Bouts of depression

Carne Seca

Well-Known Member
You need your doctor to recommend a psychiatrist or therapist for you. You should have professional help. Let me put it this way. What if you (God forbid) needed an appendix removed? Would you use folk remedies or ask your neighbor to do the surgery? Would you ask a forum of stoners to do it? No, of course not. You're not going to find the answers here. You may read about some great coping mechanisms that work for others but that doesn't necessarily mean they will work for you. Your fear regarding therapists is unfounded. Any therapist or psychiatrist will tell you that patient confidentiality is a high priority. I had a therapist that knew every member of my family and was a member of my church. Not a peep came out of him and I had some pretty juicy gossip to share. LOL

There are a lot of great people on this forum and I'm so glad you felt comfortable enough to share your burdens. But you really should find a good therapist. The more you explain your problems the more data he has to help prescribe the right medication and to give you coping tools adapted to your particular situation. If you could do it on your own, don't you think you would have accomplished that by now? You need someone with a flashlight and a road map. :p
 

writtin

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You need your doctor to recommend a psychiatrist or therapist for you. You should have professional help. Let me put it this way. What if you (God forbid) needed an appendix removed? Would you use folk remedies or ask your neighbor to do the surgery? Would you ask a forum of stoners to do it? No, of course not. You're not going to find the answers here. You may read about some great coping mechanisms that work for others but that doesn't necessarily mean they will work for you. Your fear regarding therapists is unfounded. Any therapist or psychiatrist will tell you that patient confidentiality is a high priority. I had a therapist that knew every member of my family and was a member of my church. Not a peep came out of him and I had some pretty juicy gossip to share. LOL

There are a lot of great people on this forum and I'm so glad you felt comfortable enough to share your burdens. But you really should find a good therapist. The more you explain your problems the more data he has to help prescribe the right medication and to give you coping tools adapted to your particular situation. If you could do it on your own, don't you think you would have accomplished that by now? You need someone with a flashlight and a road map. :p
I don't feel comfortable talking to anybody around my area. and I would rather not drive for a therapy session. Talking to people on here works better for me....
 

Carne Seca

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I don't feel comfortable talking to anybody around my area. and I would rather not drive for a therapy session. Talking to people on here works better for me....
That's strictly up to you. :) I hope we all can help. My door is always open. Just shoot me a pm and I will be more than happy to share the burden. Like the old saying goes, "A burden shared is a burden halved."
 

writtin

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I have no problem going to a doctor but just to clear it up a little bit I do not like talking about my problems... That's it, I can't find the words when I am trying to speak and I can still type it out. I act all happy-go-lucky but because I do not share my problems with people they boil up and there are times when I just don't say anything and go out in the woods for 12 hours to be alone because I don't want to be around anybody and I don't want anybody to ask whats wrong and I just don't want the people around me in life to know what my problems are because in a small town like mine you tell one person and you hear about it from 20 others
 
The key to curing depression for most people has to do with lifestyle more than pills. Certainly there are some people who are helped with medication, but you should always take the natural route first. Here are some simple things that have helped plenty of people around the world:

1) switch to the paleo diet
2) get exercise on a daily basis
3) try to limit your sitting time to 4 hours per day
4) get a job or start getting a better education.
5) stop watching television

i used to be depressed and simple changes like these helped me out a lot. hope it can help others.
 

cannabineer

Ursus marijanus
The smalltown thing can be both a blessing and a curse. Does yours have a practicing therapist? Here's the test: have you heard any gossip at all that might have come from that person? If anybody's entitled to an "I have a secret" T-shirt, it's a therapist, today's confessor. cn
 

writtin

Well-Known Member
The smalltown thing can be both a blessing and a curse. Does yours have a practicing therapist? Here's the test: have you heard any gossip at all that might have come from that person? If anybody's entitled to an "I have a secret" T-shirt, it's a therapist, today's confessor. cn
I have heard tons of gossip that sounded either like a personal talk with a therapist or a very close personal friend. I do not know which. I have heard things I REALLY did not need to know - for example - a guy I know around town - it somehow(through a group of other guys) got out that he was circumcized at 18 and that he is really embarassed and private and sht about it. I didn't need to know that about him, but now I do and you can't unhear things. If something like that got out somehow I do not need to tell my problems with a mental issue that I've had and have it go around that I'm a psycho or a nutcase or something - If I wanted people thinking that I'd run through town naked with a crank pipe and a rifle...
 

cannabineer

Ursus marijanus
I have heard tons of gossip that sounded either like a personal talk with a therapist or a very close personal friend. I do not know which. I have heard things I REALLY did not need to know - for example - a guy I know around town - it somehow(through a group of other guys) got out that he was circumcised at 18 and that he is really embarrassed and private and sht about it.
Sounds like the proverbial hot tip.
I didn't need to know that about him, but now I do and you can't unhear things. If something like that got out somehow I do not need to tell my problems with a mental issue that I've had and have it go around that I'm a psycho or a nutcase or something - If I wanted people thinking that I'd run through town naked with a crank pipe and a rifle...
Maybe a more positive approach. Do the naked rifle thing NOW and remove all the guesswork. Nowhere but up&forward from there. :joint::bigjoint: cn
 

