I took too much molly a few nights ago and have lingering anxiety

GemuGrows

GemuGrows

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Hey everybody, the other night I was in a sort of depressed zombie mode. I had been using largish doses of 5htp a few days prior to help manage my depression symptoms, i do believe the 5htp is what put me in a zombie mode. For me zombie mode is a state of actions unaccompanied by thought.

Anyways on the walk I took the bag of MDMA and probably ate a good 150-200mg at first, this is 100% an estimate I may be way off. I broke out of zombie mode and made it quickly back to my friends house because the first thoughts to pop in were suicidal thoughts. I ended up chilling myself out but I kept redosing molly all through the night. After the night was over my molly bag was gone and my buddy had maybe used about 50mg of it himself. I believe I maybe took up to 600mg of molly that night. I had rolled for my first time about 8 days earlier on probably 250-300mg, I am accustomed to strong experiences but in heindseight there is no reason I should have dosed that high either time, or that close together.

Anyways, my last doses of molly were on janurary 10th and since then i've had a good portion of anxiety and a general sense of "Not feeling like myself"

I also dropped my cannabis tolerance a good portion in the recent past, and smoking cannabis seems to be accompanied by a good portion of anxiety and paranoia.

I maybe preloaded with 1-1.2g 5htp in total the 4-5 days prior. My general thoughts are, how much longer will I not quite feel like myself? What can I do to make myself feel better? I have an appointment with a therapist on monday and i'm hoping that will start to help.

Really looking for some words of advice here /: I'm open to any ideas or words of wisdom, i'm honestly getting a little scared

As far as the experience goes I learned that I need to love myself and care for myself, but its being difficult to act on that lesson because of all this anxiety /:
 
CCCmints

CCCmints

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you took 4 times the recommended *strong* dose and now 5 days later you feel like shit. why do you seem so surprised? all you can do is eat healthy, exercise, drink plenty of waiter, and wait it out. or, you could procure some type of anxiety relieving medication to help you cope. regardless, you will come back to your normal state of mind eventually. no one is going to be able to tell you when that is, but all i can say is hold on...you'll be fine.
 
GemuGrows

GemuGrows

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CCCmints said:
you took 4 times the recommended *strong* dose and now 5 days later you feel like shit. why do you seem so surprised? all you can do is eat healthy, exercise, drink plenty of waiter, and wait it out. or, you could procure some type of anxiety relieving medication to help you cope. regardless, you will come back to your normal state of mind eventually. no one is going to be able to tell you when that is, but all i can say is hold on...you'll be fine.
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Please don't be a dick man I am not surprised in the slightest that I feel shitty. I'm simply looking to feel better /:

I've been walking my dog daily, started doing some volunteer work, got a therapist, have been eating as much as I can (I have anorexia so thats always been a struggle). I am not naive to substances, i had severely impaired judgment when I dosed.

I've always been one to guinea pig myself to spread wisdom later. This has been a true learning experience for me but I just would like to feel like myself again.
 
canndo

canndo

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You are not "yourself", you may never be that person again. That is not a bad thing but simething to accept. You will begin to accept what you are by doing what has been suggested. Time and care are the only fix, no pill save a benzo will help and they can lead you into yet more trouble.

This is no different than pulling a muscle excercising. It is uncomfortable but it heals or you grow used to it.
 
CCCmints

CCCmints

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GemuGrows said:
Please don't be a dick man I am not surprised in the slightest that I feel shitty. I'm simply looking to feel better /:

I've been walking my dog daily, started doing some volunteer work, got a therapist, have been eating as much as I can (I have anorexia so thats always been a struggle). I am not naive to substances, i had severely impaired judgment when I dosed.

I've always been one to guinea pig myself to spread wisdom later. This has been a true learning experience for me but I just would like to feel like myself again.
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i assure you, you will feel like your normal self again if you truy are putting in the effort you claim. don't let yourself feel doomed. it IS possible to become yourself and something much better than that. trust me. this is coming from someone who has also experienced a very life changing experience. you will be fine, in time, with work, i assure you!
 
high|hgih

high|hgih

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Fruits, I'd take some niacin. A good supplement to take for lingering shit that MDMA does is tumeric(curcumin), it works great for me. Marijuana.. Plenty of water..

The depression gets ya.. I was having issues yesterday because my dumbass ended up doing a whole gram of MDMA throughout the night before.. I lost my voice, felt extremely depressed, dizzy.. Numb.. Ick lol I looked like shit real bad.
LAUGH!
That's the best cure.
Seriously, get stoned, and laugh at yourself! If you can't make yourself laugh, then do it on purpose like an angry person, then that'll be funny. Run around your house screaming naked and dance like a retard. Repeat I AM A BEAUTIFUL BUTTERFLY in your head over and over.
Get stoned.
Laugh. :)

"humans are so cute, when we say goodbye we put our arms around each other and to show we love someone we bring them flowers. we say hello by holding each other’s hand, and sometimes tiny little dewdrops form in our eyes. for pleasure we listen to arrangements of sounds, press our lips together, smoke dried leaves, get drunk off of old fruit. we’re all just little animals, falling in love and having breakfast beneath billions of stars :~)"

^ I was on a tenstrip last weekend and when I read that I cried it was pathetic so there NOW CRY!!

