but once I got around 12 ,I would alowly.lose my vision to the point of everything just looks like a puddle of shiny shit lol.about an hour before a migraine I would ,and do,start to and fully lose my vision.this became a vital peice of info as my life became more and more consumed by chronic \ classic migraines as they call them.ducking classic alright .they wound up destroying my life.if I didn't have one of wasn't recovering from one ,then I was fearing of the next one co!ong,where \when how severe of one the next one would be...starting another post don't know if one this big will effect anything

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Green Puddin said:

I essentially became paranoid ,terrified of getting one somewhere strange ,or somewhere I couldn't get home.or even just somewhere to lay down in the dark.I had some bad experiences through the years of getting trapped places ,with no.phone,no vehicle ,as I was to young.and forced to face the pain without any relief or aid of meds ,even just a place to lay down and suffer for 4 hours .I now refer to these instances as taking them dry.no meds and facing the inevitable .beyond any other pain I have experienced from anything .they will strip you down to your naked soul and they don't stop there .if let them,which I did ,they will take it too.I let them consume my life,beyond that they changed who I was .neurologist told me I could only take Advil tylenol,if you could take 8 Advil a day.then I could take 8 at once ..that's what she told me to do.this is where the worning sign came in handy because of I could jam enough pills in me for one big blAst of pain relief at once before the onset of migraine then it would help some ,take the edge off it.so I did this for years .when I could .I would suck a dick if it woud stop them .eeK great on the stomache and liver lol.anyway in my teen years I tuned to drugs of course .weed at first then all of the above lol.the weed never did anything for them when I smokes recreationly.after 8 years of chronic weed consumption it started to make me paranoid in itself so sound up quitting .would try it every now and again .longer I went between smoking it the more ducked it would make me lol.the old man one day told me about a documentary he watched where this man with same kind of migraines began taking shrooms for treatment .it wasn't A a pain releiver in the traditional scence anywAy .but when he began to trip on the shrimps ,something in his brain just stopped the migraine .described as the brain tripping and no room to experience the pain.well when I smokes weed u this time I would trip in dry similar way.so I tried it.seems to help .then I experimented a bit.it came to the point where I would take the dankiest of danks,that ducking sticky icky comma couch lock bud.and roll one the size of my finger and smoke every bit of it .well u can imagine that the worst weed in the world would duck me up after one puff.this would send me to mars .and sure enough I would trip and know that I'm in a migraine ,could still f eel the pressure on my face ,still had to go to bed ,, but just total absence of pain .the brain blocks it out ,or doesn't have the capacity to enturpret the pain as pain while it's busy thinking a billion thoughts per minute lol.so there it was .back then the Dr couldn't give me anything that would do that .and they didn't like thAt .no way would they even consider it.backwards thinking fjckers .eventually I discovered in my own to that I could treat them with opiates .WELL SIR!!!!!that 5 years was a blank .but I did about 15 years worth of damage lmao.not funny really ,is now I guess .methadone was only option for me at that time.the alternative was not good.at least I'm here now typing this long winded sob story just to piss off shrxhky420 .so I been thru it all.the weed now is used as a pre entive measure and works wonders fellas really does.and after 10 years finally have what I need to do what I gotta do.

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• Soil- FOFF and HF mix with 30 % pearlite​
• 1000 w HPS with Ushio bulb and POS bat wing reflector (not for fuckimg long )
• Room -currently vegging in a roughly 7.5 by 13.5 room.7.5x9 of it has 7.5 ft ceilings while the other 7.5x3 has a slope ceiling down to about 4 ft​
• Smart pots​
• 17/7 light schedule​
• Humidity 30-37 %​
• Temp-27​
• Fans -one oscillator one fixed cirulatimg and feeding new air from outside the room At the moment until online fans come the end of month​