Carne Seca

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I have heard tons of gossip that sounded either like a personal talk with a therapist or a very close personal friend. I do not know which. I have heard things I REALLY did not need to know - for example - a guy I know around town - it somehow(through a group of other guys) got out that he was circumcized at 18 and that he is really embarassed and private and sht about it. I didn't need to know that about him, but now I do and you can't unhear things. If something like that got out somehow I do not need to tell my problems with a mental issue that I've had and have it go around that I'm a psycho or a nutcase or something - If I wanted people thinking that I'd run through town naked with a crank pipe and a rifle...
I know what you're going through. I grew up in a little Mormon community. Coming out was THE most frightening experience of my life. But I did it and my life is so much better now. You can't let your life be dictated by what other people think of you. What are they to you? Why is their opinion so important? Would these same people come to your aid if needed? Do they pay your bills? Buy your food?

Just remember that everyone has their own personal demons to contend with. A person that gossips about their neighbors usually has a few closet skeletons of their own. What better way to draw attention away from your shit than by pointing out someone else's steaming pile?

Live your life. Fuck the haters.
 

writtin

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I know what you're going through. I grew up in a little Mormon community. Coming out was THE most frightening experience of my life. But I did it and my life is so much better now. You can't let your life be dictated by what other people think of you. What are they to you? Why is their opinion so important? Would these same people come to your aid if needed? Do they pay your bills? Buy your food?

Just remember that everyone has their own personal demons to contend with. A person that gossips about their neighbors usually has a few closet skeletons in their own. What better way to draw attention away from your shit than by pointing out someone else's steaming pile?

Live your life. Fuck the haters.
I try to live my life - and the small town that I live in includes a few people who I wouldn't mind getting into it with - and if they started talking shit I would end up behind bars... It's not so much caring what people think as it is caring how much the people I live around actually know about my personal life. Say in some alternate world I was importing 10k lbs of heroin - I wouldn't want them to know. In reality I am growing marijuana to help with my issues and to keep my mind occupied- yet again something I would rather nobody in my town know. I don't even tell anybody I know that I grow if they ask me if I do I tell them I helped somebody grow/trim it(which I trim for people at times so it generally passes off as valid) my growing stems from issues with my thought process - and is the way I keep myself in check. It calms me down to see them growing out the way they do - and when I have to pull them I almost feel like theres nothing to look forward to until next year so I am trying to get an indoor room set up but..ya... So - I don't do anything with heroin that was just hypothetical and I don't need my business spread around my town - if 15 or 20 people know I am growing, that is 14-19 too many... I keep it between me and my girlfriend. I honestly get mad when I see a car I do not know coming up my driveway and if people knew I was growing that would probably happen a lot more often
 

rainman36

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I try to live my life - and the small town that I live in includes a few people who I wouldn't mind getting into it with - and if they started talking shit I would end up behind bars... It's not so much caring what people think as it is caring how much the people I live around actually know about my personal life. Say in some alternate world I was importing 10k lbs of heroin - I wouldn't want them to know. In reality I am growing marijuana to help with my issues and to keep my mind occupied- yet again something I would rather nobody in my town know. I don't even tell anybody I know that I grow if they ask me if I do I tell them I helped somebody grow/trim it(which I trim for people at times so it generally passes off as valid) my growing stems from issues with my thought process - and is the way I keep myself in check. It calms me down to see them growing out the way they do - and when I have to pull them I almost feel like theres nothing to look forward to until next year so I am trying to get an indoor room set up but..ya... So - I don't do anything with heroin that was just hypothetical and I don't need my business spread around my town - if 15 or 20 people know I am growing, that is 14-19 too many... I keep it between me and my girlfriend. I honestly get mad when I see a car I do not know coming up my driveway and if people knew I was growing that would probably happen a lot more often
Don't shit where you sleep.
 

Carne Seca

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umm... you don't have to tell a therapist you're growing. You can filter the imformation you share. There is no rule that says you have to talk about everything. Your problems aren't caused by cannabis so there's no reason to say anything about it. I really do believe that you're going to need a little professional guidance at some point. But, once again, that's up to you.

Like I've said before, people only seek help when the pain of the problem overcomes the pain of the solution. :)
 

writtin

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umm... you don't have to tell a therapist you're growing. You can filter the imformation you share. There is no rule that says you have to talk about everything. Your problems aren't caused by cannabis so there's no reason to say anything about it. I really do believe that you're going to need a little professional guidance at some point. But, once again, that's up to you.

Like I've said before, people only seek help when the pain of the problem overcomes the pain of the solution. :)
Well - considering my doctor prescribed cannabis and suggested growing the plants as a way to relieve stress and keep myself occupied - If I were to go to a therapist and they asked about medication - I would have to tell them about the prescription. That is one of the things only the people I trust not to try to abuse it know. Even less know I know anything about growing, and less yet know I am growing. Some of my "problems" or things I have issues with involve other people, and situations with other people that said people do not need to know I has having these issues at that time... In other words - I would have to travel to do something like that and feel comfortable enough to not lie through my teeth about everything like the last 2 or 3 I have been to - one was a group thing. I do not feel like I NEED to do it though so I see no need in traveling and wasting the $ doing that when I could be saving it or spending it on food or financing my next grow...
 
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