fuck, i never meant to be a grower. when i started growing for my wife and i, i was working a $20/hr job with full benefits, stock sharing, 6% match on the 401k (aka free money), and tons of other little perks like free lunch, tons of PTO, and the like. i would give away ounces to neighbors. i even gave it away after i got laid off until the UI started dwindling.
and i'm the same way about seeing a better way to rebuild things. probably got it from my dad who is a carpenter. when we are at a restaurant we focus more on the details of the trim job or how they could have tiled the place better rather than the food. my brother is the same way.