Southernontariogrower
Well-Known Member
you need to find a confidence person, someone who will be there for you, even talking on phone. It will help. Doesnt have to be a shrink. Just an ear to listen.
Love this idea of continually turning in on ones self, looking back at the looker and sitting with your thoughts as one sits with a river or watches clouds pass by. No judgment, no control, just observation.Meditation has been a very effective coping tool for me. It's allowed me to become more of a watcher of the thoughts rather than being controlled by them. Sure, the thoughts are not always pleasant but they're also not always present. I'm of the opinion that we're all a little 'schizophrenic' (for lack of a better term) ..and I'm also a firm believer that we're all here to better ourselves even if that means making healing somewhat of a hobby. Some folks choose to constantly distract themselves with family, jobs, pets, hobbies etc and they may never have the opportunity to truly know themselves. I believe that we're all responsible for the path that we're on and I feel that a path of introspection, rather than a path of distraction from our true selves, is the more rewarding path. Of course, these are only my opinions based on my own experience of having battled depression for well over 45 years. Best of luck and many blessings to you @shroomhaze. You have my support and my love. Feel free to DM me anytime. I mean it.
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So very,very sorry. I can relate to that suffering that's so common in this world. Plucked from universe and tossed into the thresher. Relentless pain, wings clipped, progressively worse, not knowing how bad it may get, no escape.Terrifying. That will put that shit in my head, a quick release ( my fav is lounging on top of a nuke when it blows). Not in me though. I slug it out daily and try like hell to adapt. I have beautiful family and tons of critters that need me around. I Just try to power through these dark winds and hold tight.Wish I could come get you.The question is weird I know but I always consider suicide as an option. This may sound depressing for people but I am really not suicidal anymore. But I never stopped considering suicide as an option. Im going through probably the hardest times I have ever been through and there is a chance it is in fact going to keep getting worse, I dont know what future will bring so I dont think about it most days and try to stay in the present. But I know I might get stuck in a place in my life with no way out soon and when that happens I might just say fuck it and hope for the best about what will happen after death. This comes from a place where a person has lost their freedom to do almost anything in life, his choices in life has become very narrow in a third world country and might just keep loosing more and become just a slave. I dont why I put this here I guess a little weird to put on a cannabis forum lmao