And now laugh. Don't forget to get stoned man.
 

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MrEDuck

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It should pass with time. That is a pretty crazy dose and feeling like shut afterwards is to be expected. MDMA has hellish after effects when taken to excess like that. Though based on the doses you report and the urge to redose I'm quite confident you had methylone.
Try to get adequate nutrition.
 
GemuGrows

GemuGrows

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Thank you all for the help and reassurance I really do appreciate it.

I will definitely load up on as many fruits and vegetables as I can and one of my friends told me I should get Vitamin B complex, which I also plan on doing.

I have struggled with depression and anxiety for a few years so I am quite used to it, but this is pretty unreal.

@MrEDuck: I did a quick google image search on the stuff and it looks pretty similar to what I have, but so does molly. I didnt test the stuff, one of my old friends who use to do way too much molly got it for me and tried it and told me it was good so I got some. You don't have to tell me where I went wrong here I know where I went wrong lol...

Its one of those time feels so slow (Not in a trippy way or anything but just how it does when you are not having fun)

I'll probably take a toke when I have some friends come over pretty soon.

Thank you all again and I'm definitely down to learn even more about things that could help me
 
high|hgih

high|hgih

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It's actually pretty funny because I'm so stoned that I forgot that your original post was talking about taking a t-break and that it had to do with the anxiousness, and then told you to get stoned about 100 times.
I personally have a problem with anxiety, it gets better as the years go. But I can agree that pot is a huge factor in flaring that up most of the time. So I get it. Honestly though, smoking really helps the MDMA comedowns..

Yesterday I was dying it felt like and once I got off work I smoked and had a pretty good time.
@Duck.. Yeah.. Methylone.. I once bought an half of methylone for $400 from this jackass selling it as MDMA. Looked exactly the same and was not even fun. I'm pretty methylone costs less than that anyways!
 
luvhandles

luvhandles

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GemuGrows said:
Please don't be a dick man I am not surprised in the slightest that I feel shitty. I'm simply looking to feel better /:

I've been walking my dog daily, started doing some volunteer work, got a therapist, have been eating as much as I can (I have anorexia so thats always been a struggle). I am not naive to substances, i had severely impaired judgment when I dosed.

I've always been one to guinea pig myself to spread wisdom later. This has been a true learning experience for me but I just would like to feel like myself again.
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I am empathethetic so increase water, detox and it will pass. I know you feel horrible it will pass. I'd like to try it though to see feel the prooperties of it?
 
MrEDuck

MrEDuck

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Drugs are a wonderful pass time but they are a terrible way to try to manage depression and anxiety. That is a dark road to go down.
Methylone and MDMA look similar visually. The only way to be certain is to test your drugs!
 
GemuGrows

GemuGrows

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MrEDuck said:
Drugs are a wonderful pass time but they are a terrible way to try to manage depression and anxiety. That is a dark road to go down.
Methylone and MDMA look similar visually. The only way to be certain is to test your drugs!
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I agree completely. I have grown massively spiritually through my use of psychedelics, and have learned about and tried just about anything most people have ever heard of. I am not naive to substances, I respect them greatly and believe they have much to offer if used responsibly. I'm likely a lot better informed about all of these than my post came off as.

I had about 40 psychedelic experiences before molly ever came around

But I fucked up on this one, and i've fucked up before. All learning experiences that I can grow from and teach from. I'm sure that once my chemicals have stabilized as much as they can I will be far better off than I was before.

I do firmly agree about drugs not being the best choice to manage depression
 
luvhandles

luvhandles

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GemuGrows said:
I agree completely. I have grown massively spiritually through my use of psychedelics, and have learned about and tried just about anything most people have ever heard of. I am not naive to substances, I respect them greatly and believe they have much to offer if used responsibly. I'm likely a lot better informed about all of these than my post came off as.

I had about 40 psychedelic experiences before molly ever came around

But I fucked up on this one, and i've fucked up before. All learning experiences that I can grow from and teach from. I'm sure that once my chemicals have stabilized as much as they can I will be far better off than I was before.

I do firmly agree about drugs not being the best choice to manage depression
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dont be too hard on yourself just remember the dose ease off and lets be sure you stick around k? I'd hate to see you make a mistake and the heart get tachy or increase then end up in the hospital. We could trade stories I have done too much of a lot of things only to learn my limits now I have learn to respect like you that anything can end up being too much no one is immune to what you experienced. No judgement from me GemuGrows! I will say it will scare the pants out of you when it is too much,lol whew....
 
K

Kervork

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Mixing it with the 5HTP and taking 3 times the recommended dose reacted and killed your brain cells. Don't worry, after a couple months you will feel normal, the new normal.
 
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