Haha, I hear ya. I had the same dilemma this last whole year, and chose to have a new violin made rather than doing any loopy projects. Violin underway, I feel it's time to do some adventuresome summer conjuring again, ha. I was thinking of doing an Ayahuasca brew, but I might have to add this to the list as well. I'm more insanely curious about DMT than I've been about anything thus far.
do it......
my dmt experience is limited to one, 50mg experience thus far, but my tripping experience covers much more than that..... DMT definitely has a "there" to take you to, and is more serious/clearheaded, but at the same time, more intense/trippy than that of any drug you've ever tried.... I didnt "breakthrough" on my first experience, but I'm damn sure going to next time
I've also never been so much at peace with myself after a trip.... at one point i was standing in my driveway (as i just kinda meandered around and looked at nature afterward) and turned around staring at my house, thinking, actually saying at one point, "this is my life... this is who i am... How do I feel about this?"..... but the answers did not bother nor elate me.... it was purely observational. "ego-death" is a term i've heard recently, and looking into, sounds about right....
in short, I say everyone should have one dmt experience, and not just when you are dying