It took about 16 months for my life to stabilize after my mom passed and I sat in one spot 18 hours a day for most of that time after the shock wore off and depression kicked back in.
Two weeks ago I went for testing on a suspicion of having ADHD thanks to an Imgur post, a random Imagurian and friends saying they thought I already knew.
Testing confirmed that I could be on the spectrum and I opt'd to try a low dose medication. I'm an addict in recovery and this is a huge deal for me. My favorite drugs of choice were speedy uppers and they wanted to put me on an Amphetamine. I didn't know if it would trigger me, if I was pre-triggered thinking about it and I was/am scared I'm going to relapse.
I'm two weeks into taking my new medication. I've missed one dose and I've gotten more done around the yard than I have in the last 18 months. I'm trying to stick to a close schedule for dosing myself and I feel I might be able to manage this new life. I stood in the middle of my yard and looked at all the work I've accomplished and thought; "Is this how healthy people live? Can they just think of doing something and then they do it? Can this be my new normal?"
It just might be and I did a thing to my F250.
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Now its time to get back to growing.