while ultimately it was HER choice.
i couldnt do that, chances are some fucking cure would come out right after i decided to do that or something , the fact is that i would fight for mylife and hold onto every waking moment. for maybe there is hope and maybe just maybe i would survive.
that "maybe" for me would be why i could never do it,
on the marijuana side, i highly doubt it wouldve cured her extremely far gone terminal brain cancer, but couldve made her last bits of life more enjoyable thats for sure