How do you say whats hard to say?

xKuroiTaimax

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I feel you Urca.

I thought this guy was my best friend in the whole world. Kept me his dirty little secret and flipped out on me when he thought I'd told someone about us, when I said nothing and a drunk friend made some shit up.

Had me lying and sneaking away from my friend's to go see him. Never did anything in returned but I always felt obliged to 'help him' like I 'owed' him something. Then he'd act like nothing happened and get annoyed If I tried to start something with him... Then ring me at 3 am, drunk asking for phone sex.

Yeah I've had a bastard go through the back door without asking with no lube, I kept quiet.

I've only ever been a good girl and taken it ALL in and swallowed. I got a 'that was the best I've ever had' a month down the line, but no 'thankyou' at the time.

I haven't told my crush's girlfriend about him presiding me into BJs because she's already questioning his character and if I tell her some of the things he made me do, she's get mad at him and it'd look like I was trying to sabotage their relationship.

I have never had a man WANT me or LOVE me. Maybe it's my fair for being eager to please and not completely self centred but I hate the fact that all these guys were people close to me and yet they are ashamed to say they did anything with me, because they know my friend's will see them for the dicks they are.

There you go. I spilled. It's the Internet. I'll never see any of you so I might as well be honest, especially as you had some embarrassing stuff to say yourself Urca. I just want to let you know you're not the only one.

Before you guys say 'I asked for it' or something, I may flash my panties on here but trust me I'm not like this offline. When I was sexually assaulted on a train I was wearing cargo pants and a hoodie for fuck sake.

What I'm trying to say is when you bang a chick, remember how you treat her can affect her for the rest of her life. How a girl feels about herself in a sexual context can extend to how she views herself as a person as a whole. The first time I was assaulted I lost all love and respect for myself and felt like I wasn't worth saying 'no'.

Yeah you can tell us to grow a backbone, but until you've been there and felt that low about yourself, you can't really speak, or poke fun.

Sorry. That was difficult. Urca, hope this works out for you and you find a man who will treat you like the most precious thing in the world.
 

Michael Sparks

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a guys favorite words to here from a chick. "We need to talk".......shit(in his mind)..cuz it means he did something wrong
I say, do we need to talk or do you need to tell me what i am doing that is displeasing to you.. Shit Urca, Speak your mind, be cautious how they will react, and let people close to you know what is occurring. do for you so you are happy at the same time keeping others feeling in mind just not over yours :-)
 

Michael Sparks

Active Member
I feel you Urca.

I thought this guy was my best friend in the whole world. Kept me his dirty little secret and flipped out on me when he thought I'd told someone about us, when I said nothing and a drunk friend made some shit up.
damn i just felt your pain, i got nothing else to say.. thanks for sharing.
 

PeacefulKid1992

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Not getting into why I am asking, but yeah, how do you say something like that? Be direct? Slowly build your way up? I dont know.... I mean it should be said but idk if im bold enough to say it, so I need to think about my delivery
just do it.....
 

DelSlow

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I would smoke all you guys out if I could, thanks for the laughs.

@urca I too have had jizz on my hands, I feel your pain.
 

Urca

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ok, so i confronted him about it... and well, he apologized and all that good shit, i guess he was feeling hella self concious about his breath, so he would only brush his lips across my forehead... which makes sense cause even though his breath didnt stink, it wasnt exactly... fresh i guess. He hella apologized though... and other than the kissing/fooling around thing, we had a great night. so... idk how i feel
 

Urca

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no... basically i was pissed he rushed me into getting him off, didnt return the favor, and didnt kiss me. got one part resolved with the kissing, and im gonna work on getting him to get me off too
 

metaltooths

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no... basically i was pissed he rushed me into getting him off, didnt return the favor, and didnt kiss me. got one part resolved with the kissing, and im gonna work on getting him to get me off too
guess the guy that smoked you out isn't so gay.
 

Urca

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why was he worried about his breath.. did he suck your penis too? i love you urca <3
he brushed them in the morning but not before he came to see me... it wasnt funky breath, just not fresh, i mean, i came home and my boobs smelled like his mouth... i guess he was really embarrassed so he didnt wanna kiss me and risk me grossing out... which i wouldnt have, i didnt think it was that bad, and its been two months since the last time we kissed, lol i was jonesing for a fix
 
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