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crackerboy

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Here is my testimony, I had previously posted in another thread and it was suggested that I create my own thread for this subject. So please feel free to share.

I grew up in a lower middle class home with two loving parents that did not believe in God. I often heard criticism about God from my parents. So I was not brain washed from an early age as so many claim happens. I was raised in the Florida public school system in the City of Tampa. I was arrested my first time at the age of 9 for burglary and by the time I was 16 I had been convicted of 1 burglary, 2 marijuana possessions, 1 grand theft auto, 1 destruction of private property, 1 misdemeanor battery, 1 felony assault, and 1 misdemeanor assault on a school board member.

I just want to stop here to say that none of this is a reflection on my parents as they did everything in their power to control me. But I did what ever I wanted to do with no fear of any consequences. With that said my neighborhood and school was dead smack in between the projects and the suburbs. Needless to say I moved my family out of that area. I moved out of my parents house at 16 and supported myself by selling weed, coke, acid, rolls, roofies, stolen goods, guns, and what ever I thought I could make a dollar with. Hell I even use to sell direct tv H cards back when you could program them yourself. Needless to say I barely finished high school.

I had a daughter at 17 and a son at 19. The realities of having a family motivated me to go back to school and get my degree. I ended up with a decent Job working in the field that I went to school for. Everything seemed good and I had for the most part separated myself from most of the people I had previously associated with. But that did not last long. After 911 the tech market crashed and massive layoff swept through the industry. I ended up loosing my job and could not find work in that same field for quite some time. This mixed with the inability to let go of the ideals of my childhood led to the demise of my marriage.

So there I was with no Job and no family. I was angry that I had done all the things that society taught me is the way to go and I still ended up out on the streets. So that is what I reverted to. I went back to the only other way of life that I knew. I went back to the only other thing that I was successful at. So there I was back on the streets that I had barely escaped from as a teen. It wasn't long before I was back in trouble with the law and found myself in county jail on several different occasions. One particular visit to the county jail was when my journey to God began. I was in on a simple driving on a suspended license charge which came with the usual 1 week maximum sentence. Normally you would just spend the night and see the judge in the morning and receive a fine and then released.

So right from the get go all the normal processes where thrown out the window. First I did not get to see the judge that first morning. Then I was transferred from the short term intake facility to the maximum security facility for violent felons and people with sentences longer than 6 months but less than a year unless they are still waiting trial. This was very unusual given my misdemeanor driving charge. Then I was placed into a trustee pod (which I was not. only long term inmates could become trustees) I just assumed that the docket was full for court that day and figured I was in for the maximum of one week.

The first day I was in the long term facility I ran into a friend from my old neighborhood. You know how every neighborhood has that one crazy kid that just always got into the most trouble and was always instigating things. Well that was this guy. He was actually friends with my older brother and had always treated me like his younger brother. Well he was in there waiting trial for attempted murder and armed robbery of another drug dealer. He had waived his right to a speedy trial and had been purposely postponing his trial in hopes that the dealer would disappear. Which he did oddly enough. So anyways he introduced me to another guy that I wish I could remember his name. My friend and this other guy began preaching the gospel to me every day. I just blew it off for the first week and wanted nothing to do with it. But then that week turned into two and then three. The whole time being preached to. They basically bribed me with canteen to get me to do Bible studies with them. I finally got bored enough to start studying with them. I then found some of it quite interesting. This was the first time I started really reading the Bible.

Every day I would go ask the guards to tell me what the hell was going on as I had been in for three weeks and still did not have a court date. Even the guards said that this was very odd for the charge that I was booked on. Every morning I would pick a random spot in the Bible to read. Three days in a row I opened the book to a passage that talked about fasting. I mentioned this to my friend and the other guy and they explained how and why I should fast. Needless to say I was very skeptical of this whole fasting thing since it made no sense to me at all. But seems how the food sucked any way and I knew I could trade my food for other crap I decided to give it a try. So the next day I skipped all three meals and spent the whole day in solitude reading the Bible and praying to God. It was not till later that night that I went to the Bible study and during the group prayer I felt this overwhelming feeling come over me. I physically felt the presence of Jesus and the holy spirit coursing through my veins. It traveled from my head down to my toes. I felt a physical transformation. It was like a whole new insight was given to me at that moment. I went to bed that night wondering what that feeling was.

