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How hard was the transition my dude, it was super easy the first 5 weeks or so then I had a few beers at the renaissance festival. The next day is was all bets off, been drinking hard since, smoking less and popping quite a bit of pills (mostly just benzos).

Thanks brother, truly.

Oh Jesus man that's horrible, sorry for your loss

Yeah man it was just over two months ago when I initially checked in, they wanted me to attend IOP or AA, even set me up with a therapist and social worker, all of it. I stopped taking my naltrexone after falling off the band-wagon, I've been even worse a drunk since, well I was functional at...

Thank you, I'm currently drunk off my ass and quietly weeping, I've tried so hard not to but it's helping I think. Maybe idk. I feel so bad for friend, no fuck that my brother, my family. He seems okay, he's managing at least

You know one of the worst things, I can't tell, which I know I'm depressed, but I almost feel like I'm scapegoating her death for an excuse to drink, how fucking sick is that.

Yeah man I'm trying to see the silver lining, I mean I do, it's staring me I the God damn face, it's shaking me awake while I sleep. Her death has to mean something, and it certainly does, but if it's the impetus of change then however tragic it does mean something

It's a self fulfilling prophecy, you never really and honestly come to grips and just postpone the enviable. That said here comes another shot of crown in between glasses of vodka

Yeah me and my buddy talked about our lack of religion, how we hope that she's still with us, somewhere but neither of us believe that. The drugs and alcohol is all I've known, even right now I'm drinking while having intense tremors, I should probably check myself into detox again, but I feel...

You know I met with my buddy last night, the boyfriend survivor and I told him maybe this tragedy is and appropriately with her name an opportunity to grow, learn from this and better ourselves through this tragedy. I have to believe this means something greater than what it is.

Thanks everyone, it's kind of amazing the comfort and solace some random strangers on the internet can provide. Maybe not, we're all as humans one big complicated family.

And thank you kind Sir, this is exactly what I was seeking, again, thank you.

Yes thankfully and in many ways unfortunately I live with my family (try being in your 30s and bringing a chick home) but at the same time I'm eternally grateful. I think it's absolutely made me reconsider suicide well before reuniting as a family, I can't imagine abandoning my niece or nephew...

So I didn't really think of a better place to post this, not really of the state of mind to figure it out but just wanted to throw this out there as I'm distraught and looking for some comradery.. My friend, a young woman only 19 (I'm 33) years of age committed suicide about a week ago by...

Saw these guys and about a dozen in total bands (The only other one I remember was Seven Mary Three, I kind of recall Days of The New as well) back in '96 at a local radio festival/concert when 9 years old. Fucking walked into a port-a-potty a women didn't lock and saw her IV'ing something...

That's not promising, development hell has ruined a lot of games

LOL I had to look it up. For another slight deviation from video games, I like to get drunk and stoned and assemble Warhammer 40k miniatures.

Oh that's awesome dude

So I got this thing prolly like 8 months ago, easily one of my best investments. The only thing I don't like is I can't program the rear paddles to be L1 or R1, which would be nice. https://scufgaming.com/playstation-infinity4ps-controller

Damn man the only one missing is Stone Temple Pilots, my personal favorite of the 90's grunge scene