Fucking benzo addiction.. That was the worst few days EVER

high|hgih

high|hgih

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I'm not gonna be a jackass and say never do benzos.. But oh my god don't do them everyday.. I bought a bottle of tiny little 2mg diazepams which are valiums, the pill count in the bottle was 60, and I just swalowed them every once in awhile throught the days at work. I really like them because it actually made time GO faster.. I stayed late after work one of the nights and I was not even aware that I was off at all, I was literally convinced it was only 7 and it was 9.. I mean I obviously was no more than 15 minutes aftertime because people told me my shift was over.. But anyways, it was a really good time until two days ago.. I had to quit cold turkey because I wasn't getting payed until tomorrow actually, and I can't buy shit for drugs atm... and the withdrawl was literally the worst withdrawl I have ever had.. and I thought not having a cigarette was bad.. Plus it made me fucking retarded.. I couldn't even figure out tiny little math problems, or read a book even.. Those things are just bad news.

Can't say I won't EVER do them again though :lol:
 
mescalinebandit420

mescalinebandit420

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dam. that sux. just be glad u got over it as fast as u did. i was hooked on opiates for 6 years and it was terrible. i have been clean for a little over 6 months now and i feel great. its sux that i even have to take medicine to get off of that shit. besides that, just do what i do. just herb and hallucinigens. just make up ur mind too that theres nothing else. fuck that shit bro.
 
high|hgih

high|hgih

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I still feel the badness of it, right now its just the migraine feeling and some stomach cramps.. And my brain still isn't working. But for the last two days, it kinda went away this morning, but I felt almost exactly what it feels like to wake up in the morning after a long hard day of working out. Like all my muscles ached.. it was just terrible.. I layed around all day talking like a zombie not eating anything.. I can't even sit here on my computer without the lights off, because the lights just multiply the ache of the headache.. God damn. Anyways, I never really got into opiates, I mean I do them still once every month or so, maybe 4 or 5 times ;) I never really got addicted to them, and if I am I just don't know it.. but I can totally understand now why every addict I know is pissy almost 24/7 until they get their shit.. I really wanted to just punch a hole through my wall if I could even get the energy to want to stand up lol

But good job on quitting, how long did it take for the withdrawal to go away? And how high was your tolerance? I mean damn, I have to spread out my opium days a lot because its just worth waiting for the high. not like weed were the tolerance slowely goes up. that shit goes up fast
 
Karmapuff

Karmapuff

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The thing I hate most about benzo's is the brain numbing effect. My thoughts are the only thing I have to comfort me and when they are gone I feel like a zombie. Withdrawal is a bitch but it will be over sooner then you think, Good luck bro :]
 
mescalinebandit420

mescalinebandit420

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with the medicine i take i dont get withdrawls but ive done it without the medicine before and it took up to 2 weeks. i was taking up to 10 lorects a day and like 3 80mg oxys..sometimes more,sometimes less. and dont worry man, as soon as it passes, u will be right back on top. and now u know to just leave that shit alone for good. i love waking up in the morning now and not having to worry about shit but loading the bong and jammin sum marley. oh happy days.
 
tardis

tardis

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high|hgih said:
I'm not gonna be a jackass and say never do benzos.. But oh my god don't do them everyday.. I bought a bottle of tiny little 2mg diazepams which are valiums, the pill count in the bottle was 60, and I just swalowed them every once in awhile throught the days at work. I really like them because it actually made time GO faster.. I stayed late after work one of the nights and I was not even aware that I was off at all, I was literally convinced it was only 7 and it was 9.. I mean I obviously was no more than 15 minutes aftertime because people told me my shift was over.. But anyways, it was a really good time until two days ago.. I had to quit cold turkey because I wasn't getting payed until tomorrow actually, and I can't buy shit for drugs atm... and the withdrawl was literally the worst withdrawl I have ever had.. and I thought not having a cigarette was bad.. Plus it made me fucking retarded.. I couldn't even figure out tiny little math problems, or read a book even.. Those things are just bad news.

Can't say I won't EVER do them again though :lol:
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I was hooked on xanax for 5 years. When i'd run out because anxiety got too bad and i'd take more, i'd wind up a few days without any xanax... those days were some of the worst in my life, by day 3 I just wanted to die and the only thing that would make me feel better was watching movies where people seemed to suffer more than I did. It was living hell. Which is why now the hardest thing I do is red wine, (or marijuana depending on if you believe science or politics). Without marijuana tho I lose massive weight, ususally 10 pounds in a week because I can't hold down food... however I smoke outta a bong and I can eat that and a bag of chips (as well as healthy protiens).

So I decided this year, fuck it, I'm done with anything addictive or anything that puts you through pure hell if you don't have it. I'll never touch anything like that shit again. Sure for 5 years I had moments when things were easier, but the times that were worse far outweighted the time it was ok. I'm not saying that stuff is bad for everyone, but unless its a risk to my life i'm not touching any pills of any kind. Anything with real addiction is something I just don't want in my life as my anxiety makes me very prone to habit forming and over relying on them. Anxiety sucks, but nowhere near as addiction is hell.


Weed and occasional red wine for me... stuff our human ancestors ingested 3000 years ago so its already filtered through our evolutionary process.
 
Green Apple

Green Apple

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Any kind of pharm's are going to give withdrawl's if you quit, I had a 8yr vicodin/percocet/(whatever i could get my hand's on addiction). Now day's cannabis is the only thing I touch. People seem to be dropping left and right because of pharms!
 
alberts

alberts

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Green Apple said:
Any kind of pharm's are going to give withdrawl's if you quit, I had a 8yr vicodin/percocet/(whatever i could get my hand's on addiction). Now day's cannabis is the only thing I touch. People seem to be dropping left and right because of pharms!
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loved ones at that..

I just wonder what my mom's life would be like if she would smoke herb every day or other day. Fuck anti depressants too.. I was on one for two years and when I went off i was have twitches for like 4 months... No Joke
 
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