At this point no one had any clue as to why I was still in jail. All the other inmates thought I must have been in for something much more serious and just did not want to tell anyone. But then that same night I was awaken by a guard. He proceeded to tell me that I was being released for time served. Now I still had not gone to court so there is no way for me to have been given time served. It was at that very moment laying on my slab staring up at this guard that I realized the power of God. I understood at that moment what God had done. I was released with no other explanation of what had happened.

From that moment forward it was like there was an unstoppable force compelling me to change my ways. I have since reconciled my marriage with my wife and am once again a father to my children. Shortly after I was released from jail I received a job offer from a company that I had not even applied to. They said my resume was forwarded to them from the collage that I had graduated from as part of a job placement program that I did not sign up for. Keep in mind this was almost 2 years after I had graduated. That company was then bought out by a company based out of Colorado and they paid for me to move up. Every since that final day in county jail the Bible has been speaking to me and instructing me on how and where I need to improve on my life. It has changed everything that I ever perceived as reality. I can now see a new reality, a reality that completely contradicts what society teaches.

Before I was saved it was every man for himself and anyone who got in my way was dealt with swiftly and cruelly. Now that I have been saved its more like how can I serve and help. Don't get me wrong I still struggle with the temptations of every day life. I am not perfect and still sin on a daily bases. But there is no logic to what has happened to me. The only answer is that I was saved by Gods grace alone. And without God I surely would have ended up with my friend awaiting trial for some violent crime.

I am sure many will criticize me for this post but I felt compelled to share. I just hope that this post can serve as an example of Gods wondrous works and glory. If any other Christians have a story than I would encourage you to please share. Share your story and possibly show others God's true works of love and compassion towards those who do not deserve it.
 
the only thing I will criticize is the lack of paragraphs, thats hard on the eyes, break that shit up a little.

Glad you found your Faith.
 

crackerboy

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the only thing I will criticize is the lack of paragraphs, thats hard on the eyes, break that shit up a little.

Glad you found your Faith.

Yeah sorry about that. Sometimes I just don't think about that crap when typing in these little boxes. Hope this is better on every ones eyes.
 

Padawanbater2

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I gotta ask man, why do you think this was God?

I understand it's a feeling you had, but don't you understand that feeling was a completely normal, natural, explainable feeling that you attributed to God without any evidence. If it was God, that's fine, but you can't just say it was just because you think it was, see what I'm saying? That's why I brought up consistency, if you're going to attribute it to God, what's to stop someone else from attributing it to Zues, Thor, Allah, etc.?

You have grown up in western society so you're conditioned to think it is the Christian god. If you lived in the Middle East, it'd most likely be Allah. Location is a major factor in determining what faith a person holds.
 

crackerboy

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I gotta ask man, why do you think this was God?

I understand it's a feeling you had, but don't you understand that feeling was a completely normal, natural, explainable feeling that you attributed to God without any evidence. If it was God, that's fine, but you can't just say it was just because you think it was, see what I'm saying? That's why I brought up consistency, if you're going to attribute it to God, what's to stop someone else from attributing it to Zues, Thor, Allah, etc.?

You have grown up in western society so you're conditioned to think it is the Christian god. If you lived in the Middle East, it'd most likely be Allah. Location is a major factor in determining what faith a person holds.

If my whole experience was just that feeling then I would have to agree with you. But it's all the circumstances surrounding that feeling. There where to many things that happened over that 4 week period to be considered coincidence. Not to mention my whole outlook on life has changed. All the sudden everything that I grasped to meant nothing anymore and the things I used to scoff at are now compelling me to change. Every time I read the Bible I come to new realizations about life. Even though I may have read that particular chapter or verse dozens of times it has a way of speaking to me. I feel a new sense of peace in my life like I have never felt. It's the transformation of my life and way of thinking. I used to be some what of a sociopath. I mean if I did not know you than I could care less about what happened to you. Not only did I not care what happened to you, but if you where between me and whatever I wanted then I would have ran right over you with not a care as to what damage I may have caused you. But now I can relate to peoples feeling and needs. Man it's crazy to hear myself say these things. I would have considered these types of feelings as a sign of weakness and just went after someone just because I felt they where an easy target. Someone that I could roll right over. I know that sounds horrible but that's what society taught me. I just don't know how to explain it very well I guess. I just see the world in a whole new light. When the Bible talks about Jesus is the light in the midst of darkness, that's exactly how I feel. Before it was all about my wants and needs. Now I am compelled to find ways to help and serve people in need.
 

