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Shed&Breakfest

Shed&Breakfest

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so i finally got my medical licence about 5 months ago. and the last year (2014) really sucked because i had to wait all year to get my medical licence. and now that i've had it since November(2014) its felt nice to get back into things. But ive been waiting to get my bubble buckets going but its just when one things after another...

first my doctor who subscribed me; died a week after seeing him last... which in of its self isn't that bad, just sort of sad. Then it takes me months to get a female from feminized seeds. which in of its self is to be expected... shit doesn't happened over night after all. Then my soil starts to go and since its been almost two years since i've grown anything im wicked rusty and the plants starts to get sick. then the ph in the soil get all of out wack and its takes me a month to order some dolomite lime. now that i have it, i have a plant that is perfect ph wise but some how and this is what drives me crazy because i put the SAME amount of lime for each plant YET one plant is at 8.0 ph and the other is at a 6.8... WTF?!?!?

just the worst luck ever... in my mind. and now today to find out i lost 3 clones that i've been waiting weeks to root have been lost to white & black mold... apparently my cloning bucket's sprayers are too high out of the water and its keeping the rockwool cubes soaked... im so fucked its not even funny... and all the while i have school loans breathing down my throat and bills and everything else and this is my only income... just feeling so defeated... all i wanna do i get my fucking shitty loans paid off so i can move to colorado and get a key badge... but i can't do that until i get out of debt.... life is such a shitty wheel of fuck

so all in all be happy your not me
 
Iloveskywalkerog

Iloveskywalkerog

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Shed&Breakfest said:
so i finally got my medical licence about 5 months ago. and the last year (2014) really sucked because i had to wait all year to get my medical licence. and now that i've had it since November(2014) its felt nice to get back into things. But ive been waiting to get my bubble buckets going but its just when one things after another...

first my doctor who subscribed me; died a week after seeing him last... which in of its self isn't that bad, just sort of sad. Then it takes me months to get a female from feminized seeds. which in of its self is to be expected... shit doesn't happened over night after all. Then my soil starts to go and since its been almost two years since i've grown anything im wicked rusty and the plants starts to get sick. then the ph in the soil get all of out wack and its takes me a month to order some dolomite lime. now that i have it, i have a plant that is perfect ph wise but some how and this is what drives me crazy because i put the SAME amount of lime for each plant YET one plant is at 8.0 ph and the other is at a 6.8... WTF?!?!?

just the worst luck ever... in my mind. and now today to find out i lost 3 clones that i've been waiting weeks to root have been lost to white & black mold... apparently my cloning bucket's sprayers are too high out of the water and its keeping the rockwool cubes soaked... im so fucked its not even funny... and all the while i have school loans breathing down my throat and bills and everything else and this is my only income... just feeling so defeated... all i wanna do i get my fucking shitty loans paid off so i can move to colorado and get a key badge... but i can't do that until i get out of debt.... life is such a shitty wheel of fuck

so all in all be happy your not me
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I've been in worst shitty wheels of fuck and I never been compelled
to post about in RIU, I feel sorry for you that you have to go through what you're going through, but if you're looking for sympathy this is a terrible place to look.
 
Shed&Breakfest

Shed&Breakfest

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Iloveskywalkerog said:
I've been in worst shitty wheels of fuck and I never been compelled
to post about in RIU, I feel sorry for you that you have to go through what you're going through, but if you're looking for sympathy this is a terrible place to look.
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totally understand... and i knew there would be many many people only coming here for the laughs... but im at the point tho where i need to talk to someone or im gunnna end up killing people

so if that means getting laughed at by people who have more than likely been in hard times isn't really that bothersome to me, being where i am... that does bother me

im the type of person that has got to vent... and i can't tell everyone on facebook im growing so... here i am...lol
 
Metasynth

Metasynth

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Shed&Breakfest said:
totaly understand... and i knew there would be many many people only coming here for the laughs... im at the point tho where i need to talk to someone or im gunnna end up killing people

so if that means getting laughed at by people who most likely have been in hard times isn't really that bothersome to me, being where i am... that does bother me
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Can I have your HPS and ballast?
 
mr sunshine

mr sunshine

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Iloveskywalkerog said:
I've been in worst shitty wheels of fuck and I never been compelled
to post about in RIU, I feel sorry for you that you have to go through what you're going through, but if you're looking for sympathy this is a terrible place to look.
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He ain't going threw shit.. He killed 3 clones , can't grow bud and owes money for a school loan he Agreed to pay back. What's the problem here?@op I thought u were just playing bro that shit was funny
 
Metasynth

Metasynth

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Oh, and I've been paying off student loans for the past 8 years....still got 15K to go buddy, don't hear me crying about it...

Except above...

But you know...that was an example and all...


I mean, you get the idea, right???






There IS a difference...
 
Shed&Breakfest

Shed&Breakfest

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Metasynth said:
Before you get the boot...I recommend talking to a therapist or psychiatrist...Sounds like you need help that we can't provide for you.
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troll +1

honestly how do you not feel like shit for trolling someone who clearly isn't looking for more bullshit?

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LMFAO and learn to read bud... i never threatened anyone... smh... just go away. your not needed
 
Metasynth

Metasynth

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Shed&Breakfest said:
troll +1

honestly how do you not feel like shit for trolling someone who clearly isn't looking for more bullshit?

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LMFAO and learn to read bud... i never threatened anyone... smh... just go away. your not needed
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How do I not feel like shit?

I dunno....no conscience?

How do you feel wallowing in your own self pity, bro?

Haha...make you feel better to cry in public?
 
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