Don Gin and Ton
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You'd think they'd make newborn colours green n brown camo lol.
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jigfresh
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You guys should see the green the room already is. Not exactly relaxing lol. More like a Lime attacked some folks. We are going to paint the room multiple colors. My rainbow when I was a kid had a rainbow going across 3 walls. Was so lovely. I've always loved color and that was great. It's amazing having a rainbow in my room didn't turn me gay. 
As a laid me down to sleep last night was thinking bout your post don. I'm just inferring that you were saying babe was helpful like papa. Got me to think about how I love helping people do just about anything, as long as I am being helpful. Comes from my pop. He wasn't really ever happy with me as a helper for one reason or another. I honestly think most of the time he was trying to be nice, like "You don't need to be in the garage helping, you can go play"... but I didn't want to play. I wanted to hang with dad. But no luck really. So my 'hard luck' story is that my dad never let me help. And that has created Mr. Helper Man, lol. I want to help any and everybody to fulfill that child hood need.
Really cool stuff to know that it's not 'who I am'... it's 'who I've decided to be'... and I can change it now, or not. Another thing my dad's disapproval of my work has got is me being a perfectionist. Something like I have to do things right, or I'll get told to stop. It's nice I've been consciously letting that one go recently. Really opens a lot of doors when you have the option of not being perfect.
Had a blast time with my buddy yesterday. We ate lunch by a little reservoir thing and then cruised around the mall window shopping. I'm really proud of my friend. He's really doing it. Hitting the ground running.
Oh, and funny thing about baby clothes. That's the one thing my wife handled the first pregnancy. We got to 21 weeks that first one, so there was lots of time for shopping. Wife has something like 50 outfits for newborn up to 1 year I think. We really came up on a deal. Some girl who was having her first was going to be surprised about the sex. The girls Mother wanted to know. So Mother went to dr appt with daughter and was allowed to find out the baby was a girl. The lady who was pregnant and didn't know the sex spent the rest of her pregnancy buying neutral colored clothes. Her Mom spent the whole time buying cute girl things. When baby was born Mom brought over all the girly stuff and the pregnant lady said fuck it to everything she bought. Sold it on craigslist. None of it has been used even. Most still with tags and a lot of it is nice name brand stuff. Got a bunch of blanket/ towel/ barf rags as well. They make name brand barf rags lol. Jeez people like to waste money. (see starbucks hehe)
Unrelated I'm having a bit of a hard time right now because one of my cats is sick. Normally not a big deal, but this guy is our runt. He was sick as anything when we had our first baby. I was thinking he was gonna die then. That was when we had to give him fluids for 5 days because he neither ate nor drank. It had me shook then, and it has me having flashbacks now. I remember then waking up to his sneezing all night, same now. Fuck it makes me a bit sick, just the reminder of the whole episode.
Love you guys.
As a laid me down to sleep last night was thinking bout your post don. I'm just inferring that you were saying babe was helpful like papa. Got me to think about how I love helping people do just about anything, as long as I am being helpful. Comes from my pop. He wasn't really ever happy with me as a helper for one reason or another. I honestly think most of the time he was trying to be nice, like "You don't need to be in the garage helping, you can go play"... but I didn't want to play. I wanted to hang with dad. But no luck really. So my 'hard luck' story is that my dad never let me help. And that has created Mr. Helper Man, lol. I want to help any and everybody to fulfill that child hood need.
Really cool stuff to know that it's not 'who I am'... it's 'who I've decided to be'... and I can change it now, or not. Another thing my dad's disapproval of my work has got is me being a perfectionist. Something like I have to do things right, or I'll get told to stop. It's nice I've been consciously letting that one go recently. Really opens a lot of doors when you have the option of not being perfect.
Had a blast time with my buddy yesterday. We ate lunch by a little reservoir thing and then cruised around the mall window shopping. I'm really proud of my friend. He's really doing it. Hitting the ground running.
Oh, and funny thing about baby clothes. That's the one thing my wife handled the first pregnancy. We got to 21 weeks that first one, so there was lots of time for shopping. Wife has something like 50 outfits for newborn up to 1 year I think. We really came up on a deal. Some girl who was having her first was going to be surprised about the sex. The girls Mother wanted to know. So Mother went to dr appt with daughter and was allowed to find out the baby was a girl. The lady who was pregnant and didn't know the sex spent the rest of her pregnancy buying neutral colored clothes. Her Mom spent the whole time buying cute girl things. When baby was born Mom brought over all the girly stuff and the pregnant lady said fuck it to everything she bought. Sold it on craigslist. None of it has been used even. Most still with tags and a lot of it is nice name brand stuff. Got a bunch of blanket/ towel/ barf rags as well. They make name brand barf rags lol. Jeez people like to waste money. (see starbucks hehe)
Unrelated I'm having a bit of a hard time right now because one of my cats is sick. Normally not a big deal, but this guy is our runt. He was sick as anything when we had our first baby. I was thinking he was gonna die then. That was when we had to give him fluids for 5 days because he neither ate nor drank. It had me shook then, and it has me having flashbacks now. I remember then waking up to his sneezing all night, same now. Fuck it makes me a bit sick, just the reminder of the whole episode.