Michael Phelps

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Crackerboy that's a giant fucking cola in your pick, holly damn haha! +Rep

As far as god in my opinion its all just how you want to take it, to me "god" is everything, the interconnectedness of our universe/space/time, god is me, god is you, god is love, god is hate, god is everything and every piece of our existence has its spot...

What most Christian's refer to as god, i refer to as the Annunaki, most would say its blasphemy, to me its logical.

My only contest with the majority of most organized religion is the fact that it ingrains alot of hatred in people, alot of "im right and your wrong", alot of judgment.


But overall i think you have to believe what make's you happy and comfortable. Crackerboy keep on keepin on brother!
 

crackerboy

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Crackerboy that's a giant fucking cola in your pick, holly damn haha! +Rep

As far as god in my opinion its all just how you want to take it, to me "god" is everything, the interconnectedness of our universe/space/time, god is me, god is you, god is love, god is hate, god is everything and every piece of our existence has its spot...

What most Christian's refer to as god, i refer to as the Annunaki, most would say its blasphemy, to me its logical.

My only contest with the majority of most organized religion is the fact that it ingrains alot of hatred in people, alot of "im right and your wrong", alot of judgment.


But overall i think you have to believe what make's you happy and comfortable. Crackerboy keep on keepin on brother!

Thanks man, I like to think that God blesses my crops. I just ask " Lord let my cola's be large and resinous. Let them not be over taken by mold and mites so that I may show the true glory of your mighty seed." LOL.

The biggest problem I see with western Christians is that a lot of them are stuck on the out ward appearance of being a Christian and fail to actually live out what it says. They use it as a way to show them selves that they are better than society. But Jesus say's to humble yourself and to love your neighbors.
 

Michael Phelps

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hahaha thats funny cause i honestly do the same thing! But i have never had a cola that big lol, although i did just get a 15.5 gram cola from my motivation plant last week... If you dont mind me asking, how big was that cola?


But crackerboy i couldnt agree with you more, it honestly really saddens me when i see so many Christian's speak with so much hatred of everything that is not a Christian... Well i shouldnt narrow that down to just Christian's because really their are alot of muslim's, jews, etc that feel the same way, i just am around alot more Christian's then anything else so i always default to that, my bad. But like you said you should love your neighbor, embrace their faults and learn, and most of all be humble. I think my biggest query with most religion's is there love for war, i mean i dont ever recall it saying that "thou shalt not kill unless for your country", but yet you have so many "Christian's" that are so willing to go to war with the middle east and essentially "kill them all". The majority of my family is die hard Christian's and i do love them very much, but their has been countless times that i have heard them say thing's like, ah the hell with all muslim's, let's just nuke the whole middle east and kill them all, the thing that really baffles me is that you know Jesus/God must hear those thing's and just shake in their boot's, i mean really it truly is sad. In my opinion it seem's to me that the vast majority of religious people in our world seem to only be conveniently religious.

Anyways crackerboy, im glad to know that you truly do humble yourself, its people like you that give me faith that one day our planet can overcome this thought that man needs to dominate his fellow man.
 

Buddy_Williams

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If I may say something in reference of wether or not God has a plan for us all. It may be hard to fathom, but he does. I have continuously try to be greatful for what the lord has given me. I've nearly lost all sanity numberous times, to which I have rised up over adversity, again and again. All the while, I am getting riticuled for standing up for what I believe in. He's kept his hand on me for ages, and my family still tries to keep me from knowing what I am doing. One minute I am being told I am nothing, the next minute I am being told what to do, where to do it, and how they wanted it.

32 operations on my brain, over 2/3rds are no more, hydrocephalus and Cerebral Palsy.....nahhhhh I am dumb....I don't have a clue what I want out of life (sarcasm).

Does not matter what race, color, or place in which we've come from, we're all his children. He does have a plan for us:)
 

Padawanbater2

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No disrespect, but a quick observation...

..another testimony from a person having undergone negative circumstances in their life.

As mentioned before, nobody just "discovers God" while watching the game or playing video games...

What is your opinion of this, from a believers perspective? You can't simply overlook this as coincidence.
 

crackerboy

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No disrespect, but a quick observation...

..another testimony from a person having undergone negative circumstances in their life.

As mentioned before, nobody just "discovers God" while watching the game or playing video games...

