heres what you do. pay for the lights..
quit smoking weed, alternate shoplifting from different stores alcohol, poppy seeds, morning glory and robitussin pills. if you go through the stock in your immediate area start robbing drug dealers and eating random shrooms you can find after a rainfall. if those two tasks make you uncomfortable. go back to the store and grab a few bottles of unisom. 100-150mg will knock you out. 200+ is deliriant
good luck
you could always exercise, read books, study, eat alot of good food. be social, get a girl, idk distract yourself and naturally release them feely good chems