i do alot of major smoking and i completly quit at times its either an oz a week for me or nothen, one thing i can tell you is when im quit, its damn near impossible for me to stay quit last week or 2 of flowering, especially at harvest time. theres definatly something different about the mind set in grow houses, and bad ballasts can make people violent.. ive got a kid, been through a divorce had cops in my grow house, etc.. one thing i can tell you is its not just you who goes through a mind change with growing weed in your house, everyone does.. it may take you years to realize it, eventually you will