What is your opinion of this, from a believers perspective? You can't simply overlook this as coincidence.

I think that this is when people generally end up doing the most meditating. It is in these types of moments when a person takes a deep look into their souls. In these trying times we are forced to face some hard truths about our selves.
 

crackerboy

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hahaha thats funny cause i honestly do the same thing! But i have never had a cola that big lol, although i did just get a 15.5 gram cola from my motivation plant last week... If you dont mind me asking, how big was that cola?


But crackerboy i couldnt agree with you more, it honestly really saddens me when i see so many Christian's speak with so much hatred of everything that is not a Christian... Well i shouldnt narrow that down to just Christian's because really their are alot of muslim's, jews, etc that feel the same way, i just am around alot more Christian's then anything else so i always default to that, my bad. But like you said you should love your neighbor, embrace their faults and learn, and most of all be humble. I think my biggest query with most religion's is there love for war, i mean i dont ever recall it saying that "thou shalt not kill unless for your country", but yet you have so many "Christian's" that are so willing to go to war with the middle east and essentially "kill them all". The majority of my family is die hard Christian's and i do love them very much, but their has been countless times that i have heard them say thing's like, ah the hell with all muslim's, let's just nuke the whole middle east and kill them all, the thing that really baffles me is that you know Jesus/God must hear those thing's and just shake in their boot's, i mean really it truly is sad. In my opinion it seem's to me that the vast majority of religious people in our world seem to only be conveniently religious.

Anyways crackerboy, im glad to know that you truly do humble yourself, its people like you that give me faith that one day our planet can overcome this thought that man needs to dominate his fellow man.

Thanks man, that cola was 109 grams dried and cured. If I would have tried it on the stem it would have been a QP. I harvested just under a 1/2 lb off that one plant.
 

Padawanbater2

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I think that this is when people generally end up doing the most meditating. It is in these types of moments when a person takes a deep look into their souls. In these trying times we are forced to face some hard truths about our selves.
OK, I just want to make sure I'm clear on what you're saying.

Are you saying that someone can only discover God while in these extreme moments of heartache and sorrow? When they reflect on themselves and their life after something traumatic has happened?

Surely you can't be saying that, and I don't think that's the position you're taking.

What about when a person does the same thing without going through something traumatic? When they sit down and reflect on their life and the way they've lived and existence? I've heard plenty of believers say Jesus will find you if you just ask and truly believe, etc.

Every time I learn something new or exciting about the universe I feel the same way. You're forced to look at the truth of reality for what it is.
 

crackerboy

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OK, I just want to make sure I'm clear on what you're saying.

Are you saying that someone can only discover God while in these extreme moments of heartache and sorrow? When they reflect on themselves and their life after something traumatic has happened?

Surely you can't be saying that, and I don't think that's the position you're taking.

What about when a person does the same thing without going through something traumatic? When they sit down and reflect on their life and the way they've lived and existence? I've heard plenty of believers say Jesus will find you if you just ask and truly believe, etc.

Every time I learn something new or exciting about the universe I feel the same way. You're forced to look at the truth of reality for what it is.

I was not saying that this is the only way to find God. More like God uses these times to reach out to us. God shows himself when we are ready to receive him.
 

budlet

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crackerboy, what research have you done to validate this cults claims. adam and eve, the ark, moses etc etc. you will find that they are only validated in the bible. which was written by man, to serve mans purposes, to control.
please find the time to look at all sides of this sinister collective.

you seem a nice enough fella, little gulible but nice enough.

the things you have gone through are all part of coming of age, nothing to do with the outdated ramblings of the bible. why is the child molesting allah nothing to do with your experiences, or any of the other primitive belief systems ?
are you not concerned that the bible was re written because it became outdated, old testament ring any bells. come to think of it the new testament isnt doing so good these days must be due a remix.

i find it depressing that in this day and age some people still cant quite come to terms with the fact that we as a species are still looking for the secrets of the universe and will still be looking for many years after we all cease to exist.

why cant you accept this and drop all this nonsense ?

you dont need to be in a religion to be a good person, be a good person because you want to.

years ago people were tortured and killed if they didnt accept whatever religion the land owners wanted them to subscribe to. look it up. much better reading than that bible of yours.
 

crackerboy

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crackerboy, what research have you done to validate this cults claims. adam and eve, the ark, moses etc etc. you will find that they are only validated in the bible. which was written by man, to serve mans purposes, to control.
please find the time to look at all sides of this sinister collective.