Love you guys.
jigfresh
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That kick last night changed my life.So happy for you Jig!!! Feeling that first kick is a pretty amazing thing
Hope the wifey feels better soon. You as well.
jojodancer10
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Was it a goodthing? So many different names not sure what to look for
colocowboy
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Nothing quite compares to holding your own progeny. Talk about life changing, I can't wait to hear your commentary on holding little jig for the first time brother, it's coming!
As my wife would say, YAY!
Bless you and your wonderful little family jigmeister!
As my wife would say, YAY!
Bless you and your wonderful little family jigmeister!
jigfresh
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It was as if God tapped my shoulder, and said hey... I'm here. It was like a voice calling out to me answering a question I've always wanted the answer to. It felt like 'me' reaching out and touching me, and it was like it was the first time I truly realized I exist. It's as if what I've known as life was a dream. A really long drawn out dream. Last night was if I had been awoken. It's a paradox because while I feel as if life has just started, I no longer exist. At least who I was. I used to be 'me'. Now there is more. There is me and my child. Inseparable.
I've waited so long and to think my little one is moving around getting ready to meet me is more than I can handle. When I let myself consider the reality that a child will be here soon I am absolutely overcome with emotion. I've cried like this twice in my life. Once when we lost our outdoor cat, and once when we lost out baby. I know it's stupid, but I honestly feel like if I let the emotions completely come to the surface I will die. Yes that sounds nuts, but it's how I feel. As if I could cry out my life force or something. I guess what it really is, is that I'm afraid of what's underneath (or something). Whatever, that's for my therapist to deal with. It's just amazing how much one's capacity to feel is.
I'm not actually sure I will be able to keep from crying the entire first month out baby is home.
I've waited so long and to think my little one is moving around getting ready to meet me is more than I can handle. When I let myself consider the reality that a child will be here soon I am absolutely overcome with emotion. I've cried like this twice in my life. Once when we lost our outdoor cat, and once when we lost out baby. I know it's stupid, but I honestly feel like if I let the emotions completely come to the surface I will die. Yes that sounds nuts, but it's how I feel. As if I could cry out my life force or something. I guess what it really is, is that I'm afraid of what's underneath (or something). Whatever, that's for my therapist to deal with. It's just amazing how much one's capacity to feel is.
I'm not actually sure I will be able to keep from crying the entire first month out baby is home.
colocowboy
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It's not stupid, not at all. Those are very familiar emotions, much of which is what I was talking about. Your gonna hit the water works on b-day, and it's ok! You won't be able to quell those emotions die or no! Is it really so bad to be "exposed" for having a heart of gold!? You know why it seems overwhelming how strong emotion is, we are basically taught that it is a mystery and it's from a spirit in the sky even though it's rooted right there in the center of you. You have but two emotions and they can bend the literal universe, all we are extends from love or fear and it seems your exuding both, you know it, and I would charge that it's not your therapist that actually has to deal with it. My .02 is that you know this, you fear the fact that it is REALLY in your hands but your stronger and better than you credit your self for. Stand and be counted, your a beautiful human being.
I love you too man!
I love all you folks, it's not so bad!
I love you too man!
I love all you folks, it's not so bad!
Thundercat
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Well put cowboy!
Man Jig I'm so happy for you man, and I know how scary this shit is, nothing will ever be the same. That first time you feel your childs touch, like the first kick, or feeling the babies hand its just amazing. Your gonna spend the rest of your life enamored with, and loving your kid and its gonna scare the shit out of you constantly. I'm always asking myself am I doing this right for my little girl, am I being the best dad I can? Like Cowboy said I think you don't give yourself enough credit man, we all have out flaws but embracing our positive attributes will always overcome them!
Man Jig I'm so happy for you man, and I know how scary this shit is, nothing will ever be the same. That first time you feel your childs touch, like the first kick, or feeling the babies hand its just amazing. Your gonna spend the rest of your life enamored with, and loving your kid and its gonna scare the shit out of you constantly. I'm always asking myself am I doing this right for my little girl, am I being the best dad I can? Like Cowboy said I think you don't give yourself enough credit man, we all have out flaws but embracing our positive attributes will always overcome them!
colocowboy
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My second cried for 6 weeks straight lol
colic.... kids was not but toots
colic.... kids was not but toots
Thundercat
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I agree the first month or 2 all you will have is baby time and sleeping time.
