depressed as fuck

[Singlemalt]

well this is my last shot to prove other wise... so i guess i'll know soon enough

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its either this or... some shitty mundane 9-5 job

Why are they mutually exclusive? You can do both. But then you really don't want to do ya? You want the romantic life of a weed grower, get loaded, futz around and putter and get paid huge dinero. I'll be brutally honest here; you don't seem to have a rudimentary grasp of horticulture; you want to have "systems" plug and play. Its hard to fathom your naivety.

 

[Growan]

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What seed did you plant to grow a spade?

 

[Shed&Breakfest]

Why are they mutually exclusive? You can do both. But then you really don't want to do ya? You want the romantic life of a weed grower, get loaded, futz around and putter and get paid huge dinero. I'll be brutally honest here; you don't seem to have a rudimentary grasp of horticulture; you want to have "systems" plug and play. Its hard to fathom your naivety.

i think its as simple as being rusty as hell... i had great plants when i first grew. never had a single problem... now this go around its like i can't do anything right... in my mind. if i just didn't stop growing after the first harvest i'd be a pro. but it didn't happen that way and i had to relearn everything

but you are right. i am trying to have the romantic idea of growing and 'not'working

 

[Singlemalt]

thanks for the kind words. thinking about getting into carpet cleaning to be honest... not really excited to back off of my dream. but its not like i can't grow and work.

She is as nice as its gonna get around here, Pro-tip: don't piss her off

 

[lahadaextranjera]

thanks for the kind words. thinking about getting into carpet cleaning to be honest... not really excited to back off of my dream. but its not like i can't grow and work.

Ok cool. Make sure you leave all the windows open after you wet carpet vacuum because they don't like high RH whilst drying out. It actually impedes it.

 

[tytheguy111]

I'd say post '92!

im post 92 and i aint lazy as fuck

i get up at 4:30 rain or shine

dont matter if i went to bed at 4:00

i wake up at 4:30 and feed my animals

then go to the shed and start butchering dem cows

then i take some of the cow bones to the dog shelter (they fucking love it)

and then i go about my day hauling meats n shit

then i spend the rest of it doing ty related activities like jerking off and getting drunk or buzzed

quite fun until i start collage or join the force of air then ill have to get a full nights sleep and not do fun shit

 

[lahadaextranjera]

im post 92 and i aint lazy as fuck

i get up at 4:30 rain or shine

dont matter if i went to bed at 4:00

i wake up at 4:30 and feed my animals

then go to the shed and start butchering dem cows

then i take some of the cow bones to the dog shelter (they fucking love it)

and then i go about my day hauling meats n shit

then i spend the rest of it doing ty related activities like jerking off and getting drunk or buzzed

quite fun until i start collage or join the force of air then ill have to get a full nights sleep and not do fun shit

The 92 thing is a joke from another thread!

 

[tytheguy111]

i think its as simple as being rusty as hell... i had great plants when i first grew. never had a single problem... now this go around its like i can't do anything right... in my mind. if i just didn't stop growing after the first harvest i'd be a pro. but it didn't happen that way and i had to relearn everything

but you are right. i am trying to have the romantic idea of growing and 'not'working

just do as im doing and get a few grows under your belt so you can learn

then maybe move up the scale

for my 4th grow im growing about twice what i did last year

which is maybe around 10 plants depending on if i can find a strain i want from herbies

and if they germ

 

[Shed&Breakfest]

The 92 thing is a joke from another thread!

ah. ok, never would have known otherwise

 

[Singlemalt]

im post 92 and i aint lazy as fuck

i get up at 4:30 rain or shine

dont matter if i went to bed at 4:00

i wake up at 4:30 and feed my animals

then go to the shed and start butchering dem cows

then i take some of the cow bones to the dog shelter (they fucking love it)

and then i go about my day hauling meats n shit

then i spend the rest of it doing ty related activities like jerking off and getting drunk or buzzed

quite fun until i start collage or join the force of air then ill have to get a full nights sleep and not do fun shit