you seem a nice enough fella, little gulible but nice enough.

the things you have gone through are all part of coming of age, nothing to do with the outdated ramblings of the bible. why is the child molesting allah nothing to do with your experiences, or any of the other primitive belief systems ?
are you not concerned that the bible was re written because it became outdated, old testament ring any bells. come to think of it the new testament isnt doing so good these days must be due a remix.

i find it depressing that in this day and age some people still cant quite come to terms with the fact that we as a species are still looking for the secrets of the universe and will still be looking for many years after we all cease to exist.

why cant you accept this and drop all this nonsense ?

you dont need to be in a religion to be a good person, be a good person because you want to.

years ago people were tortured and killed if they didnt accept whatever religion the land owners wanted them to subscribe to. look it up. much better reading than that bible of yours.
First of all little bug. I am much more educated than you obviously know. I have done many hours of research on all sorts of disciplines from electrical engineering to thermal and fluid dynamics. So don't come on here and try and belittle me on my own thread and treat me as some neanderthal. Why don't you go do some research on creation science and then come tell me that there could not be a God. As a matter of fact there is a very large part of the scientific community that support such science and have done extensive research. Go Google Dr. Raymond V. Damadian, Dr. John R Baumgardner, Dr. Robert Gentry, or how about some Evolutionists that converted such as Dr. Gary Parker or Nobel prize winner Dr. George Wald. Your arrogance looks a lot like ignorance from here.
 

Padawanbater2

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First of all little bug. I am much more educated than you obviously know. I have done many hours of research on all sorts of disciplines from electrical engineering to thermal and fluid dynamics. So don't come on here and try and belittle me on my own thread and treat me as some neanderthal. Why don't you go do some research on creation science and then come tell me that there could not be a God. As a matter of fact there is a very large part of the scientific community that support such science and have done extensive research. Go Google Dr. Raymond V. Damadian, Dr. John R Baumgardner, Dr. Robert Gentry, or how about some Evolutionists that converted such as Dr. Gary Parker or Nobel prize winner Dr. George Wald. Your arrogance looks a lot like ignorance from here.

Dude, again, no disrespect, but no mainstream scientist - anywhere, in any discipline - takes "creation science" seriously.

There is no such thing as "creation science".

How would we test to see if the Earth was created by God 6,000 years ago?

The claims made by creationists can't be tested using modern scientific methods.

Hence the "faith" aspect of belief.

Every single creationist claim I've ever heard has been debunked, that's without exception...
 

mindphuk

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First of all little bug. I am much more educated than you obviously know. I have done many hours of research on all sorts of disciplines from electrical engineering to thermal and fluid dynamics. So don't come on here and try and belittle me on my own thread and treat me as some neanderthal. Why don't you go do some research on creation science and then come tell me that there could not be a God. As a matter of fact there is a very large part of the scientific community that support such science and have done extensive research. Go Google Dr. Raymond V. Damadian, Dr. John R Baumgardner, Dr. Robert Gentry, or how about some Evolutionists that converted such as Dr. Gary Parker or Nobel prize winner Dr. George Wald. Your arrogance looks a lot like ignorance from here.
Please tell me where you heard the late George Wald at some point became a creationist because that would be an outright lie.
 

crackerboy

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Dude, again, no disrespect, but no mainstream scientist - anywhere, in any discipline - takes "creation science" seriously.

There is no such thing as "creation science".

How would we test to see if the Earth was created by God 6,000 years ago?


The claims made by creationists can't be tested using modern scientific methods.

Hence the "faith" aspect of belief.

Every single creationist claim I've ever heard has been debunked, that's without exception...

Not everyone believes the earth is only 6000 years old. I actually think that it was the creation of man somewhere around 10,000 years ago. And yes there many scientist that believe that there is sufficient evidence to show that creation is just a viable as evolution. Although a large amount of these scientist will deny God as the creator and instead use aliens as the creators. The reason you where able to debunk them is because you keep arguing science with a bunch of stoners on roll it up.
 

crackerboy

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Please tell me where you heard the late George Wald at some point became a creationist because that would be an outright lie.

You are correct I may have misstated his position. He was not a creationist but had been quoted saying something along the lines that he admits the evidence is there but he just does not like the implications so he "chooses" not to believe. I just read that recently and will try to post a link when I can find it again.
 
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