I was also gonna say in my last post that I'm getting ready to leave for the Cannabis Cup tonight, and this will be the longest I've been away from my wife and daughter ever, and I was in tears last night. I know I should be thrilled to go to the Cup, but I'm gonna miss them.
I was also gonna say in my last post that I'm getting ready to leave for the Cannabis Cup tonight, and this will be the longest I've been away from my wife and daughter ever, and I was in tears last night. I know I should be thrilled to go to the Cup, but I'm gonna miss them.
bassman999
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Jig I went my whole life not being able to cry or be visibly sad.
My stepdad would beat me till I would cry.
I got beaten daily
I eventually got hard as a stone, and would egg him on to keep going...after a while cant feel the pain anymore.
Anyway that carried on to my adult life.
No crying when my g-ma died or anything.
Holding all that emotion in made me a psychopath, and I would snap, and beat ppl up on the street for stuff I could careless about now.
One day something changed, and I am an emotional wreck sometimes now, but it fells so much better than the old me.
I hate the person I was and embrace my softer side now.
I have kids to be a positive example to.
My stepdad would beat me till I would cry.
I got beaten daily
I eventually got hard as a stone, and would egg him on to keep going...after a while cant feel the pain anymore.
Anyway that carried on to my adult life.
No crying when my g-ma died or anything.
Holding all that emotion in made me a psychopath, and I would snap, and beat ppl up on the street for stuff I could careless about now.
One day something changed, and I am an emotional wreck sometimes now, but it fells so much better than the old me.
I hate the person I was and embrace my softer side now.
I have kids to be a positive example to.
bassman999
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I wanted to say that seeing my kids born was the most outrageous and awesome thing I have ever witnessed.
My oldest came out normally, and my 2nd was breached as a result of a slip on a wet floor in Ralphs supermarket and mid pregnancy somewhere.
I thought watching her comeout the lil hole was crazy, till I watched the c-section.
You have to respect and admire women for what they do for us and their family.
Thinking about that right now makes me feel guilty and a lil emotional actually.
My oldest came out normally, and my 2nd was breached as a result of a slip on a wet floor in Ralphs supermarket and mid pregnancy somewhere.
I thought watching her comeout the lil hole was crazy, till I watched the c-section.
You have to respect and admire women for what they do for us and their family.
Thinking about that right now makes me feel guilty and a lil emotional actually.
Don Gin and Ton
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the whole thing scares me silly. i'm so irresponsible at times. i know i'd change again for the better but i aint ready yet. wont have one til i can afford it. my folks couldn't and it stuck with me to this day. you don't need money to love the bairn i know but being poor growing up sucks.
my mate just had one and likened it to shitting a pineapple she's the most beautiful angelic little pineapple i've seen. you're going to be an awesome dad jig.
hope the cat pics up
my mate just had one and likened it to shitting a pineapple she's the most beautiful angelic little pineapple i've seen. you're going to be an awesome dad jig.
hope the cat pics up
Don Gin and Ton
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quick throw some plant pics up before we turn this thread into mushy central. i'm going to ball my eyes out shortly. show me some pr0n!!!
bassman999
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jigfresh
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Well we are gonna have a little girl. Can barely think right now im just so happy. Im already so in love with my little girl. Will post both baby and plant pics later when home.
Baby has ny nose lol. Not necessarily a good thing haha.
And I hear you about leaving your fam for the cup TC. Poor mr west left his girl for the first time for the cup in the dam. I guess he could tell you more but he seemed to be a bit somewhere else at times. Puts a whole new perspective on priorities.
Im gonna raise a little girl.
Baby has ny nose lol. Not necessarily a good thing haha.
And I hear you about leaving your fam for the cup TC. Poor mr west left his girl for the first time for the cup in the dam. I guess he could tell you more but he seemed to be a bit somewhere else at times. Puts a whole new perspective on priorities.
Im gonna raise a little girl.
bassman999
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Girls are awesome bro!Well we are gonna have a little girl. Can barely think right now im just so happy. Im already so in love with my little girl. Will post both baby and plant pics later when home.
Baby has ny nose lol. Not necessarily a good thing haha.
And I hear you about leaving your fam for the cup TC. Poor mr west left his girl for the first time for the cup in the dam. I guess he could tell you more but he seemed to be a bit somewhere else at times. Puts a whole new perspective on priorities.
Im gonna raise a little girl.
My 1st girl didnt cry for 3 months.
A lil whine when born for 2 min, then never again lol
She slept through the night and all mostly too
When the 2nd was born I was in for a rude awakening...literally!
She is sooooo the opposite, but a clone wouldnt be fun now would it???
Super excited for ya bro!!
Oh my 1st has my nose lol, and she is sooo much like my personality too.
She expresses my views like they r her own, which now I guess they r.
She is why I changed sooo much over the yrs
colocowboy
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Man I am just grinning ear to ear for the jigfresh family!
mr west
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I was exactly the same when i went to the dam cup in november lol.