Go to bed, Ty; this isn't about you

 

[tytheguy111]

The 92 thing is a joke from another thread!

alas

twas i who was the boobarse all along

 

[Shed&Breakfest]

just do as im doing and get a few grows under your belt so you can learn

then maybe move up the scale

for my 4th grow im growing about twice what i did last year

which is maybe around 10 plants depending on if i can find a strain i want from herbies

and if they germ

ya you're 100% right about that. im just trying too hard to go from zero to 100

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though when your going onto 25 and feel like you haven't done anything of worth with your life up to this point its easy to feel over whelmed like shit ain't never gunna change. also probably should have added that i think im bi polar but im too afraid to be checked out for it cause then i won't be able to buy guns... lol

 

[tytheguy111]

Go to bed, Ty; this isn't about you

:0

man :'(

im telling my mommy you wont let me play with you!!!!!!!!!

 

[lahadaextranjera]

Go to bed, Ty; this isn't about you

Lol! He doesn't care does he?

 

[ODanksta]

just got a puppy about 6 months ago, chocolate lab... doesn't change reality tho

I fight depression myself daily.. I started threads myself about my depression, addiction and even started a suicidal thread once long long ago.. They didn't end up filled with hatred like this thread did, but it's probably because everybody knows me here.. We are a big family on RIU and unfortunately TnT is where we talk shit. RIU is way different then other forums.. I suggest getting a job like waiting tables or bartending surround yourself with hot chics, always works for me.. the trick is to stay active

 

[Growan]

alas

twas i who was the boobarse all along

Boobarse.

 

[tytheguy111]

ya you're 100% right about that. im just trying too hard to go from zero to 100

yeah and after 4 almost consecutive grows im finding out what i did wrong and what some of the sings are that shits going south

i suggest you print off a leaf guide that shows you different problems and what the leafs look like with those problems

this is a good one but i found one that showed what non nute problems where too

 

[Singlemalt]

yeah and after 4 almost consecutive grows im finding out what i did wrong and what some of the sings are that shits going south

i suggest you print off a leaf guide that shows you different problems and what the leafs look like with those problems

this is a good one but i found one that showed what non nute problems where too

Oh fuck!!!! We're doomed, Ty is acting mature. Shit the universe has increased entropy and Ty got tipped off

 

[lahadaextranjera]

ya you're 100% right about that. im just trying too hard to go from zero to 100

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though when your going onto 25 and feel like you haven't done anything of worth with your life up to this point its easy to feel over whelmed like shit ain't never gunna change

Look, this is how it is, I'm gonna tell you straight.
You aren't going to go from zero to hero overnight. You are going to have to burn a few plants along the way and also suffer deficiencies. Your development relies entirely upon your observation skills and motivation to study.
If a job's worth doing, do it well. No matter what you choose in life, you are going to have to be good at it. Expect a good few years or maybe a couple before you become a successful, proficient, consistent top shelf grower. What makes me an expert? I am one.

 

[vro]

I fight depression myself daily.. I started threads myself about my depression, addiction and even started a suicidal thread once long long ago.. They didn't end up filled with hatred like this thread did, but it's probably because everybody knows me here.. We are a big family on RIU and unfortunately TnT is where we talk shit. RIU is way different then other forums.. I suggest getting a job like waiting tables or bartending surround yourself with hot chics, always works for me.. the trick is to stay active

i know, i hate this shit i dont even feel real all day. my dick doesnt even work anymore and im 20, i dont know what its going to be like when im 60. this situation im in is super toxic, i used to live with this guy that ate 80mg of kpins in 1 day. i shit you not the guy swallowed 160 .5s at once, i thought he was going to die. then in the come down all he did was smoke heroin for a week straight. before that i grew with a guy in cali but it didnt work out well every where i go ive been getting fucked